jodoh?

salam~

since yesterday was a big day for a friend of mine..i am thinking of my own big day..when la? haish..but the big question now is..who la? sigh again~
currently..i love to read any articles that touch on the matter..learning the correct way maybe..because i am in a middle of a something u can call a relationship..but i think it is still a scandal. i am hoping it can change to something more real but let just go with the flow and let time decide. after all..only Allah knows what best for me. for what i know..he is different from the others..they are all very sweet and caring..but this one..he just different..too straight forward i would say..i was shock at first but..since it was something i was looking for in the last..so i guess..i can accept this..but..i still can give 100%..not knowing why..maybe i am still afraid. afraid for the past..

yesterday..i was furious because he said he didnt want they to know..keeping me as a secret..but today..i was skeptical when he called me when he was with his friend..mind is taking it as..show-off! haha..schuzyy! get real..u need to know what u want..accept whatever in front of u as ur destiny..whether it is good or bad..haish..there are too much in head rite now..just need to clear up some space for more concentration in studies! and project and group assignments! sigh!

peace n out ^_^

penat gile..penat yang dh rasa nk gile~

salam~

today..me and friends did a wonderful and crazy thing! hehe..anyway..thanks yana, jana, eda and ita..u made my day..oh..what happened today? we went to our friend's wedding..GMI's friend..Mrs Noreen Nadia n her husband..Mr Edi..congratulations to both of u..soo happy for both of u! hope to see the first baby of GAPP 4 soon! ^_^

oh..the kenduri was in kluang..yes its in Johor..and we made it in one day..haha..the journey started at 9am..hehe..supposedly planned at 8am..but due to waking up lazily around 6.40am..fbooking and doing bit of schoolwork..only then we started preparing for sandwiches. luckily all the sandwiches are gone! yipee!! hehe..berkat me as the makcik kantin..gagaga..arrived at the dewan at 12pm..makan..then we went to noreen's house witnessing her being dressed up...she was sooo beautiful and skinny!! gosh! but it's your day girl..u look perfect!!! soo happy for u..took few pictures on ur pelamin..hehe..gosh she had 2 pelamin! jeles!haha..then we went back to the dewan with her rombongan..hehe..xpasal2 terjoin rombongan pengantin..hehe..then arrived at the dewan for more pictures..then started the journey back..soo..tired already!..i drove back..gosh! that was my 1st trial driving from south to central..hehe..yipee!!! so meaning..i already drove through south and north! yipee!! hen hau schuzyy!!! u made it!!! hehe..during the journey back..all of us are very sleepy..i took my nescafe..and with help of my botol susu..we arrived at bangi around 7pm..so..it's 3 hours go 4 hours back..minus around 30min or so for prayers at pagoh's R&R. gosh..after taking bath..i tried straight doing my work..but body said noo...really tired!! need the sleep..so sleep till 10pm..only after he called..haha..thanks dear. guess my theory still works! ^_^

so starting tomorrow..my life will only be about studying! studying studying!! no more excuses! ^_^

i am really really glad i resigned! not that i didnt enjoy the life there..but..3 months are enough..just like doing practical..3 months..hehe..will definitely miss all of them..i'll be back as customer..dont worry~

yosh schuzyy!! ^_^

peace n out ^_^ 

byk keje xde keje mcari keje..;p

You Both Wear the Pants in Your Relationship

You and your sweetie seem to have stuck the perfect power balance. It's not that you don't disagree - it's just that you've learned how to compromise well. You're both mature enough to know that you can't always get your way... And usually, you're both adult enough to reach an agreement - even if that sometimes means giving in a little.

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You Are Not Clingy

You couldn't cling to someone even if you tried. You're too busy being independent. You're perfectly happy to do your own thing, and to be honest, relationships mess up your groove. Make sure you make enough space to have someone else in your life ... even if you're single right now. A little clinging can be nice in small doses. Try it sometime!

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sabar~

salam~

i always expect the usual..and when the usual becomes unusual..i become stressed. hate and bored. and i will questioned. should i or shouldn't i? this is what i hate most. dah la tension buat report nih..sigh! sabar schuzyy! u can do it!! jgn malas2! u regret twice..no more regret bitte!

peace n out ^_^ 

hate being so poyo..haha~

salam~

i was being so poyo last night..thinking that my english is soo perfect..haha..i'm sorry dear..poyoness hit me last night..hahaha..

i know my english was not perfect..but i am trying hard to improve it! yosh!! ^_^

being this much of age..hehe..making me be a bit more mature..saying the number..having the year as birth year..really making me realised, life is nothing that we should waste doing nothing..

last night...all those hugs and kisses..really touches me..deep down..i dont know why i cried..but truly from my heart..i love all..i will definitely miss them much!!! ^_^ the experience are precious! never will forget!

and i really really hope we can still be those ^_^

peace n put ^_^

hepi bestday to me! ^_^

salam~

23022011

hehe..i was born at 6.21am 25 years ago..omg! i can hardly believe it myself! 25 is a very big number! suku abd kot!!

thanks for all wishers! love u all! and thanks for remembering my birthday!! and thanks also to mr fb to remind all of them..hehe..

my day wasnt so much different than the others..apart from all the wishes..hehe..thanks again..and all my closest friends doing their thing..pretending not to remember..haha..xpe..dah tau dah..haha..then..my secret scandal..haha..the drama was funny..both sakit hati..but in the end..he did make me felt a little above the cloud..thanks dear..love u miss u..then work..i was happy tonight..apart from he already told me not to be stressed..so i'm not..then..everyone wished when i arrived..that's sweet!! love that moment! got kak wati, nadia, liza, k lily and apek..and kak sie! kak sie offered her hug! gosh how i need a hug rite now..hehe..thanks so much! then..i saw apek bought eggs..i was scared..i thought of the idea..but gosh..hope not..then..the end of shift..omg! when i was talking to kak sie..apek came from my back..with tepung!! i was running all around there..and resulting with me being a cucur..lucky i saved the egg's life..haha..or else i would be azy celup tepung..hahaha..thanks dear!! i will definitely miss all of u guys..this 3 months are very precious to me..i learn so much that i could never learn in school..thank you..thank you! i will miss the life there! thanks for the celebration again! ^_^

peace n out ^_^

*by 25-year-old schuzyy ^_^

Apa yang dirasa~

salam~

i found this in one of the forwarded emails..think it touches me..i always want to be good at heart and out. i want people to like and love me..but when at times..people tend to hate me because they think i am just acting. truthly speaking..sometimes i got lost in my own search~

Kadang-kadang kita merasakan diri kita berilmu, walhal "air mata" ilmu yang terbit daripada dada kita sangat sedikit. Kadang-kadang kita merasakan diri kita hebat apabila orang menyanjung dan memuji kita, walhal itu semua muslihat Iblis untuk menyesatkan kita.

Amalan seseorang yang banyak adakalanya menjadi modal untuk Iblis memperdayakan kita agar kita berbangga dan riak dengan kelebihan yang Allah pinjamkan. Amal yang sedikit turut dipergunakan oleh Syaitan dengan menimbulkan perasaan sentiasa berprasangka Allah akan mengampuni kekurangan diri tanpa sekelumitpun rasa ingin menambahkan amalan untuk mendapatkan keredhaan Allah.

Penyakit orang kaya adalah bakhil. Penyakit orang miskin adalah malas. Penyakit orang berilmu adalah takabbur. Penyakit orang bodoh adalah tiada keinginan. Penyakit orang beramal adalah 'perasan'.

Orang yang banyak beramal merasakan dirinya hebat dan disegani. Lalu apabila dia berjalan, dia tunduk semacam tawadhu' walhal Syaitan dalam jubahnya. Dia bercakap lembut agar dikata orang sebagai orang yang lembut hati walhal dalam hatinya tersimpan suatu perasaan takabbur yang tinggi. Apabila dia bercakap, dia merasakan semua orang memerhatikan kata-katanya. Syaitan telah memperdayakan pandangan mata hatinya, lalu dia menganggap yang buruk itu baik dan yang baik itu sebaliknya.

Orang yang banyak dosa pula sentiasa berharap dengan kalimah Allah yang Maha Pengampun. Dia terlupa Allah juga keras seksaan-Nya. Allah ciptakan neraka sebagaimana Allah turut menciptakan syurga. Neraka untuk orang yang buruk perilakunya, dan juga untuk orang yang baik perilaku tetapi buruk hatinya. Syurga pula untuk orang yang benar-benar bersih daripada sebarang karat kekotoran, jika ada sekalipun, ia terlindung di sebalik rahmat Illahi.

Sesetengah orang berilmu apabila berbicara, maka penuh mulutnya dengan pancaran ilmu yang mempesonakan, walhal hati mereka cemar dengan pendustaan. Mulut mereka berkata benar sedangkan hati mereka menidakkannya. Dia mengatakan cinta akhirat tetapi dia sendiri kelihatannya sibuk mengejar dunia. Dia menyebut perihal zuhud sedangkan jiwanya diselimuti perasaan cintakan dunia berlebihan.

Mungkin orang lain mendapat manfaat di sebalik ilmunya yang melangit, tetapi dengar hanya sekadar dengar. Disimpan dalam otak tetapi tidak di hati. Kepalanya makin membesar dengan ilmu yang sarat tetapi hatinya dipenuhi kotoran pelbagai penipuan. Mereka pakar berbicara dalam pelbagai bidang, aqidah mahupun akhlak, tasawuf juga barangkali tetapi hanya lidah menuturkannya sedangkan hati menafikan. Katanya pejuang Islam tetapi lagaknya berlainan.

Orang yang bersih hati pula, kata-kata mereka mungkin tidak membawa mesej keilmuan yang tinggi, tetapi apabila mereka berbicara, ia mengusik jiwa yang mendengar. Apabila dia menyebut soal dosa, yang mendengar akan terbayangkan neraka. Apabila dia menyebut tentang perjuangan, orang akan rindukan jihad. Apabila dia menyentuh soal ibadat, orang semakin rindukan waktu malam untuk bertahajud. Mereka tidak perlu berbicara.

Kerana akhlak mereka sudah berbicara sebelum lidah mereka bergerak. Apabila mereka ingin berucap, maka seluruh hati orang mula terusik dan menanti-nantikan mutiara kata yang terbit daripada lidahnya. Sekali orang mendengar, rindu akan bertapak dalam diri mereka. Alangkah mereka rindukan kata-kata orang yang bersih jiwanya yang mana mungkin ilmunya tidak banyak tetapi ia sangat memberi kesan.

Orang yang kotor sebaliknya. Berbuih mulutnya berbicara, namun orang hanya endah tidak endah, dengar tidak dengar. Orang mungkin rindukan pidatonya yang bersemangat, tetapi orang tidak rindukan mutiara kata darinya. Sekadar mendengar menambahkan semangat dalam satu atau dua jam, kemudian hilang berciciran di tengah jalan. Orang yang bersih hatinya, mungkin pidatonya tidak menarik tetapi jiwa sentiasa dibuai dan terusik.

Al-Hijr

Iblis berkata: "Ya Tuhanku, oleh sebab Engkau telah memutuskan bahawa aku sesat, pasti aku akan menjadikan mereka memandang baik (perbuatan ma'siat) di muka bumi, dan pasti aku akan menyesatkan mereka semuanya, kecuali hamba-hamba Engkau yang mukhlis (orang-orang yang ikhlas beribadah kepada Allah)  di antara mereka." ( Al-Hijr: 39-40 )