engineer?

salam~

since my last entry here..i have been quite busy..and few times i opened the new post page and blank..seems nothing too interesting to be talked about..maybe i am concentrating more on my real life..haha..but addict is addict..now i am back! haha~

on tuesday..outing with shida again! she was the one doing all the shopping..i teman je..xpe sayang..anything for u! hehe..xpe2..jumaat ni aku g lagi..since duet mara dah masuk! yey! haha..shida said she might join me again this friday..but she's going back on saturday..so hope not so high there..its ok sayang..dah jumpe u 3 kali ok la tu kan..better than xjumpe langsung kan..anyway..miss u love u! ^_^

wednesday: i am amazed with myself! went to uniten at 8am..study power sys for 2 hours..1 and a half maybe..class at 10am..11am- 3pm study comsys..3pm went to see dr ungku for future questions (cewah~) class 4-6pm. 7-9.30pm again power sys at library..hoho..
*saya kagum ngn diri sendiri..sekian~

but still..i am looking for the best ways to study power system..been thinking to look for someone in the field like mr hazizi..but since the relationship didnt go well the last time..so the niat stopped there..huhu..big regrets..wuwuu~

about the title, i've met dr izham n dr ungku to ask what to take for the elective subject next year..and among those not so few choices..i begin to think..what do i want to do with my life later? be an engineer? be a housewife? be a lecturer? be a researcher? be mother? haha..engineer is my ultimate choice..but this sem..since i have taken few subjects that are closely related with electrical power..life seems so much different..and obviously not so easy anymore..that's the nature of taking degree i think..it cant be so easy..if it is then anyone can be a degree holder..haish..go schuzyy go!! u can do it! they say we can do better if we have inspiration..i had one..but lost it now and i miss him a lot..trying to look for another..but seem useless since i have rock hard heart now..nothing seems so important anymore..than understanding power system..seriously! i feel like boiling the book and drink the water if that can make me understand better..why does it seem too hard to digest? hish..i am soo worried  now! not knowing what i can do best..i lost myself..erk..ok2..be strong2! i know i can do it! dr au! help me please! T_T

power system is easy! yosh! glad i can find things to occupied my mind with~

sogo tomorrow anyone? ;p

peace n 0ut ^_^

i'm happy today!

salam~

it's sunday but i am happy..usually sundays are days when I will be sad because of 'that' and because of the next day is Monday. But today..it is just wonderful..morning started late but there were 2 happy events happened today. 1. Kak Na's Engagement Day 2. Kenduri @ Hazirah's house

the look on Kak Na's face..i can feel the love and the happiness..i think that was the first time i attend someone's engagement. i love it! then i found out few friends also got engaged..wow! it is the 'musim bertunang'. hehe..i am so happy for u guys..even mine is still not around but i will let faith decide ^_^

then we headed to ibu's house..after stopping at eda's house to play with kimi and eat her kuih  raya..haha..tu la eda..sape soh wat kuih sedap2 sgt..hehe..at ibu's we ate and ate and ate..very kenyang la today..haha..ibu n ayah is going to Mekah on this 8/11/2010 so i will definitely go visit them again to pass the 'pesanan'..hehe hmm..i will make a very long list! aha..to be kurus to find a guy to love to grad with cgpa 3.5 to find a superb job with rm16k a month (erk..fresh degree? haha) to live happily ever after..cewah..too much schuzyy! :D

i love today so much! i hope nothing would go wrong tomorrow..amin!

today..i observed people..like always..and i find love..and strength in their relationship..which i think i have never found.. yet..referring to a note i posted on facebook..love is to be happy and loved, not when it is full with tears..love is when u can give n take..love is to share everything with the one u love..even if it is problems and happiness..love is true when u can share ur own family with her/him..and making urself one of his/her own. because in Malay marriage..we are getting married not only with him/her but with the whole family..which will make the story a lot different when it gets to the next stage~

when i look in their eyes and faces..that's a feeling i always wanted to feel..but still i havent found..when will i find it? i will still pray to the Al-Mighty for the best..insyaallah~

oh..another thing i love today..ayah said..i can even go to their house kalo rasa runsing..haha..funny la ayah..thanks so much! having the love from my mama abah and ibu ayah is so much of bleesing in my life! janna walopon ko anak angkat dorg xpe aku xjeles..sebab rumah aku lg dekat ngn rumah ibu..hehe..saje nak bagi ko jeles..kikiki..nnt ko balik nk ikot gak eh kalo ko g umah ibu..ye aku tau ko bace ni..hehe~

so this week..will be super busy with power sys 2 test on friday and tonnes of catching-up to do..final exam is around the corner! takot2! and oh date with shida on tuesday! :D

yosh schuzyy yosh!!!

i still got the shock when people address me with the name schuzyy..and i dont know why~

peace n out ^_^

special dates~

salam~

ok..another entry..omg! eis notes was waay too much..oh i think it is because i procrastinate a little too much..hehe..and now my brain need some rest..so here i am..resting by blogging ^_^

few days ago..while i was studying with my friend eryn,  i was telling her my niece is getting married on this 101010..and the topic went on and on..and then we listed down all possible best looking dates there is..in the nearest future..hehe~

101010 : sunday; good!
101112: saturday ; superb!
080910: wednesday; working day not good
091011: sunday; good
111111: friday..aha janna! machih la bgtau..mmg sesuai ni..tp ni tarikh kenduri kt kedah la..hehe~
101112: saturday; superb!
111213: wednesday; working
20-10-2010: wednesday;working
20-11-2011: sunday; good!
20-12-2012: thursday; ok la in kedah i guess..haha~
23-2-2023: thursday, hoho..i will be soo old already..hmm..37 and still look like school kid? haha~

 that's all i can think of for now..omg! i get really excited already..well..mine is still beyond imagination..but i am quite excited thinking that my friends are getting engaged, getting married and even getting babies! omg! i am soo happy for u guys! just dont forget me on ur beautiful days ok! ^_^

oh2..my asma friend's faizah got her 1st baby already..congrats girl! and coming..aliyya..cant wait to see ur baby! must be cuter than u! ;p

peace n out ^_^

spreading the love y'll~

nescafe~

salam~

tomorrow: EIS test..covered 30% ..trying to finish 70% this evening but i accidentally took nescafe..and i end-up shaking and shivering..regrets~

friday: Control test..no more nescafe please~

i was happy again last night..one more compliment of me looking like budak sekolah..hehe~

but i am wondering..should i accept the compliment as an insult? so that i would change? or not? haha~

i think i am happier like this..compared to them i am bit older but luckily i have a younger look..so no one would suspect..hehe~

peace n out ^_^

what i love most~

salam~

since start of the semester..this is the first time i came back home..so special special treatment was given by both my parents..hehe..felt so loved..love it! love them..and i somehow taken advantage of that..kiki..not much..just requesting to eat this and that..i think most of us who live apart from the family will do that right? so this time..they didnt see me for almost 2 months..which never happened before..usually i will come back once every month..so my experiment proves right! haha..and here's the evidences:

1. mama seems wanna keep me for herself..usually she will take her nap in the hall..but this time..she was always in my room..which made me soo nervous she might ask things that i couldnt answer. and that too didnt occur..yey! lucky me~

2. abah seems jealous of above fact and look very eager when it comes to cooking time..he would cook anything i want..just say it..hoho..love u abah!

3. mama cook! and gosh how much i love her cooking! i miss those times when she used to do what abah do nowadays..cook anything we ask..hehe..oh..mama didnt cook anymore now because of health reason..those who met mama will understand..it's ok mama..u took care of us longer enough..it is time for abah to take charge of the kitchen..hehe~

4. they didnt mind me staying up late going online! and most importantly..they didnt mind i woke up late! haha..which  too never happened before..haha~

mama abah! i love u both! esok dah nk balik bangi..miss u already! huhu~
will be back again on 101010 insyallah~

peace n out ^_^

is trying to cope with life..once more~

salam~

last night was a blog-walking night for me..and there were so much i found very helpful indeed..and i think..i will be doing so every now and then..because it make me think and rethink..and relief~

here's few things that i think should be repost on my blog..just for my own reference when i need it~

first: Girls need to realize this -

Written by a guy

We guys don’t care if you talk to other guys. We don’t care if you’re friends with other guys. But when you’re sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room and you jump up and tackle him, without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off. It doesn’t help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we’re still there.

We don’t care if a guy calls or texts you. But at 2 in the morning we do get a little concerned. Nothing is that important at 2am.

Also, when we tell you you’re pretty / beautiful/ gorgeous / cute / stunning, we freaking mean it. Don’t tell us we’re wrong. We’ll stop trying to convince you. The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence.

Yeah, you can quote me.

Don’t be mad when we hold the door open. Take Advantage of the mood im in.

Let us pay for you! don’t feel bad. We enjoy doing it. It’s expected. Smile and say “thank you” .

Kiss us when no one’s watching. If you kiss us when you know somebody’s looking, we’ll be more impressed.

You don’t have to get dressed up for us. If we’re going out with you in the first place, you don’t have to feel the need to wear the shortest skirt you have or put on every kind of makeup you own. We like you for who you are and not what you are. Honestly, I think a girl looks more beautiful when she’s just in her pj’s. Or my tshirt and boxers, not all dolled up.

Don’t take everything we say seriously. Sarcasm is a beautiful thing. See the beauty in it. Don’t get angry easily.

Stop using magazines/media as your bible. Don’t talk about how hot Chris Brown, Brad Pitt, or Jesse McCartney is in front of us. It’s boring, and we don’t care. You have girlfriends for that.

Whatever happened to the word “handsome”/”beautiful”, I’d be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me with “Hey handsome!” instead of “Hey baby/ stud/ cutie/ sexy”or whatever else you can think of.

On the other hand im not sayin’ i woulndnt like it ether ;)

Girls, I cannot stress this enough: if you aren’t being treated right by a guy, dont wait for him to change!!!!! Ditch his sorry butt, disgrace to the male population & find someone who will treat you with utter respect .

Someone who will make you smile when you’re at your lowest .

Someone who will care for you even when you make mistakes .

Someone who will love you, no matter how bad you make them feel .

Someone who will stop what they’re doing just to look you in the eyes ….and say ‘i love you’ ..and actually mean it.

Give the nice guys a chance.

Guys repost this if you agree.
Girls repost this if you think it’s cute.

Every Guy who isn’t a jerk will agree with this,
so we hope that all the girls that read this will repost this.

ps: thanks for saying those sweets words..whoever wrote this..this would definitely be an eye-opener for every girls~

2nd: for guys~

my words: i still cant understand why u keep on doing this things to me..i hate it when it happened..and it always happens..i hope u can tell me what i did that make u do this to me quite so frequently if u remember..because i do remember well..each time this happened..i will be torn but when u came back..i will recover..but please..i do need some explanations..please n do please tell me..so that i would understand..even if it will hurt me..but at least i will try to understand..i read ur blog..and as always..no hint..just that u are perfectly happy without me..making me feel more miserable..making me feel that i am the one having problems here..having to live the life without u..

if my words the other day what making u do this to me..i am sorry..it was never true..i'm just saying it to see how u would react..but i see that ur reaction kinda show that u might just dont care..again i am sorry..

call me stupid call me low..but this is what i call LOVE~

tell me so that i can understand..please please please..even if this is the end of us~

peace n out with sorrow~

life as it is~

salam~

life can be hard can be weird can be happy can be hateful can be stupid can be annoying can be pathetic can be wonderful can be empty..

but actually it is all depends on how we accept it..

just live with it..

enjoy every moment of it..

who know..this bad moment could just be one silly moment for us to laugh at tomorrow~

“Allah tidak membebani seseorang melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya. Ia mendapat pahala (dari kebajikan) yang diusahakannya dan ia mendapat siksa (dari kejahatan) yang dikerjakannya. (mereka berdoa): Ya Tuhan kami, janganlah Engkau hukum kami jika kami lupa atau kami tersalah. Ya Tuhan kami, janganlah Engkau bebankan kepada kami beban yang berat sebagaimana Engkau bebankan kepada orang-orang sebelum kami. Ya Tuhan kami, janganlah Engkau pikulkan kepada kami apa yang tak sanggup kami memikulnya. beri ma’aflah Kami; ampunilah Kami; dan rahmatilah kami. Engkaulah penolong kami, Maka tolonglah kami terhadap kaum yang kafir.”

On no soul doth Allah Place a burden greater than it can bear. It gets every good that it earns, and it suffers every ill that it earns. (Pray:) "Our Lord! Condemn us not if we forget or fall into error; our Lord! Lay not on us a burden Like that which Thou didst lay on those before us; Our Lord! Lay not on us a burden greater than we have strength to bear. Blot out our sins, and grant us forgiveness. Have mercy on us. Thou art our Protector; Help us against those who stand against faith."

(QS Al-Baqarah:286)

peace n out ^_^

to cry or not to cry?

salam~

it is weird how people treat others these days? they are ignoring what was told to do and did the forbidden..and hoping for the greater good? now or then? or now or never? past and future? fun and sorrow? young and old? each of those really made me thinking..which should i consider? balance? how? more there and we will stuck in sorrow here..more here..then we will stuck for a longer period there..hmm~

pressure pressure..mama is hinting on my future..and gulp2..no answer..help me anyone!

ok..mood swing..beware of schuzyy~

peace n out ^_^

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selamat hari raya maaf zahir n batin!!

salam~

it's raya again! yey! but ramadan has gone..never knowing will i ever have the chance to meet it again~

1 thing i love about raya..besides all the food the forgiving the love the family..one more..the commercials..iklan.. hehe..i always love iklan during festive season..love the message they trying to deliver. here's one of my favorite this raya~



i read a blog when i was searching for this vid..and the author said..he couldnt understand why they even made this video..the message wasnt obvious and all..well for me..i think..it is kinda simple..or maybe it is up to  individual how to interpret the message..but seriously i think this iklan dont need a genius to explain the message..

my interpretation: the uncle is going to the old folks's to visit his wife who has Alzheimer.. obvious..the weird part is..a handsome guy riding a bus..haha..ok2..thats subjective..then..what i like about this iklan..the message of how LOVE of an old couple can stand strong even when the wife cant remember her husband anymore..yet the husband still pay her a visit..bringing her food everyday..and still love her with all his heart..gosh..this is what we called.."Cinta Agung" gosh! beautiful~

if u ever read one of my entry back then..i said about me having a hobby of observing old couples..i love to them everywhere..started with my own parents of course..hehe..the love is so strong..i always wonder..can i ever have the same love as them?the love that can withstand all obstacles life can give.. i will love u with all my heart..but can you love me more? i may not show my true way of loving now..but i am keeping them save for my future husband..Insyaallah~

ok2..enough mumbling schuzyy~

tomorrow..more relatives are coming..so better have a good night sleep..more makan coming..hehe~

peace n out ^_^

and have a happy Raya! :D

last Friday of Ramadan 1431H~

salam~

Insyaallah we will celebrate raya on the next friday..so today is the last friday of ramadan..felt different when me, k onny and farah had our last sahur together just now..apart from me telling them today is our last sahur this year together..the feeling the emotion inside me all weird..happy..sad..flattered..terharu..everthing..just everything..

regrets..i am regretting not taking my chances of ramadan this year..i hope today i can do my terawih..huhu..i know i am worse than last year..realizing the fact that this is the last ramadan..the fact that this can be my last one..just making my regret's list longer..I'm sorry Allah~

aku hanyalah hambaMu yang kerdil yang sering lalai dalam kehidupan..
bantulah hambaMu ini untuk memperbaiki kesilapan ya Tuhan..
aku ingin menjadi antara yang terbaik..
yang hidup tanpa kegagalan..
kegagalan yang membuntukan..
yang hidup tanpa penyesalan..
penyesalan yang menyesakkan..
aku hanyalah hambaMu yang hina..
aku masih mencari jalan-jalan lurus..
jalan-jalan yang dapat aku ikuti..
demi mendekatkan hatiku padaMu~
semoga hari-hari terakhir ini cukup bagiku..
cukup bagi memenuhi neracaku..
demi kesejahteraanku di kehidupan nanti..

amin~

wasnt a good day~

salam~

yesterday was not a very good day..

met rude people~

met weird people~

being annoyed~

being tired~

and thank God raya holiday is coming! yey!

i really really really need this~

ita..thanks ikot aku smlm..kalo xde ko smlm mesti aku tensi je ngadap kakak tu..huhu

n kakak (idalia) thanks for ur belated birthday celebration last night! thanks for the cupcakes too! yummy! ^_^

hope today will be much better than yesterday~

peace n out ^_^

holiday is always my favorite!

salam~

it was merdeka day holiday yesterday..i was at home almost all day..supposedly planned to spend time with my dearest friend (u-know-who..haha..sronok emo ngn u smlm..kikiki) but end-up she was busy with her family..it's ok..i understand..so around ita and I went out around 6pm for our ultimate journey of the Merdeka day..chewah..not so much of a journey..just a few last moment spend with the car, Jason before i sent him back to my brother..huhu..thanks Fendi for lending me the car for this 4 months..sorry for all the ehem..breakage to the car..i promise i change everything when i got a job later..hehe..

ok2..here's the itinerary..cewah~

6pm: out from bangi toward KL, fendi's house..main purpose was to take my folder and find all my results slips..but none was there..huhu..

8.30pm: search for berbuka place..haish..we actually break fast with only kerepek n kuih raya courtesy of eda..machih ye eda..sedap gile r kuih buatan ko..nanti bg lagi ye..hehe~

9pm: due to traffic jam..we were stuck at Kampung Baru..and because the kedai we intendedly to go was on the opposite side of the street..we cant find parking..so we decided on finding another place..KL kan besar..kononnye..huhu

9.30pm: arrived at Keramat area..because next destination was a restaurant there..but unfortunately it wasnt there anymore..huhu..sad..so we continue the journey..oh..its keramat..so i called shida..but she was preoccupied with something..hehe..and by the time she called me back..i was already at MRR2..so we decided to find a place in bangi..frustrated~

10pm: decision has been made..makan at serdang..haha..because bangi seems to sad because we had 'tawaf' the whole KL but in the end we end-up eating in bangi? no way..so serdang sound better..hehe..and try this kedai i remember a friend say good..but it wasnt so good after all..had our usual menu..and the tomyam wasnt as good as we used to have..so big 'pangkah' for the kedai..sorry!

11pm: arrived at home at last, home sweet home..

hoho..that's pretty much everything i did yesterday..other then sleep..haha..so unproductive schuzyy..not good!

so today's plan..9am: class 10am: KL again..MARA to be specific..4pm class till 7pm mind u..huhu..talk again today..oh2..kakak said she wanted to celeb her birthday again today..so maybe will buka puasa with her today..hehe..thanks kakak! oh2..happy belated birthday to my kakak, miss Idalia Shariena! happy 25th kakak..always happy and cheerful!! love u! muah2! xoxo ^_^

peace n out ^_^