live every second like it was my last one~

salam~

warning!! i think this entry will be super long..haha~

just arrived at fendi's..straight on my pc..need to thank my syg shida..hehe..u know why..ekeke..thanx for being there for me..walopon jauh..dekat tp jauh :D

6 hours on bus..i always love it..minus the kebas bonts..hehe..but this time..there's another problem..i keep on thinking bout 24..24..24..24...yes...i hate that number..so sorry i bring this up again..but i am so bothered with this new age..huhu..can i reverse the age..to be 22 again after 23? ^_^ 

moon so bright and beautiful last night..15th of lunar month maybe..pungguk rindukan bulan..but did bulan also miss her mr pungguk? cos i did.. very much last night~

i received email bout moon and prophet Muhammad saw:

Have a look tonight at the full moon shining and glittering in the sky, and remember our beloved Prophet Muhammad, Sallallaahu Alayhi Wa Sallam. And say: Allahuma Salli Wa Sallam Wa Barek Ala our beloved Prophet Muhammad, the one whose face is more beautiful, more guiding and more handsome and enlightening than that full moon. I ask You, Allah, our beloved Creator, to enable us to see the honorable face of our beloved Prophet Muhammad, Sallallaahu Alayhi Wa Aalihi Wa Sallam, in our dreams and in reality, and to enable us to visit his honorable Maqam in Medina soon.

May Allah Ta3ala bless you all my dear beloved brothers and sisters. My honest and sincere greetings to all of you on the coming and approaching of the month of Rabe3ul Awwal, the month of the brithday of our beloved Prophet Muhammad, Sallallaahu Alayhi Wa Sallam.

Wa Sallallaahu Wa Sallam Wa Barak Ala Sayedna Muhammaden, Wa Ala Aalhi Wa As habihi Ajma3een.

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will i ever dream of him? hope i will..one day..

continue the thoughts on the bus..so..i thought what will be this year..its almost february..usually..this is my favorite time..cos my birthday is coming..but this year..i dont feel the same..its the number again..gosh i am very conscience bout this..azy shake it off! bout my love life..i think it still there..but just me and my ego..thats the big fat barrier that i myself put to protect my heart..from being hurt again..something happen..and it make me think..i almost think to do things that could jeopardise everything like i did before..thanks to shida again..i got my mind straight..ehen sanity's back..i can think clearly..and this song came:

Tatoo 
 
Jordin Sparks 
 
oh oh oh

No matter what you say about love
I keep  coming back for more
Keep my hand in the fire
Sooner or later I get what  I’m asking for

No matter what you say about life
I learn every time I  bleed
The truth is a stranger
Soul is in danger I gotta let my spirit be  free
To admit that I’m wrong and then change my mind
Sorry but I have to  move on and leave you behind

I can’t waste time so give it a moment
I  realize nothings broken
No need to worry about everything I’ve done
Live  every second like it was my last one
Don’t look back got a new direction
I  loved you once, needed protection
You’re still a part of everything I  do
You’re on my heart just like a tattoo
Just like a tattoo
I’ll always  have you (I'll always have you)

Sick of playing all of these  games
It’s not about taking sides
When I looked in the mirror didn’t  deliver
It hurt enough to think that I could stop
Admit that I’m wrong and  then change my mind
Sorry but I’ve gotta be strong and leave you  behind

I can’t waste time so give it a moment
I realize nothings  broken
No need to worry about everything I’ve done
Live every second like  it was my last one
Don’t look back got a new direction
I loved you once,  needed protection
You’re still a part of everything I do
You’re on my  heart just like a tattoo
Just like a tattoo
I’ll always have you (I'll  always have you)

If I live every moment
Won’t change any  moment
There's still a part of me in you
I will never regret you
Still  the memory of you
Marks everything I do, oh

I can’t waste time so give  it a moment
I realize nothings broken (yeah)
No need to worry about  everything I’ve done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don’t look  back got a new direction (don't look back)
I loved you once, needed  protection (no, no)
You’re still a part of everything I do
You’re on my  heart just like a tattoo

I can’t waste time so give it a moment (i can't  waste time)
I realized nothings broken
No need to worry about everything  I’ve done (no need to worry)
Live every second like it was my last  one
Don’t look back at got a new direction (don't you ever look back)
I  loved you once and I needed protection
You’re still a part of everything I  do
You’re on my heart just like a tattoo
Just like a tattoo
I’ll always  have you 
 


this is today's song..should i really move on? please tell me something~

another story that i want to share with all..i always have this story in my head..this is what make me and my ego so high..i know maybe i misunderstood this~

.: WANITA IBARAT EPAL :.
oleh ayatayatcinta

Indah sungguh cuaca pagi itu.Angin bertiup tenang.Sinaran mentari lembut menerangi alam.Tapi sayang, itu semua tidak dapat memadam kegundahan hati sebiji epal yang berada nun di pucuk.Sejak seminggu lalu epal itu asyik berfikir, kenapa aku tidak dipetik orang? Kulitku licin mulus. Warnaku merah bersinar. Sesiapa yang melihat pasti terbakar seleranya. Pasti mereka terbayang betapa manisnya rasaku.Tapi kenapa aku tidak dipetik orang?
Epal tersebut memandang ke bawah.Hairan, kenapa manusia memilih kawan-kawannya yang berada di bawah sana.Bukankah mereka tidak mendapat angin paling bersih dan cahaya paling murni seperti aku yang berada di puncak paling murni ini? Bukankah rakan-rakanku itu ada yang sudah buruk dirosakkan seranggga?
Epal tersebut bingung memikirkan kenapa rakan-rakannya yang telah pun disentuh dan dibelek-belek menjadi pilihan, bukan dirinya yang belum tercemar dan dicuit orang.Apa kurang dirinya ini? Perasaan rendah diri mula bertandang. Makin lama makin menebal, diselangi rasa kecewa dan bimbang Murungnya tidak terganggu lagi. Lalu, pada pagi yang damai dan indah itu, epal tersebut menggugurkan dirinya ke tanah.Apabila sudah berada dibawah,hatinya gembira bukan kepalang. Sedetik lagi aku akan dipilih manusia.Warna merahku yang berkilau dan kulitku yang licin mulus ini pasti mencairkan liur mereka.
Epal menanti manusia bertuah itu.Malangnya sampai ke malam, tiada seorang pun datang mengambilnya.Buahan-buahan yang tergantung mudah dicapai tangan juga menjadi pilihan orang.Yang sudah dibelek-belek, dicuit-cuit dan disentuh-sentuh juga menjadi buruan.Rasa gembira bertukar menjadi risau.Daripada risau menjadi sedih.
Siang berganti malam, hari berganti minggu.Kasihan..akhirnya epal tersebut busuk ditanah menjadi habuan ulat dan serangga perosak….
Wanita itu ibarat epal. Buah yang tidak berkualiti amat mudah dipetik.Ia beguguran di tanah.Tapi epal yang tidak mampu dibeli, berada dipuncak.Susah dipetik susah digapai.Mahkota seorang gadis adalah sifat malu.Apabila hilang sifat malu,hancurlah maruahnya.Mereka sanggup jatuhkan martabat tingginya supaya dijamah orang lain.
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so what do u think? is it wrong if i let my ego down a bit? but this would be against what Allah has put me into..really dont know..

ok..so today start with so many thoughts~

peace n out ^_^