morning thoughts~

salam~

3days holidays..sounds superb..but its already monday..so tomorrow class? haha..gosh..time do fly fast~

last 2days was superb! spent with shopping..never been better...but supposed to say window shopping was because didnt buy much..i lost my appetite for shopping..really troubling..well..enough said..i needed time to get away..thats all..so thats what i did..thanx to eda rijal and kak na...thanx all!! thats exactly what i need these days...next week maybe with fendi on saturday and shida on sunday..like today..next week's monday will be a rest day...then the week after that i will be going home! yey! cant wait..miss kanji..will definitely ask abah to cook some ikan asam..nyum2...bought presents for their birthday..but told mama already so its no really a surprise..haha..they wont mind i know..

what to do today? i have malaysian studies take home test to do for thursday, emf quiz tomorrow, emd..need to do cathing up..gosh..this is my biggest regret this weeks...its supposed to be MY subject..love to see tuan rashid passion when he talks about power plants and all..fasinating...i really want to be in his shoes!! ir!! hoho..my ayahanda..

i am still checking my emails...gosh..i really do need broadband...everyday almost 100mail in..really took ages with uni's internet...huhu..one that cought my attention was the usual horoscope..not that i believe it 100% but the coincident was everywhere..so here what today's says

Dear Azyy, Here is your horoscope for Monday, August 31:

You get an important message in your sleep tonight -- one that might take a while to translate. It's best if you can write down your dreams for review in a few weeks or months to see what you can make of it then. hmm..what was on my dream? i was dreaming of going back to bali..going to tebing bali..huhu..one spot that i marked on the first day there..sounded nice..they said there has a Pura which built by the cliff..gosh..the Tanah Lot Pura was superb..they said tebing was even better..gosh! really felt going there again!! huhu..but the dream wasnt really good..i was about escaping the big waves on land..but relatingto my feeling recently..it has been 3 days i felt this way..heart ponding..worries of the unknown..yesterday left eye moved (u know what i meant rite?..) was thinking of my parents..i called them there was ok..or maybe they didnt tell..but by the thought of it i think fendi too felt the same..because he's the one called me first...hmm..wonder what happened...mama and abah were ok.....then my thought flew 'there'..was it? would it? what if? when? gosh...gotta stop thinking bout this...need to focus..anything happens..or going to happen..i will leave it to Allah..if He think thats what i deserve..i will learn to accept it..knowing it maybe would bring much more good in later life...insyaallah~ quote of the moment: if u love something let it go, if it comes back to you it's yours, if it doesnt, it never yours.. so just wait and see Allah works his miracles~ still havent finish dan brown..haha...when will i finished this? only god knows..haha..hmm..what else? thats all for now.. peace n out ^_^ HAPPY 52ND INDEPENDENCE DAY MALAYSIA!!

a plastic daisy~

salam~

Daisy is a flower primarily of the Asteraceae family..appear to be strong but later the stem lost the grace and the flower just fell down..unlike me..i would be strong enough to endure any of nature challenge...while others seem to shy away during nights..i would just be the same..standing here strong days and nights..weather wont change me at all..but as an artificial flower..those would be like a history made to believe...just something that i'm not but as the sake of my name..i would be considered same as others of my species..but deep down..i'm different..in all ways different..because..i am a plasctic daisy..

though i'm plastic..there are few advantage..i wont need to be watered, i wont need to be fertalize so that i would give them more flowers..foremost..i wont need the LOVE to make me grow big and beautiful...i would be glad enough if someone would buy me and place me somewhere around the corner..just the sake of being house decoration...i wont mind..or i couldnt mind much of this facts...just realizing that i am just a PLASTIC DAISY.

once before i heared bout a story of pinochio..sometimes i wonder..does fairies realy do exist? because i really need to meet one..i wanted to be a REAL DAISY..so that i would be loved and cherish by humans..so that they could watered me..so that then i can smile to them more brilliantly..so that then i can make them a little more happier..

i'm just a plastic daisy..always..i always envy those real daisy...envy them just by the look of their face..they role of giving human happiness when receiving them..envy them when human planted them and lovingly cared..watered by love and food..envy them when they can smile more brightly than i am..but what can i do..i am just a plastic daisy..

human keep me just because they felt the need of having flowers in the house..just because someof their friend have it..they just dont want to feel the difference by not having some..then they bought me and palce me near a corner..since bought..they hardly notice me..just once and a while they came by..have a glance..clear the dust here and there..just so that later when their friends stop by..they do have flower in the house..god..i need those care and attention..i wish i could run away..so that i can find a better owner..a better home to live in..or maybe just by the soil..so that i could feel how does it feel if i were a real daisy..

i wish~

tribute to AKYP~

salam~

hehe..merujuk kepada perkara di atas..cewah..ok2..straight to the point..hmm..observation today shows that he do speaks..haha..sorry..i know he speaks but today i saw one..haha..didnt hear unfortunately..few of unaccidentally accident..but unobvious one...still remain calm..thanx to nescafe-free day today...hehe..felt excited all night..then he left rite after terawih..i wonder why there's so many people left without doing witir..its the closure..well maybe they wanted to do some more..well..think positive...hmm..then i stayed for some tadarus..its friday night..then when i came home..read eda's sms..she saw him at upten...SMOKING!!! OMG!! there it goes...so that might end it all..smoking took 70% off the interest..then just left 30% pure weird feeling...huhu...so..this might me my last entry bout him...huhu...smoke..why? why? seem too nice to mature to smoke..but then again..he do smoke...so..gud bye then AKyP...adois till next admiration which is not so kept as a secret..

nicest day of da week...

salam~

haha..dont know why i say nicest..but now its no so much nice anymore cause i need to go find ticket for tomorrow..haish..mcm ade je lg..huhu..mama ni...but the reason of this pening2 is fendi..he suddenly asked if i wanted to open fast with them at hotel next week..huhu..what question was that? surely i want!! haha..but i forgot that i was supposed to go back on friday next week..huhu..then what to do? go back this week la..huhu...not that i dont want to go back..but just that i already planned of what i will do this weekend..huhu..and going back is in the plan..aiya..so now..i am checking on each transportation means known...train..plane..bus..huhu...why of why..still havent found any..lazy want to go to kajang..huhu..

ok..just been alive again (just woke up ;p) i decided to go back in next 2 weeks time...hehe..not exactly as planned..but ok la..a week b4 raya..the possiblility of flying with mas is 80%..haha..2nd time flying alone...hoho...suddenly hoping AKyP would join me..hahah..very the gatal..haha..hmm..ok2..enough2..need to behave myself...last night saw him..he is kinda weird..always alone..thats what interests me..haha..just to know how he is..that's it...nothing much...by the look of him..he doesnt really look like someone that would like a company..look like he prefer to be by himself...thats all i can say for now..observation will be continue..hmm..now that i got a subject to study..my hobby is becoming more and more interesting ;p

thats all for today...hoho..1st time my entry took more than half hour to finish..haha...

peace n out ^_^

terlepas lak~

hehe..additional..this what my horoscope say today..haha..sgt kebetulan nmpaknye ;p

Sure, it's been fun stealing glimpses, trying to arrange 'coincidental' meetings and asking surreptitious questions of mutual friends, but it's time to put it all on the table. The results might be fabulous!

finally the rain came down~

salam~

islamic studies' test is canceled..well..not sure if he mean postpone..but the word he use just now was cancelled..haha..no wonder i didnt felt like studying..hmm..but now i do have mood for malaysian studies..so this means tomorrow's test is on..huhu..plus..this evening need to go to the masjid for bke puasa with sultan..haish..the email say we need to be there at 5pm but..who would? me n housmates are going at 6pm..haha..sorry ye en sultan..hmm..got few works to do..numec quiz,emf question(which supposed to be quiz question next week..haha), and emd(but tuan rasyid is going away next week..sooo...weehuuu~ ;p) need time to study..he's away mean i can get some time for cathing up..huhu..let behide so much i think..not sure what i did all this while..its ok2...like it when tuan rasyid looked at me in class..haha..just because lyza wasnt there..haha..or was he mistaken me for her..haha..thats even funnier..anyhow..i did felt like asking him i want to go with him to bakun...well..he's definitely my idol now...aeverything he do now is exactly what i have i mind for the future...bakun..wow! amaze...tnb actualy asked him to go there to give lecture to the engineers..n i heard its will be ready in october...plus news i heard that 1 of nurul's friends soraya is going there too under alstrom...hmm..bakun is my target..but same goes with schlumberger..hmmm oil or hydro? haha..let time decide on that later..now..need to focus..focus...focus..

i was forcing myself to tears...now i felt a bit relief..just a bit...what was discussed just now in emf with kakak ;p is definitely another relief...thanx kak ;p really felt empty now..even the AKyP not inside my head anymore...thanx to eda for that one...this empty is good...need it now..i just dont mind anymore...like u said before..just wait till the time comes..i will~

hmm..first project!! islamic studies..gosh..need to sell sumthing at bazaar ramadhan...hmm..50% profit will go to charity...sound ok..but the procedures...haish..ok2...positive2...

ps: funny the way he looked at us....plus averyone was wondering who was that guy...not even an intro..just the fact that he represent unicommserve..(mind the spelling ;p) buncit tu penyayang ye ita? haha..

hmm...thanx to uniten we can again have this blog again...now its my rutine to write here...pouring some of everything...just so that they dont have to hear all from my bullet train speech..hehe..pity eda for that..sorry darling~

oh..last nite..bke puasa at pizza..with my sayang(ita..haha) my and(k na..haha again) and my ber(eda..hahaha...) rijal, mirul mas and fifi..was a short one..arrived at 6.30 back at 8.30..haish..2 hours? haish...its ok2..a good way to prevent overflowing of ka-ching ;p

hmm...the theme song is on..still...but the feeling is graduallly decrease..gud for me..not sure how the other part...well..bored wit me perhaps? could u just tell me? keeping silence like this wont settle a thing..n its a torture to me..a one sided torture i supposed..

hmm...the dark seem clearing out a little...came again when i heard those love birds chirping..day and nite..trying hard to be a good friend..the problem is just me..so why should i spread it to others...so that the know what i felt? not helping..but do appreaciate what they do by not asking but focusing on avoiding me think bout it...good for me..again..felt sorry if u ever read this..this is the feeling i just couldnt find a way to tell...but the request for not asking those kind of things just unacceptable...pretend that i can...but who could? unique is me...but it do have a limit..as a girl..unique need to be blend in too..so its camcel out and i am now ordinary...just plain ordinary invicible person who no one should have known my name..

new motto: my smiles are for all~

ps:need more clorox for the heart~

peace n out ^_^

peaceful and quiet days~

salam~

unlike usual i post new entry at night but now..around this time..haha..well..gap between classes is the best nowadays...can come back to my handsome bed and sleep..haha..but back since 11 but havent do anything..gosh! i really need to off my pc..but need rihanna's gud girl gone bad..still havent recover...hardly say when will..huhu) last night was a good end and also a start...1st day open fast at masjid..suprised cos its full!! plus 2 subjects that i keen on having a look at..thanx Allah..they were there..^_^ but the real thing is during terawikh..2 things came in mind..1)i miss Him..long since i have felt touched..i've teared..no to say cried..just flood of tears..1st day..last year..just on the 11th and 21st..sad..hopefully this ramadhan will be much much better...less say is my ultimate gold this year...gotta stop those deeds of mine..not good..2)wonder how was he? did he go? ever? if not? how will? am i? can i? could i? should i? but the continuing topic was at home..with my housemates..surprise because they support me..and offers suggestions..which i found kinda extreme..haha..so not me..but deep down..i do like it..just not sure when...have some respond but not anymore..curiousity arising but at the look..maybe none will actually happened...well that's what real life is..

current things in mind..can i still catchup with studies..haish..keep on getting hard and harder but looking at their answers seems so easy..why havent i got that? well..should finish dan brown faster then i can give full attention on studies..haha..watta? ok..hope tonight will be as good as the last..intention is good..if again..maybe i should..but how? only Allah knows~

ok..enough for today...hmm...notice or not..my writings its getting darker day by day isnt it? dan brown's way ;p love it!! ^_^