aaaa..kecemasan~

salam~

waa..a friend of mine called today..and he said something about our lecturers being frustrated with all of us being not up to their standard. omg! *slapped in my own face*

ok..i am frustrated with my power sys..i love that subject but seem that i cant really digest everything..or should i say anything..huhu..this is not me...and i don't like it!!!

3 papers down..and only 1 i am quite satisfied..the other 2..kinda went into the drain..so let just hope everything will turn out fine~

so another 2 papers..30th and 1st nov 2010..and i will be free for a month! yey! but during the holiday..i will be going up n down MARA to beg them to continue my scholarship/loan..their mistake and i am the one suffering~

but still..i have time for this..hehehe..just having some relax time out of my serabutness~

Lirik 150 Juta – Fynn Jamal

Untuk kali ke seratus lima puluh juta
Mereka tanyakan engkau soalan yang sama
“Eh kenapa kau masih lagi mahukan dia?”
“Apa kau buta apa kau pura-pura suka”

Di seratus lima puluh juta kali itu
Di depan semua engkau tarik tangan aku
Yang sedang buat muka kosong tak ambil tahu
Sambil ketawa engkau bilang satu per satu

“Dia mungkin bengis seperti singa”
“Tapi dia nangis tonton cerita Korea”
“Dia mungkin keras bila bersuara”
“Tapi dia jelas jujur apa adanya”
“Aku lagi kenal dia”

Eh dah lebih seratus lima puluh juta kali
Aku pesan padamu apa yang bakal jadi
Engkau dan aku ada mungkin tidak serasi
Engkau sangat manis aku ini pula dawai besi

Di setiap seratus lima puluh jutanya
Aku pun dalam hati semacam tak percaya
Apa kau lihat pada aku jujurkan saja
Terus kau cubit dagu aku sambil berkata

“Sayang mungkin baran tak kira masa”
“Tapi sayang tahan kalau yang salah saya”
“Sayang mungkin saja keras kepala”
“Tapi sayang manja bila kita berdua”
“Saya kenal sayang saya”

Buat apa di cerita
Bahagia kita rasa
Biar tak dipercaya
Peduli orang kata

Baju ronyok tak apa
Asal pakai selesa
Berkilau tak bermakna
Kalau hati tak ada

Aku lebih bengis dari sang naga
Tapi bisa nangis semata demi cinta
Suaraku keras tak berbahasa
Kerna aku rimas gedik mengada-ngada

Aku mudah baran tidak semena
Mana boleh tahan angin cemburu buta
Dan aku sengaja tunjuk keras kepala
Aku punya manja kau saja boleh rasa
Rahsia kita berdua

so help me Allah~

make me n this little heart strong~

peace n out ^_^

this is funny~

salam~

finals is in few days time..and i am spending my night here..burning the midnight oil to google my ex..haha..one and only i guess..lol..see how inexperience i am in the field..haha..nevermind me~

i was watching the ex list with ita the other day..yes it was soo 2 years ago..i am always an old-school type..oh ok..my ex list..well not to say list..just one..haha..so..what's about it? i dreamt bout him few times this week alone..and it felt weird..it has been almost 6 years..and we was together for only few months..and we only see each other faces twice in about few minutes..1 hour top! what do u expect? i was 18 back then..young and innocent..not knowing what to expect..the drama was always so memorable..first love they say..funny..with all the dreams..plus with few times i kinda like see images of him..em..actually..it was like..i saw my neighbour..but with his face..the other time was at uni..in the lift..the guy look just like him..gosh..do i miss him? i guess so..hehe..so tonight..i spend the night google-ing him..and to my surprise..i did found him! ahaa..that really amazed me..just that me and internet didnt get along too well..usually i wont find what i'm searching for..and this time..i did found what i searched for. thanks Allah..i did add him on fb..hoping he would approve..not expecting much..just be friend again..the memory still fresh..i remember quite everything he told me..and pretty much all of what friends told me bout him..no worries..only the wonderful things..the bad ones..long gone~ ;p

ok schuzyy..u are too into that 'Ex list'..lucky u have only one to google on..final schuzyy!!! focus2!!!

again~

all the best everyone!!! ^_^

aha..hyper when needed..love it!

salam!

yey! i am hyper! i love it! study schuzyy study!!

oh..my lovely respectable dr au had posponed the power sys final paper to 26th..so my 1st paper will be on monday..25, control sys! yosh schuzyy!! u can do it!

oh..1 more thing! i love this week because..eventho head is working in extended hours..heart is too preoccupied with works..so i have no time thinking bout other 'things'..n i love it too!!

last night mama,abah, fendi, kak farina n adib came to my house and we had dinner..love it! evenho i kinda felt guilty because supposedly i go with them to fendi's place but my head can't stop thinking bout finals and works remains..so i tell mama i need to stay..luckily mama didnt mind..hehe..nway..thanks all for coming! my spirit lifted already! ^_^

yosh schuzyy!!!

all the best to all unitenians~

negative vs positive

salam~

firstly, i would like to apologize..i am listening to muzik2 on tv3..gosh! if u want to be a singer just because everyone else is..please..reconsider dear..u r great enough as pengacara n pelakon..it is nothing wrong if u let other be famous as singer..ur voice just cant be accepted..well maybe after few years ur voice would be better..but now..it is just..so not a radio material..eventho they clapped..weird! sorry kid! i know my voice not lemak berkrim..that's why i refused to sing in public ;p

ok2..enough negativeness..

i should focus more on positivenes and beautiful things i can achieve in life..positive schuzyy!! yosh!!

peace n out..

i need my hyperness today~

salam~

i took nescafe again today..and to my surprise..the effect is not as long as before..drank at 9am..not at 12pm..i am back to my normal state..which is not helping..i need all the energy and hyperness to stay awake and be happy..so that all the works and assignments can be done well~

heart..i am expecting moodiness..but with the help from nescafe..i should be ok..but since today shown no changes..so i think..hope can't be put so high..sigh~

i am re-calcalculating~

i am being self-centered..i know..but most of people around me..too are self-centered..so what can i do? me being selfless~ ok! but..finals are coming..so..i might be needing my alone-time~

yesterday was fun~

today wasnt..turn down the O&G thingy..felt like turning away from my future..i hope i wont be regretting this decision..huhu~

oo moody..please go away..good mood and happiness..please come..i need u now~

peace n out~

2 weeks to go!!

salam~

i was doing plans for these coming weeks..and gosh! it is less than 2 weeks more before finals exams! gosh! wish me luck everyone!

i was shocked again..a friend told me he read my blog..haha..thanx for stoping by syafiq..bosan je kan blog ni..hehe~

i told ita something..she scolded me..haha..thanks ita..eryn scolded me for the same things..hehe..funny..thanks girls! love u soo much~

i read something on a friend's fb..i like a lot~

Perempuan cantik itu

Tidak memandang dan tidak dipandang

Perempuan cantik itu

Tidak mengenali dan tidak dikenali

Perempuan cantik itu

Tidak menegur dan tidak ditegur

saye hyper!!! sekian terima kasih~

salam~

i was sooo hyper-active today! eryn asked me to follow her to the food court for lunch..i had my lunch earlier..so still full..so i had iced neslo..gosh! mistake! i was soo hyper n talkative today..i had my presentation for my comsys..and while was waiting for my turn at 4.45pm..supposedly..but end-up my turn was at 5.15pm..i was hyper-ly scold everyone who asked me questions out of the context of my experiment..because i dont want to distract my focus..actually i was avoiding answering them because i wasn't really confidence with my experiment and i am trying hard to keep related things only in my head. so after 3 hours waited with hyperness..i am very very very happy as we managed to answer all the questions nice n fast! congrats lyza!!! we got thru!! yey! when we was out from the room..i laughed heartily! i dont know why...maybe because all her questions were almost the same as previous pairs..so we were ready for it! alhamdullilah~

so practically..i am very happy today! all thanks to NESCAFE! haha..gosh i am addicted to nescafe..btol la ita..if u want me to do something without me taking to much time thinking..just give me nescafe..i will do anything u want..haha~

peace n out ^_^

101010

salam~

it's 101010 everyone! my niece is getting married today! congrats to u my dear! sorry i can't attend ur wedding..huhu~

final exams are coming!!!! aaaaaaaaa~

salam~

wow! time does flies fast these days..finals are coming super fast! and i am worried! yesterday comsys's quiz was kinda bad..i studied for 2 weeks but still the same..gosh..my brain is getting rusty! sad~

so plan to focus on study will start tomorrow! even it is weekend..yosh!

here's the final exam dates:
23/10: power sys 2
25/10: control system
29/10: eis
30/10: dsp
1/11: com system

gosh...less than a month! and i dont feel ready at all!!

tomorrow will be the turning point of me getting in the FINAL YEAR! gosh! doesnt that sound great? yea! but it makes me felt much more suffocated because can i be ready to be an engineer in another 1 year time? gosh! oh..tomorrow is the subject registration day..and subjects that will be taken in the final year should be decided now...after few questioning and being in doubt..i have decided..oil n gas will be my priority! since i've got that interview with slb..i am so excited to work with them! i've told mama bout this..and she said..anything will do..so future plan will be..mama n abah staying in mekah( abah's wish) and i'll be working everywhere in the world..during raya i'll be where ever my parents are..so guess..me being alone will be ok..

oh yea..speaking of being alone..a friend told me..her friend said..i am 'baik sgt' and he cant have me because of that..omg! i cant believe someone would say that about me! me? baik sangat? haha..very funny..obviously u didnt know me that well..but i wonder..why would someone say they dont want someone who is too kind? isnt that what everyone want these days? gosh! i cant believe this? jadi jahat mmg la salah..ni jadi baik pon salah? omg! dunia dah tbalik kot~

i have a chat friend from germany..know him because of yana..usually the topics will be about superbikes..yes..eventho i have this interest more towards cars..but i think my main interest is in speed..anything that can speed will do! even it is just riding the pelampung at desa water park's water-coaster..haha~ oh..tonight i was happy because he was offering me his bike if i go to germany..i like that!! i really hope i can go there! even only for a vacation! i was hoping it could be my honeymoon destination..but since that topic is avoided..so let it be just a vacation destination..my dream holiday..hehe..what makes me so flattered..he said i'm a brave girl! yea! not that i dont know that..but when someone said that to me..it makes me much more of a believer..so in this week..i got to confirmation..me being brave! and me being very kind..too kind (*sigh*)~

here's something i want to share..got this from my group..not agree with all..but i think that it is true somehow~

You see a lot of smart guys with dumb women, but you hardly ever see a smart woman with a dumb guy. -- Erica Jong  My husband and I are either going to buy a dog or have a child. We can't decide to ruin our carpet or ruin our lives. --Rita Rudner I'm not offended by all the dumb blonde jokes because I know I'm not dumb... and I also know that I'm not blonde. --Dolly Parton I've been on so many blind dates, I should get a free dog. -- Wendy Liebman Never lend your car to anyone to whom you have given birth to. -- Erma Bombeck If high heels were so wonderful, men would be wearing them. -- Sue Grafton I would love to speak a foreign language, but I can't. So I grew hair under my arms instead. -- Sue Kolinsky I think -- therefore I'm single. -- Lizz Winstead "When women are depressed they either eat or go shopping. Men invade another country." -- Elayne Boosler "I base most of my fashion taste on what doesn't itch." -- Gilda Radner "Behind every successful man is a surprised woman." -- Maryon Pearson "Our struggle today is not to have a female Einstein get appointed as an assistant professor. It is for a woman schlemiel to get as quickly promoted as a male schlemiel." --- Bella Abzug "In politics, If you want anything said, ask a man; If you want anything done, ask a woman." -- Margaret Thatcher "I have yet to hear a man ask for advice on how to combine marriage and a career." -- Gloria Steinem "Nagging is the repetition of unpalatable truths." -- Baroness Edith Summerskill "If men can run the world, why can't they stop wearing neckties? How intelligent is it to start the day by tying a little noose around your neck?" -- Linda Ellerbee "Some of us are becoming the men we wanted to marry." -- Gloria Steinem Sometimes I wonder if men and women really suit each other. Perhaps they should live next door and just visit now and then." -- Katharine Hepburn

I'm 24 but i act like 19..gagagagaga~

[x] You know how to make a pot of coffee ;xkan la xtau..dah la da byk je 3in1 skang ;p

[ ] You keep track of dates using a calendar; takla..slalu tgk kt jam je~

[  ] You own a credit card; i wish!

[  ] You know how to change the oil in a car; watpe susah2~

[x] You've done your own laundry; senaman~

[x] You can vote in an election; haha..kantoi~

[x] You can cook for yourself; boley la sikit2~

[  ] You think politics are interesting;omg!

TOTAL SO FAR: 4

[ ] You show up for school/work late a lot; prefer early~

[x] You always carry a pen/pencil in your bag/purse/pocket; a must kalo bwk beg~

[x] You've never gotten a detention; kt mesia xde detention

[  ] You have forgotten your own birthday; never!

[x]You like to take walks by yourself; walk? drive/rempit-alone morelike~

[x] You know what credibility means, without looking it up

[x] You drink caffeine at least once a week; trying to stop the habit! really bad! huhu~

TOTAL SO FAR: 4+5=9

[x]You know how to do the dishes

[x]You can count to 10 in another language

[x] When you say you're going to do something you do it

[  ] You can mow the lawn

[  ] You study even when you don't have to

[x] You have hand washed a car before

TOTAL SO FAR: 9+4=13

[x] You can spell experience, without looking it up; haiya~

[  ] The people at Starbucks know you by name, been few times only..

[  ] Your favorite kind of food is take out;mcd is being avoided

[x] You can go to the store without getting something you don't need; constraint~

[  ] You understand political jokes the first time they are said; not that i care~

[x] You can type pretty quick; haha..someone said i do~

TOTAL SO FAR: 13+3=16

[  ] Your only friends are from your place of employment; haha~

[  ] You have been to a Tupperware party ;teringin~

[ ] You have realized that practically no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job.

[  ] You have more bills than you can pay; bil ape je?

[x] You have been to the beach ; of cos!

[ ] You use the internet every day; is trying to avoid; smlm dah bejaya xon tenet! yipee!

[x] You have travelled overseas for more than 5 times

[x] You make your bed in the morning; kalo x malu la i kt ita~

[ ] You realised people of the opposite sex might just make better friends.; same je

 TOTAL SO FAR : 16+3=19

GRAND TOTAL:19! ahahahahahaha~

*** Repost this with the subject as: I'm (how old you are) but I act like (what you got on the test) *** The number of people you have to tag is the number you got on the test.

few weeks more~

salam~

i told them i am now less addicted to the internet~

everytime i go online..it will be just..emails, facebook, and blogs..few blogs i follow seems to be not updated..so internet seem much less interesting~

so what does life means to me now? i am keeping myself busy with books and stuff..sound so bored..haha..and series and movies and sleeps! haha~

anyhow..i think i like this much more..even sometimes it wont do me any good~

i keep on remembering things from the past..which i also keep on rethinking..should i or shouldnt i? and each and everytime i think of that..i will then call mama..not to tell her..but just to listen to her voice..i used to love to listen to some other person voice too..but since it's gone..so mama will be my ultimate source of calmness now..thanks mama! yesterday..u was the best..even i lost few times..u r always there for me..thanks so much..and also to my friends..thanks for ur support..i may not telling u everything but just by listening to ur stories and tales..u made my day a lot more better..

for those who i accidentally let my anger out on u..i am soo sorry..i am trying hard to control my feelings..but i am still human~

hope u still love me for who i am..because i will always love u~

thanks again friends~

^_^

peace n out