Sunday, January 31, 2010

live every second like it was my last one~

warning!! i think this entry will be super long..haha~
just arrived at fendi's..straight on my pc..need to thank my syg shida..hehe..u know why..ekeke..thanx for being there for me..walopon jauh..dekat tp jauh :D
6 hours on bus..i always love it..minus the kebas bonts..hehe..but this time..there's another problem..i keep on thinking bout 24..24..24..24...yes...i hate that sorry i bring this up again..but i am so bothered with this new age..huhu..can i reverse the be 22 again after 23? ^_^ 
moon so bright and beautiful last night..15th of lunar month maybe..pungguk rindukan bulan..but did bulan also miss her mr pungguk? cos i did.. very much last night~

i received email bout moon and prophet Muhammad saw:
Have a look tonight at the full moon shining and glittering in the sky, and remember our beloved Prophet Muhammad, Sallallaahu Alayhi Wa Sallam. And say: Allahuma Salli Wa Sallam Wa Barek Ala our beloved Prophet Muhammad, the one whose face is more beautiful, more guiding and more handsome and enlightening than that full moon. I ask You, Allah, our beloved Creator, to enable us to see the honorable face of our beloved Prophet Muhammad, Sallallaahu Alayhi Wa Aalihi Wa Sallam, in our dreams and in reality, and to enable us to visit his honorable Maqam in Medina soon.

May Allah Ta3ala bless you all my dear beloved brothers and sisters. My honest and sincere greetings to all of you on the coming and approaching of the month of Rabe3ul Awwal, the month of the brithday of our beloved Prophet Muhammad, Sallallaahu Alayhi Wa Sallam.

Wa Sallallaahu Wa Sallam Wa Barak Ala Sayedna Muhammaden, Wa Ala Aalhi Wa As habihi Ajma3een.
will i ever dream of him? hope i day..
continue the thoughts on the thought what will be this year..its almost february..usually..this is my favorite time..cos my birthday is coming..but this year..i dont feel the same..its the number again..gosh i am very conscience bout this..azy shake it off! bout my love life..i think it still there..but just me and my ego..thats the big fat barrier that i myself put to protect my heart..from being hurt again..something happen..and it make me think..i almost think to do things that could jeopardise everything like i did before..thanks to shida again..i got my mind straight..ehen sanity's back..i can think clearly..and this song came:
Jordin Sparks
oh oh oh

No matter what you say about love
I keep coming back for more
Keep my hand in the fire
Sooner or later I get what I’m asking for

No matter what you say about life
I learn every time I bleed
The truth is a stranger
Soul is in danger I gotta let my spirit be free
To admit that I’m wrong and then change my mind
Sorry but I have to move on and leave you behind

I can’t waste time so give it a moment
I realize nothings broken
No need to worry about everything I’ve done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don’t look back got a new direction
I loved you once, needed protection
You’re still a part of everything I do
You’re on my heart just like a tattoo
Just like a tattoo
I’ll always have you (I'll always have you)

Sick of playing all of these games
It’s not about taking sides
When I looked in the mirror didn’t deliver
It hurt enough to think that I could stop
Admit that I’m wrong and then change my mind
Sorry but I’ve gotta be strong and leave you behind

I can’t waste time so give it a moment
I realize nothings broken
No need to worry about everything I’ve done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don’t look back got a new direction
I loved you once, needed protection
You’re still a part of everything I do
You’re on my heart just like a tattoo
Just like a tattoo
I’ll always have you (I'll always have you)

If I live every moment
Won’t change any moment
There's still a part of me in you
I will never regret you
Still the memory of you
Marks everything I do, oh

I can’t waste time so give it a moment
I realize nothings broken (yeah)
No need to worry about everything I’ve done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don’t look back got a new direction (don't look back)
I loved you once, needed protection (no, no)
You’re still a part of everything I do
You’re on my heart just like a tattoo

I can’t waste time so give it a moment (i can't waste time)
I realized nothings broken
No need to worry about everything I’ve done (no need to worry)
Live every second like it was my last one
Don’t look back at got a new direction (don't you ever look back)
I loved you once and I needed protection
You’re still a part of everything I do
You’re on my heart just like a tattoo
Just like a tattoo
I’ll always have you

this is today's song..should i really move on? please tell me something~

another story that i want to share with all..i always have this story in my head..this is what make me and my ego so high..i know maybe i misunderstood this~


Indah sungguh cuaca pagi itu.Angin bertiup tenang.Sinaran mentari lembut menerangi alam.Tapi sayang, itu semua tidak dapat memadam kegundahan hati sebiji epal yang berada nun di pucuk.Sejak seminggu lalu epal itu asyik berfikir, kenapa aku tidak dipetik orang? Kulitku licin mulus. Warnaku merah bersinar. Sesiapa yang melihat pasti terbakar seleranya. Pasti mereka terbayang betapa manisnya rasaku.Tapi kenapa aku tidak dipetik orang?

Epal tersebut memandang ke bawah.Hairan, kenapa manusia memilih kawan-kawannya yang berada di bawah sana.Bukankah mereka tidak mendapat angin paling bersih dan cahaya paling murni seperti aku yang berada di puncak paling murni ini? Bukankah rakan-rakanku itu ada yang sudah buruk dirosakkan seranggga?

Epal tersebut bingung memikirkan kenapa rakan-rakannya yang telah pun disentuh dan dibelek-belek menjadi pilihan, bukan dirinya yang belum tercemar dan dicuit orang.Apa kurang dirinya ini? Perasaan rendah diri mula bertandang. Makin lama makin menebal, diselangi rasa kecewa dan bimbang Murungnya tidak terganggu lagi. Lalu, pada pagi yang damai dan indah itu, epal tersebut menggugurkan dirinya ke tanah.Apabila sudah berada dibawah,hatinya gembira bukan kepalang. Sedetik lagi aku akan dipilih manusia.Warna merahku yang berkilau dan kulitku yang licin mulus ini pasti mencairkan liur mereka.

Epal menanti manusia bertuah itu.Malangnya sampai ke malam, tiada seorang pun datang mengambilnya.Buahan-buahan yang tergantung mudah dicapai tangan juga menjadi pilihan orang.Yang sudah dibelek-belek, dicuit-cuit dan disentuh-sentuh juga menjadi buruan.Rasa gembira bertukar menjadi risau.Daripada risau menjadi sedih.

Siang berganti malam, hari berganti minggu.Kasihan..akhirnya epal tersebut busuk ditanah menjadi habuan ulat dan serangga perosak….

Wanita itu ibarat epal. Buah yang tidak berkualiti amat mudah dipetik.Ia beguguran di tanah.Tapi epal yang tidak mampu dibeli, berada dipuncak.Susah dipetik susah digapai.Mahkota seorang gadis adalah sifat malu.Apabila hilang sifat malu,hancurlah maruahnya.Mereka sanggup jatuhkan martabat tingginya supaya dijamah orang lain.


so what do u think? is it wrong if i let my ego down a bit? but this would be against what Allah has put me into..really dont know.. today start with so many thoughts~

peace n out ^_^

Saturday, January 30, 2010

going back to bangi~


so a week holiday over..tonight will be going back to bangi..huhu~

bangi wait for me..

got 2 bad news..2 bad bad marks for power sys and pom..damn...did my best already and this all i got? huhu..xpe la..sp soh wat xsehabis baik..xpe2..try again!!! yosh!! positive!!!

peace n out ^_^

Friday, January 29, 2010

it still hurt~


as i said is tiring house..oh mama..please get some help..this cant be done by us 3..huhu..

hurt: yes i read the blog again..since there is not a bit of hurt me..ok..i am being what..girls love if they are do i..even tho i always say i'm half..haha..its just me saying..just to hide the soft part of me..i hate to be seen soft and helpless..because i know i am..even tho i try hard to hide it deep down..i always wanted to be tough and independent..i know i need to be one~

haha..what has got into me? being emo all this while..haha..oh whateve~ tv1 again today cos remote still in front..and there's this program called "apa kata wanita" and the topic is andalusia which stand for anak dara lanjut usia..haha..nice upgrade from andartu (anak dara tua rite? ;p) haha..what got my attention is she said the age of andalusia is upgraded from 25 to 30..lucky they upgrade or else..i would be called andalusia next year..hahaha..the artist guess was haliza misbun and i love it when she say she is not at all disturb when being called andalusia cos she know she live better alone..she's happier alone..that make me thinking..she's an artist..a am just ordinary girl from ordinary place with mouths around that cant stop talking..can i ignore when they start talking bout me? can i ignore them like haliza misbun did?

ok..think now? nope...azy u got 1 and half year to finish before graduating so... focus!!!

anyone like vin diesel around and single? please let me know...i need u~ :D

peace n out ^_^

Thursday, January 28, 2010

a day older~


usually..when February is approaching..i would be extra excited..telling everyone that my birthday is coming..making count downs..etc..haha..but this year..24 seems too old to be doing all i decided to be silent..thinking of hiding my birth date on fb..but dont think it would do any leave it there..wont do any harm~

yesterday..after i found out friends are getting married..some are already married..some already have kids..make me feel 24 supposed to be my turning point..from adult mind is filled with these thoughts..not sure why am i so disturbed when thinking bout being 24..gosh i hate this number!

today mama said sumthing that really made my heart gugur..azy..tu boifren azy kt depan tu..p la tgk..i was like..who? in my mind..xkan **** datang? yuva ke dtg? watpe la plk..kalo sape2 pon camne mama ley tau? mama bru kuar bilik..xkn abah gne interkom kot? after 3 times i ask..sapa? then mama said..haha..azmi la..haha..lega..azmi is staying near our house..he came today to borrow tangga for something..since he moved in 2 months ago..mama keep on promoting him..rajin g surau la..cerah la..keje tnb klantan la..muka cam dafi la..aish..mama ni saje je tau.. but i cant find the courage to look at him..i was at the kitchen..and it is quite far to see who is who when they are standing at the front gate..haha..but i know he saw me cak2 him..hahaha..apala azy! get real la..haha..ok i'm blushing ^_^

tomorrow: i think tomorow going to be a super tiring day..need to clear the whole house..the whole house is filled with debu ..they fixed the doors so less danger..but more work for me..4 days sleeping without those doors..still i slept soundly like there's nothing to worry about..haha..told u i dont fear anything..except ghost..and Allah..if Allah say today thief will come..come la..there's nothing to curi one in right mind would keep money under their pillow la wey..go rob bank..there all the money is :D oh..i didnt say what are we doing with the house yet isnt it? we bought the house next its now semi-D turned bungalow..wuwuuu..bigger means more house chores..wuwuuu..the plan is to make the no 43 as anyone coming to kedah..u can stay at my house..for friends..the rate will be less la kan..kawan2 cincai kira ^_^ but i know..the real plan is..easier for my wedding..haha..perasan..its 8 rooms 5 toilets 3 kitchens OMG..cant believe these numbers..huhu..and that is why mama want me to do practical at Tnb alor that i can help with the cleaning..gosh..huhu..

hmm..its already thursday..i havent start with the report..luckily i don't have much work..i think..why oh why 1 week seems so short! it's true isn't it when the end of day is approaching..time seems too fast to catch~

i told mama what i want for my birthday this year..haha..hope she would remember next time i'm back..kekeke..a promise is a promise..i thought i would want a earlier present but seems the renovation consume tolerate la a bit..i'm a good girl isn't it ^_^

ok..hope mood swing end today..hope next week would be better..positive2! i know next week i would be quite busy with assignments and test 2..haihs...ok azy..jgn mengeluh~

today's song: jangan bimbang sayang..di manaku berada..ku tetap kau yang punya ^_^

peace n out ^_^

Wednesday, January 27, 2010



i planned to finish my power e report..but didnt take a look at it at all..haha..just found out another friend got its almost ten..asma's friend..syafa,faizah,farhani..tepengs..2 that i know el and syafwah..gmi..2 got engaged noreen and timi..and me? uncertain~

so to friends who already have found their happiness with spouse, congratulation! happy for u guys! hope my time will ^_^

peace n out ^_^

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

quit playing game with my heart~


remember the song? i love it! haha..think I first heard it when i was in standard nick carter soo much that time..haha..why i remember that song out of sudden..cos..i think my heart is being played (hatiku dimainkn? haha) i am still having this fear..i wanted to start loving u again..cos i know i do..but what u are doing make me think that u are not ready to be serious ye..or maybe this is how u will always be..on and off whenever u like..tell me what is that i wont feel like this again and tell u the truth..i am scared..scared to be in love again~

peace n out ^_^

Monday, January 25, 2010



so its holiday! love being at much to do since house is upgraded..haha..mama yg gne that term..upgrading the house..

You Are a Cirrus Cloud
You're a bit mysterious and reserved. You mostly keep to yourself and do your own thing.
Some people may even consider you allusive. You're hard to track down at times.

People who know you find you to be very transparent. It's always easy to tell what you're thinking about.
You tend to drift more than most people. You're always trying out new ideas, friends, and even personalities.

peace n out ^_^

Saturday, January 23, 2010

women girls mothers sisters xx females~

love this vid..thanx aiman..ko letak kt status..aku tekan2 suke lak ;p

what a day~


sorry..its been a while since my last entry..i am having such a terrible mood swing these few days..i felt so angry sad and avoid me talking rubbish i didnt do any entry~

so today..since its the worst day ever..i like to say something la..last day in uniten for this month..going back tonight..this morning till 4pm i went to cidb course..but this whole day i dont feel well.. diarrhea all day..even now my tummy is making thunder..gosh..head spinning..i havent eat anything but bread today..mood swing still and everyone is acting cold..what a day..went for laundry and money stuck in the laundry today cost me rm5 instead of 3..dugaan2..hope tomorrow will be better..or is it the last day for me? haha..ok..dark words again..shahida told me not to give up on life..baek! i wont..erm.i'll try! haha..not like i'm dying from any disease..just that i this sem felt so bad..the whole sem..even its only half way..what i expect didnt turn out what should i do? go with the flow sound's good?

ok..that all for today..from lonely and unfortunate me

peace n out ^_^

Wednesday, January 20, 2010



morning to all..happyg morning!! hope today will be as good as yesterday. i got test today, pom but god knows why am i so lazy to study. maybe the fact that kakak say he wont mind us looking at books..haha..bad me..why is happening to me? i can now simply selambe do bad things..which always surprise me when it's done..haish..wat tekejut konon..kono xcaye la kan dh terbuat jahat.haish again~

yes, yesterday was such a good day. tuesday was a 4 hours class but lab cancelled again(actually lab is to be continued after the sem break only that only we didnt know bout it..huhu..kejam sungguh org2 itu..ala..sp soh xmo tanya sir awal2..haha..ok..then me n kakak had breakfast at upten..i had nasi..huhu..but not so much..since tropik's lauk was so salty and i only had a few mouthful and finish the chicken..nyum2..felt like years i havent had chicken...huhu..miss kfc..then we went to the pc fair here in is not big but i found things that i wanted to buy..but since its already mid month so i bought keyboard cover and baju for my external hard disk..nice2..both cost me only rm 13..haha..wanted to buy the bag and the mouse..thought it was expensive there but since alya said rm40 for a wireless mouse is cheap so i would rethink ;p

then..biggest thing happened yesterday was the mock was kinda like my 1st interview..but come to think of it 1st was when i interviewed for prs by a board of seniors MT..haha..which i know k onny from..hehe..then MARA interview then the UTP interview then petronas(well thats not so formal) so this interview was the it was by the i was not so serious bout it..they ask then i answer but since i know they were from jobDB which held a talk bout CV writing my question for them basically on did i wrote a good resume..haha..and they say it was good enough..they like my surprise they say my qualification is very good..haha..very funny la u wasnt that good it i were to work with schlumberger..huhu..they say since i have the testdaf i should try applying schlumberger for my internship..i wanted to but hen i told mama bout it..mama say xyah la..dh dpt kn tnb tu..blk duk umah je la..huhu..why i felt this is will be a problem later on..lucky abah say go on..try la apply..yey! sayang abah! oh..and what i can conclude from yesterday's english is getting worse! can i improve on this? huhuhu..

the title?haha..almost forgot..i know i had no fear of human far my biggest fear is ghost..haha..and i hate dark because i know there's ghost..haha..oh and fear of Allah of cos.

You Are Unique Because You're Bold
Unlike most people, you're willing to say or do whatever you feel like.
You don't try to go along to get along. If you think you're right, you'll hold your ground.

You are rare in that you are completely fearless. No one intimidates you.
Like a snowflake, you follow your own path. You fly solo, and you like it that way!

oh2..ok..i already feel the tense..(just had my nescafe *wink2*) so ok la..till next post

peace n out ^_^

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

2 test~


2 test coming..and my eyes always feel like closing each time i look at books..haish2..
hope all goes well..scared already~

wed : POM
friday: power E

pray for me ya~

and all the best to all who will be sitting for exam or test anywhere u r! :D

oh n enjoy this song..thanx shida..membantu2 :D

ps: shortest post ever? ;p

peace n out ^_^

Sunday, January 17, 2010

puasa nasi minggu ni~

salam~ the title say..i wont be eating rice this week..gosh..gain almost 2 kg in 1 just 2 days..huhu..gosh..i hate weekend..see what prosperity sushi and nasi ayam can do to me..huhu..gosh again..the doctor say i need to rest from doing no JM..ala..its been months since i last do JM..haish..lazy me.but still i 'bangau-ed' the ice-skating incident ;p

oho..there's hot story in uniten..since its already out in newspaper so here i put the link..its kinda embarrassing and sad..what has youngsters today become? is this what uni student supposed to do? ok..i'm referring to the 'thing' they did in the car..we are not americans..we are not even aussies to do this things..if u say why can't we do those things..ask urself..are u a Muslim? then u'll know why~ about sushi..i sometimes forgot i am still in Malaysia..because there are too many or foreigners working around us..i thought we are 1Malaysia but seems that we are 1World here..we can find all nationals here..last 2 days i went to alamanda (yes..i went there on saturday and sunday..told u alamanda now felt like a kedai runcit to spare the nice clothes for going to somewhere else) ok..i went there with ita on saturday..went for movie and since my sayang(shida ^_^) make me craving i went for sushi..that was dinner since i already had prosperity for i went there..not so many customers..yey! it was my 1st time buying sushi there so i dont really know how..then i stood there..looking at each waiter..then none i go to the counter..i waited for the cashier to finish with his other customers..ok la..then tired of waiting..seems that everyone is waiting for dont know i sat first..then when a waiter came..i asked him how do i order for take-away..then he just smiled..he showed the menu..oh..ok..then i look at the menu..then i wait again..i thought he would come again..but nope..he i ask the cashier..actually how do i order for take away? then he say..duduk2..there's the menu..haihs..again the menu..then after bout 4min he came with the order form..then i waited again..another 10 min kot..then a malay guy came in..thank God i'm still in Malaysia..then he asked..dah order ke? i said..dah..dah lama gileee! haha..take it! he went for the sushi counter..omg! to my surprise my order was long ready! and yet he made us waited! omg!! then the cashier took merely 2 mins just to tape-close the sushi case.OMG! so slow!! i cant believe i can be that mad just for the sake of having sushi!! lucky him i was craving for those if not i would walk out the moment the first guy ignored me! people! if u are thinking of ordering sushi at alamanda..think again if u see only banglas and myanmar working! sorry..dont mean hate u..but after this, i would definitely go for those by my time and anger! ok..done with the story telling~ *relief*

next big thing i want to point out today..hehe..think shida would love this..rite sayang? ;p la~

peace n out ^_^

Saturday, January 16, 2010



i spent my night alone last night..and alone means no companies no internet..totally no interaction with any human..just me my bed and pc..haha..mbuang masa ngn jayanya selama 2 1-hour trials play then uninstall..haha..then feeling guilt..having 6 unfinished assignments got 2 test and a quiz next week..then i can headed back to loqstaq..haish..long long long journey~

oh..counter exceed 300! thanx all for visiting!! sometimes i felt shy thinking that there's is someone reading my thoughts..u kinda like edward cullen..but i'm the one telling..thanks again!! this is quite a big number to me cause i dont really publish it like most do when they have new i said..i shy2 laa ;p

i deleted last post cause i cant help feeling bad each time i read it..hehe~

so today, later around 11 maybe..need to go to kajang and buy tickets to go back on 23rd night..will go back with jiaying..seems so long since i went back with someone..usually i went back alone that i would ask for single that i can sleep the entire 6 hours...haha..heaven..then amik ita then we'r going to alamanda for movie maybe..its been so long since i last met ita..haha..2 weeks i think..funny rite..same uni but never bump into her at all in this 2 weeks..gosh~

oh..bit sadness..mama ask again last nite..and i said to her..its she can start to look for another candidate cause i dont think i can do it this 23 years..i failed to get maybe there's none for me..maybe it is my destiny to live alone..single and live independently like this..having mama n abah and friends..i cant be soft to guys..tendency to be equal is so maybe thats why guys dont find me i care? this is it or leave~ i am sad for this but well.i know Allah has plans for me..just maybe not now..sabar azy sabar~


peace n out~

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

suara sudah matang ;p


today i woke up, my voice changed..due to sneezing like mad last 2 days..thanx Allah my cough not as bad as eda's..the problem is she dont want to go to clinic or take our room is the problem i think..when i was at kakak's place yesterday..i dont felt like sneezing or coughing..but as i got here again last all coming back..or maybe my flu only come at night..this morning just the back ache and my breath sound..idung tesumbat sket lg..hope nothing to do with asthmatic..cant live with it anymore..huhu..

ok..enough bout sickness..i attended last talk the career fair organized..last night it was supposed to be about CV writing but it was so boring..few foreigner went back half an hour early..thank Allah there's something else that keeping me there ^_^ so hope next year dont ever call that guy from jobDB again..he was promoting the company all around..learn so few compared to the other talks..haish..the only thing i remember was a quote he got from steve jobs.."look for something you love..dont settle"..i find this interesting not only to working life but even for life..well..for my single life ;p

even kakak say she's ok being why cant i..i think..i am single all my life..but seldom that i felt lonely cause i got friends and my parents! so as long as they are with is not something that i crave so much..well i hope i can hold this for a while ;p

for fever havent quite today my fav song is this

Never Knew I Needed
For the way you changed my plans
For being the perfect distraction
For the way you took the idea that I have
Of everything that I wanted to have
And made me see there was something missing (oh yeah)

For the ending of my first begin
(Ooh yeah yeah)(ooh yeah yeah)
And for the rare and unexpected friend
(Ooh yeah yeah)(ooh yeah yeah)
For the way you're something that I never choose
But at the same time something I don't wanna lose
And never wanna be without ever again (oh oh)

You're the best thing I never knew I needed
So when you were here I had no idea
You're the best thing I never knew I needed
So now it's so clear I need you here always

My accidental happily (ever after oh oh oh)
The way you smile and how you comfort me (with your laughter)
I must admit you were not a part of my book
But now if you open it up and take a look
You're the beginning and the end of every chapter (oh oh)

You're the best thing I never knew I needed
So when you were here I had no idea
You're the best thing I never knew I needed
So now it's so clear I need you here always

Who'd knew that I'd be here (who'd knew that I'd be here oh oh)
So unexpectedly (so unexpectedly oh oh)
Undeniably happy (hey)
Said with you right here, right here next to me (oh)
Girl you're the...

You're the best thing I never knew I needed
So when you were here I had no idea
You're the best thing I never knew I needed
So now it's so clear I need you here always

Baby baby
Now it's so clear I need you here always

aha..i love the lyrics..and for now and God know how long the best thing i know i need is my parents and my small circle of friends..u know who u u! i know i can be bad sometimes forgive me..think i cant be good every seconds..then i'll be boring~ ^_^

peace n out ^_^

Monday, January 11, 2010



test power sys down..2 more test to go..on 20 and 22..then 23 got cidb course then go back on 24th! yey! haha..cant wait to see what happen to the house..

can i see premonition? i was about to pray asar..then i was like seeing something..i saw me..driving a car back to my house at loqstaq..and i was alone..but then i kinda like felt what the azy there felt happy even she was all by, balik kampong then when she want fun..she look for one with her was it? it was my 1st time..never happened before..was it how i'm going to live my life? well..single is maybe i would be one..for ever? can i? can i endure it? nothing is impossible rite? was it because Allah wanted to tell me that even without him i can also live my life..haha..seems ok to me~

i keep on playing ne-yo's songs..and my fav for now..are miss independent and single..haha..even when i woke up this morning suddenly ne-yo said to me..i'll be ur boyfren..hahaha..such a good morning!! love it! so i should listen to ne-yo's every nite so that my morning would be just like today's ^_^

tomorrow..i'm going to clinic to check on my back..why does it hurt even after almost a month..haish..hope nothing i got flu..huhuhu..pity those seat around me during test.i was coughing and sneezing the 1st half n sorry guys! cant help it..huhu..i was the 1st started making sounds..then everyone start to sneeze and cough..haha..funny..luckily i managed to finish all questions..even tho i dont know what i wrote there...;p

okies..sneezing still continues...hope it'll be better tomorow..or else my lab session would be catastrophe..hahaha~

peace n out ^_^

Sunday, January 10, 2010

me myself and i~


these few days..i avoid blogging cause i know if i did the post will filled with words that wont be nice to hear coming out from me..huhu..i dont know what makes me be so but i think i have a faint idea why..but know that i knew what caused me being not me..then i think i can change..and i thank shida for making me realize that i am way better than these. thanx sayang! xoxoxo

so to few who i was mad to..i am sorry..i know it was my faults..i dont know why i cant see it i hope it will be better tomorrow~

but 1 thing that i would like to ask all..i am no that nice to be saying yes to all request..i do sometimes wanted to say no..but thinking bout the face after the rejection..i never think i would bear i say yes..i say yes even tho i wanted to say no..i may look happy on the outside..but deep down there there's still a no..but well..i am soft..i'll be happy eventually..i always try to make things work out both eventho i didnt like it early..then after i will slowly grow the like and love..i want to ask one..please..try no to hurt my feeling..cause it would be ugly if i realize it then i would take my silent revenge..see told u i'm bad~

love: this a one topic that i want to skip for a while..i waited and waited..since that u'r back..i dont expect it to be like this..i know i might not up to ur expectation but ..ah well..since u r doing this to me..guess..this could be the end.i dont know how long i can wait still..i keep on thinking..why i wanted to wait..ithe key to my heart is with u..but why oh why i felt that u r keeping it somewhere on the shelf and forget u have it..oh2..this is sick..can i live alone..without a man to love and love me back?

ok2..i try to make this entry as my last entry bout love..cause each time i wrote bout this i felt bad and felt like a thing i know..i love Allah, my parents, my friends, umi, ibu and those who love me..i know sometimes i hurt u but please..i might have problems or things in my mind that i forgot to tell..oh2..i think i need to learn to shut my mouth..stop telling problems..try to spread some love azy! yosh!! positive!!!

oh yea..i've been searching for the song i love so much at ne-yo last time..haha..think it is this one..

peace n out ^_^

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

call me yati~


is it because it is normal to feel nothing at a time or is it because i choose not to feel anything? hmm~

yuva said something bout me skipping class..and i felt bad..haha..oh.there's an emotion..hoho..then i started to think that i really need to study..looking at other's faces..haish..they know something that i should also azy fast!

suddenly it make me thinking..what if i suddenly make people call me yati? hmm..then i would definitely change to another me..hahaha..which i cant really imagine..a lovely nur-amina-like-azy..hoho..anyone want to comment on that?

peace n out ^_^

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

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this week is full of ups and many things happened but my heart felt so empty and emotionless i would say..not knowing why..or maybe i do..but still cant believe it would be this bad..maybe i put my hope up too high..and now i am me myself and i..dont blame urself..cause its just me..deep down it hurt so much but i know what the use if i show it on the i'll be happy me on the outside..its ok.they wont know..its ok..that's the purpose me writing this tell the world but not to the world..will i ever recover? will i ever be loved?

24 24 24 24..why on earth this number haunt me so much? felt so old already..why am i already 24 but still single? haish..xpe2..Allah is saving me the best..saving the best for the last? ^_^ each time i'm alone..this would come..what if i die before i get married? sian mama..xsempat tgk anak pmpuan sorg dia ni kawen..huuu~ and diza will attend ne-yo concert this thursday! yey! OMG! kinda inappropriate to used insyaallah here isnt it? huhu..i wanted to sell it but since diza interested in i suddenly felt more excited! here it 1st concert ever! oh 2nd kot..1st one was samson..but that one dont count as it was free and i didnt really enjoy it..the company i went there with..haish..not regretting~

hmm..the thought came again..when those 2 makcik said i look like nur kasih..was it because my look? dont think it make me thinking..or is it because my sad life will be just like hers? huhu..xmo..but she did have her happiness in the end rite? xpe la..cobaan nih..tabah azy tabah~

okies..i thought i wont have much to write..haha..see unpredictable me~

peace n out ^_^

Monday, January 4, 2010



today started with sumthing unpleasant..but alhamdullilah it all turn well..even the test wasnt as good as i wanted..but ok least now i realized i need to do more! yosh! went to see mr fairuz..he explained..and i think i understand ira and i made a crucial decision..we r going to go see him every week..insyallah~

and on the way back..i met ir rashid..we talked for a while la..told him bout the placement i just got today..alhamdullillah..i got tnb kedah..yipee! so 5th april till 25th june i'll be back in kedah and work at tnb..hoho..expecting much! expectation is set due to current disappointing situation..sorry to say..i was disappointed this morning due to 'that' reason too..but well..gotta live and move on..oh well..maybe i'll u some time to rest and adjusted to life..time is everything now..

next big news..i'm going to be 24 this year!! gosh!! cant believe it! its too weird..i love 23..that's my most fav number..why most? cos i have more than 1 fav number..ekeke~ but 24? huhuhu..sounded ugly enough..and the fact that i just realized it this morning..still shock me till now..huhu..what's going to happen this year? huhuhuhu..1 thing i now..i need to be 'double' by end of this year..huhu..are u still interested? i'm still reserving ur place in here..but if u not ready or not interested anymore..please say so, so that i can start giving out forms *wink2*

haha..ok..i'm happier now..thanx so much ALLAH! My LOVE is just for u and beloved Nabi Muhammad..

peace n out ^_^

am i?

You Are Strong For Yourself
You see yourself as a natural leader. You believe in yourself no matter what.

You think other people see you as friendly, happy, and charming. You tend to get along well with everyone.

You want to see yourself as independent and free wheeling. You'd like to do your own thing more often.

You identify as a compassionate and accepting person. You pride yourself on being forgiving.



just arrived from aloqstaq...and this morning starts with disappoinment..but its ok.just a bit..i shouldn't mind much..just realizing the facts and gonna live with it..*sigh*

Saturday, January 2, 2010

happy new year!!


its 2010! welcome 2010 and adios much had happened back then..and i hope 2010 will be new hope new story new experience..and me? ^_^

oh..shida shared this blog..and i love it..and also this guide to buy gold ring ^_^

haha..ok..i am being weird and feeling weird..but somehow i like it..hoho..

happy birthday 2 u and welcome back..^_^

peace n out ^_^