me myself and i~

salam~

these few days..i avoid blogging cause i know if i did the post will filled with words that wont be nice to hear coming out from me..huhu..i dont know what makes me be so but i think i have a faint idea why..but know that i knew what caused me being not me..then i think i can change..and i thank shida for making me realize that i am way better than these. thanx sayang! xoxoxo

so to few who i was mad to..i am sorry..i know it was my faults..i dont know why i cant see it clear..so sorry..so i hope it will be better tomorrow~

but 1 thing that i would like to ask all..i am no that nice to be saying yes to all request..i do sometimes wanted to say no..but thinking bout the face after the rejection..i never think i would bear it.so i say yes..i say yes even tho i wanted to say no..i may look happy on the outside..but deep down there there's still a no..but well..i am soft..i'll be happy eventually..i always try to make things work out both ways..so eventho i didnt like it early..then after i will slowly grow the like and love..i want to ask one..please..try no to hurt my feeling..cause it would be ugly if i realize it then i would take my silent revenge..see told u i'm bad~

love: this a one topic that i want to skip for a while..i waited and waited..since 2006..now that u'r back..i dont expect it to be like this..i know i might not up to ur expectation but ..ah well..since u r doing this to me..guess..this could be the end.i dont know how long i can wait still..i keep on thinking..why i wanted to wait..ithe key to my heart is with u..but why oh why i felt that u r keeping it somewhere on the shelf and forget u have it..oh2..this is sick..can i live alone..without a man to love and love me back?

ok2..i try to make this entry as my last entry bout love..cause each time i wrote bout this i felt bad and felt like a loser..one thing i know..i love Allah, my parents, my friends, umi, ibu and those who love me..i know sometimes i hurt u but please..i might have problems or things in my mind that i forgot to tell..oh2..i think i need to learn to shut my mouth..stop telling problems..try to spread some love azy! yosh!! positive!!!

oh yea..i've been searching for the song i love so much at ne-yo last time..haha..think it is this one..

peace n out ^_^

call me yati~

salam~

is it because it is normal to feel nothing at a time or is it because i choose not to feel anything? hmm~

yuva said something bout me skipping class..and i felt bad..haha..oh.there's an emotion..hoho..then i started to think that i really need to study..looking at other's faces..haish..they know something that i should also know..gosh..fast azy fast!

suddenly it make me thinking..what if i suddenly make people call me yati? hmm..then i would definitely change to another me..hahaha..which i cant really imagine..a lovely nur-amina-like-azy..hoho..anyone want to comment on that?

peace n out ^_^

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salam~

this week is full of ups and downs..so many things happened but my heart felt so empty and emotionless i would say..not knowing why..or maybe i do..but still cant believe it would be this bad..maybe i put my hope up too high..and now i am disappointed..in me myself and i..dont blame urself..cause its just me..deep down it hurt so much but i know what the use if i show it on the outside..so i'll be happy me on the outside..its ok.they wont know..its ok..that's the purpose me writing this blog..to tell the world but not to the world..will i ever recover? will i ever be loved?

24 24 24 24..why on earth this number haunt me so much? felt so old already..why am i already 24 but still single? haish..xpe2..Allah is saving me the best..saving the best for the last? ^_^ each time i'm alone..this would come..what if i die before i get married? sian mama..xsempat tgk anak pmpuan sorg dia ni kawen..huuu~

oh..insyallah..me and diza will attend ne-yo concert this thursday! yey! OMG! kinda inappropriate to used insyaallah here isnt it? huhu..i wanted to sell it but since diza interested in going..so i suddenly felt more excited! hehe..so here it is..my 1st concert ever! oh 2nd kot..1st one was samson..but that one dont count as it was free and i didnt really enjoy it..the company i went there with..haish..not regretting~

hmm..the thought came again..when those 2 makcik said i look like nur kasih..was it because my look? dont think so..so it make me thinking..or is it because my sad life will be just like hers? huhu..xmo..but she did have her happiness in the end rite? xpe la..cobaan nih..tabah azy tabah~

okies..i thought i wont have much to write..haha..see unpredictable me~

peace n out ^_^

alhamdullilah~

salam~

today started with sumthing unpleasant..but alhamdullilah it all turn well..even the test wasnt as good as i wanted..but ok la..at least now i realized i need to do more! yosh! went to see mr fairuz..he explained..and i think i understand better...so ira and i made a crucial decision..we r going to go see him every week..insyallah~

and on the way back..i met ir rashid..we talked for a while la..told him bout the placement i just got today..alhamdullillah..i got tnb kedah..yipee! so 5th april till 25th june i'll be back in kedah and work at tnb..hoho..expecting much! expectation is set due to current disappointing situation..sorry to say..i was disappointed this morning due to 'that' reason too..but well..gotta live and move on..oh well..maybe i'll u some time to rest and adjusted to life..time is everything now..

next big news..i'm going to be 24 this year!! gosh!! cant believe it! its too weird..i love 23..that's my most fav number..why most? cos i have more than 1 fav number..ekeke~ but 24? huhuhu..sounded ugly enough..and the fact that i just realized it this morning..still shock me till now..huhu..what's going to happen this year? huhuhuhu..1 thing i now..i need to be 'double' by end of this year..huhu..are u still interested? i'm still reserving ur place in here..but if u not ready or not interested anymore..please say so, so that i can start giving out forms *wink2*

haha..ok..i'm happier now..thanx so much ALLAH! My LOVE is just for u and beloved Nabi Muhammad..

peace n out ^_^

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morning~

salam~

just arrived from aloqstaq...and this morning starts with disappoinment..but its ok.just a bit..i shouldn't mind much..just realizing the facts and gonna live with it..*sigh*

happy new year!!

salam~

its 2010! welcome 2010 and adios 2009..so much had happened back then..and i hope 2010 will be new hope new story new experience..and maybe..new me? ^_^

oh..shida shared this blog..and i love it..and also this guide to buy gold ring ^_^

haha..ok..i am being weird and feeling weird..but somehow i like it..hoho..

happy birthday 2 u and welcome back..^_^

peace n out ^_^