thanks ^_^

salam~

maybe u cant always be beside me..but knowing that u wanted to..enough to make me really happy..u made my day~

thanks dear~

peace n out ^_^ 

popping a balloon~

salam~

i wish i am good at doodling~

what's on my mind now..a picture of a boy having a heart-shape balloon in one hand..and a needle in the other~

the temptation is there..what matters now is only time~

hurtful~

peace and out ^_^

amazing~

salam~

ok today i want to talk about..mind..mind is something that hard to control..but one can train it to be in control. what amaze me today is..how mind works. sometimes it can be brilliant..sometimes it can be dumb..but mostly we only notice the dumb act of a mind. the brilliant one? often be neglected or envied and being pushed away.

as 'we' put it..the ordinary mind that we mingle with everyday. when one only focuses their mind on one thing..or maybe one surrounding..sometimes..the act of the mind can be seen as fool and ridiculous.

let's us hope that our mind can be a little bit extra ordinary and be brilliant..ignoring all the ignorant of others.

ok. what am i talking about here? ok..this is my example of my own life experienced..and it just happened a while ago. i am 3 months old there..and in this 3 months..this 2 days experience really brought the shock of my life. people been talking behind my back. left alone those who talk in front of my face. lucky i am quite an actress. haha..i do mind people talking about me.. especially when they are bad..ok2..straight to the point. there are few girls..young girls around there..and ones who are most talked about are only 3...and it is quite amazing how i got in the list..well..i just found out tonight..a bit of myself feel flattered..it was almost never!! people got jealous of me because someone LIKE me..what i know..i enslaved myself there just to gain experience and most importantly...money..and what happened now..is something that i always avoid my whole life! stupid gossip! it is amazing how their mind work when it come to gossips. i was away for 11 days..and what i know after i came back..people are talking about me being favorite..yes i am glad..but truly speaking..what good does that give me? enemy? all my sisters hate me..giving me sarcasms looks and words..gosh i hate those things. i wanted to be good to everyone..and when i am soo close to be liked by everyone..they talk..and everyone just turn their back on me now..well..i think that is a cue for me to resign..well..lucky them..my problems is almost solved..so i think..on Wednesday..i will hand in the resign letter.  gosh..i can only pray that in my real job later..none of this would happened. i only want to be a good.. kind hearted girl who is loved by everyone..and without having any gossips. people..please...tingkatkan prestasi..kurangkan kontroversi~

zasss~

peace n out ^_^

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Your Love Word is "Devotion"

For you, love is a doing word. You prove your love with the actions you take every day. You are loyal and true to whoever you're in a relationship with. You don't give up unless things are absolutely hopeless. You don't love easily or quickly. You only will fall for someone you truly and completely adore. Once you love, you love intensely. You take love very seriously.

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second chance?

salam~

*this is a serious comment, feel free to leave this page to avoid any negative remark on oneself* ;p

when u watch a malay program, what do u feel? u like it? love it? or just hate it? i always wanted to watch a malay program and having the feeling to follow throughout the season. ok..let's track out what malay program that i enjoy watching my whole life..tv1: forum perdana..i know this sound lame..but this is one of the food for soul source that we can find on the local station. lucky we now have few islamic stations to satisfy us this way. tv2: none that i remember, maybe because it focuses on non-malay program letting tv1 doing the honour. tv3: ahaa..tv3 has lots of quality programs but currently i can only think of few, jalan2 cari makan and Am Max. reasons: because i love makan and now they have Qi!!! haha..but Am Max..i love to watch this program during my practical time..aired at 8am sunday..but now..i lost track..sometimes i accidentally watched it in the evening. weird rite? Am max in the evening..oohh..maybe it will give ideas on what to do the next morning. haha..positive! ok..list of programs stops there. ntv7,8tv and tv9 are quite new..compared to the old 3 rite ;p

ok..my point here is..i love aznil's programs..everytime he hosted a program..it always bring life..bringing the audiences together with him..but..since he is a success..everyone else also wanted to do the same..but to me..none of them succeed. why people love to watch aznil's, oprah's, david letterman's, and rachel rays's and martha's? oh..and eric's home deco? it is because they include the audience and the guest together. it is ur program..u can do what ever u want..but the life of a program depends on the audience and how they react to  u. i just watched a program this morning. the host is someone i never thought would have failed to satisfy me this bad..he is quite well known. but the way he treated his guest..omg..pity them..i wanted to watch that program because 2 of my u-tube idols are on it..haha..love them! but a 30min program with sooo many segments..kinda make both me and the guests lost! (can see that from their smiles) please...if ur program is short..keep it simple. or u will lose all the attention. lucky u have the guests that i love..i was tempted to change to other channel..but they made me stay..hehe..i really really really hope that our shows will improve..learn from aznil, watch all those martha and rachel's..they are good in making people stick till the end of the program..and making them want to watch again..this problem applies to cooking programs too...i love chef wan's but some other chefs..they just failed. too focus on the program..they forgot audience have feelings too..if u treat ur guest bad..we, audience will too feel bad..thus..leaving the channel..

so, moral of the story..learn before u do something new.

getting off topic: gosh i love Qi..envy Yuna!! ;p

gosh..Qi made me crave for cendol! nyum2..kt mane eh wahab cendol ni? ohh..wangsa maju? shidaaa..blk nnt bwk aku g ye ;p

ok..enough said..

peace n out ^_^

wonderful holiday!!

salam~

just arrived! well..not really actually..haha..arrived at sentral around 5.30am (claps for KTM..their service has improved!! congrats! less delay more people and i love the makcik at KTM alorsetar..she is super friendly! love u makcik! and u n ur husband are very sweet! love u both!) oh..why i said that? the train was scheduled to arrive at sentral at 5.36am..haha..for KTM 6minutes is an achievement! this is an honest compliment ok..very glad about this fact! ^_^ then go for subuh and waited for the komuter till 7am..gosh..always missed the first train..sigh..had breakfast while waiting..and in the train..gosh i was sooo sleepy..dozed off a few times..haha..then reached home around 8am. so it is a 12 hours journey from Alor Setar to my house in bangi..sigh~

holiday~
i can say that this holiday is something that i like evey now and then..relax and happy and quiet..everyday my day  is pretty much the same..mama kejut for subuh then sleep back (hehe~) then wake up quite early compared before..hahaha..having breakfast..help with the houseworks..the home-stay..then either cook for lunch or eat-out..hehe..even though mama is restricting herself from eating quite a list of food..me and abah still eat everything we wanted..hehe..sorry mama..anyhow..we still love u! muuuaaah! ^_^

discovery~
i know this is kinda lame..but what i discovered this holiday is..haha..abah, me and fendi have something is common..haha..we are allergic to dust! abah and i were cleaning the house the other day..then both of us end up sneezing and coughing and getting close to get down with fever..haha..then we went to visit fendi's new house in penang..then..haha..fendi too is having same condition as ours..leaving mama feeling left out...haha..and mama was jealous because she is healthy! haha..funny ok! mama got jealous because we got that in common! days before that..a friend of abah told us that i got abah's face and mama's figure..funny how she told me.." ala..macik tu nak amik ati abah la tu.." OMG! mama..hahaha..but i think that is true..i'm very happy with that fact..because abah's face is something that u can spend hours looking at..such a peaceful face..and he has dimple! or i think it is..haha..and i think i got that too..hehe..anyhow..abah..i love u...gosh..writing this making me feel home-sick already! miss home! huhuhu~

ok..another thing that is happening in life is..i think i am in that 'happy phase' again! yippee! i still don't know whether this is really happening or not..but i want to take it as a real thing..i know there might be some obstacles later but i hope we can endure it all together till we reach there. the previous one? what in the past should be left in past right? i stalked on him just now..and i guess he is happier without me..so..glad for u! let's be happy for everything we have now..i am accepting the destiny God made for me..who knows maybe one day he will become the man that i needed. i am always praying to God for that now..gosh how i really want this to happen this time.. last night..he 'teman' me eventho he was tired after going raya with his family..kesian dia..hope we can keep this forever..i am accepting u for what u are as i hope u would accept me as who i am..no more 'that' talk  because all that matter now is heart. Time is what fails me the last 2 times..and i learn my lesson. no more 'time' problem..so i hope this is working well now..i know u won't read this..ever..but one of the reasons i love this holiday is having u 'around' hehe..ok..stop the jiwangness! i need to delete all the text msg just to stop me from berangan ..hahaha..geli je~

ok2..time to get-up and do my work!!yosh!! with the help from Mr nescafe maybe? ;p

oh..not forgetting..time waster ;p

Your Dominant Personality Trait is Prudence

You are a responsible and together person. You like structures and schedules. You don't mind having a long to-do list... in fact, you sort of like checking things off on it. You are a planner, and you rarely act on impulse. You know what you'll be doing tomorrow. You are dependable and polite. You do your best not to give anyone any trouble.

What's Your Dominant Personality Trait?

You Are Extremely Empathetic

Whenever someone you love feels a certain way, you can't help but feel that way too. The emotions of others deeply affect you, and it's easy for you to be moved to laughter or tears. You are very in tune with your surroundings. You immediately pick up on the vibe of a room. You don't like to see anyone feeling discomfort or pain. You want to make everyone around you as happy as possible.

How Empathetic Are You?

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peace n out ^_^
 ps: i can enjoy colbie caillat now..hahaha..it has been a while since i stopped listening to her songs ;p

~if i were a rock~

You Are Intuitive

You are in touch with your "six sense." You don't try to understand the world around you... it just comes naturally. You are highly sensitive to the point of needing to protect yourself from pain and suffering. The world can overwhelm you at times. You let yourself escape whenever you need to. You are selfless and extremely giving. You only want to help those around you.

The Zen Rock Test

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Your Birthstone Should Be Aquamarine

Aquamarine brings peace and serenity - two things you value highly in your life. Like most aquamarine wearers, you're always looking to dig deeper. You aren't superficial in any way. You seek wisdom and truth. You believe that there is so much meaning to be found in life. You shun gossip and anything mean-spirited. You only have room for positivity in your life.

What Should Your Birthstone Really Be?

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