life as a Schuzyy~

life is fair~

2012-01-26T00:28:00.000+08:00

salam~

today work is so stressful. everyone is saying i looked as if i am about to cry. Thank God i was not. But i really dont know how to hide it. i am really stressful. with all the works and things to learn. things is getting out of my hands.i got much advice from everybody at the office. the bosses are saying this, the technicians are saying that. and there are few that i found very helpful. but some were just talks. anyway. thanks everyone for your concern ^_^

ok i am being positive there. well. there's nothing wrong for being positive right? i was frowning all day today. i think i will start aging sooner or later if i keep on doing that for the next few months. no no. i will be better. i will learn faster. i will be a good leader as i always wanted. just i pray to God for all the support i can get. ^_^

after such a long day of stress. i took my usual trains back home. and what i love about taking trains is the people. i get to see all sort or people and behaviors. i love it. the young and the old. today i smiled a lot in the train. only one smiled back. it's ok. i dont mind. we all have our own problems. and thanks to the uncle at tbs. he smiled back after i smiled at him after he was asking for direction to this aunty. made me wonder why is he travelling alone. how it remind me of my abah. sob3. home-sick~

then i almost burst into laughter when i saw this boy. well actually they were 3 of them. i was busy looking at their friend, he was all quite and smiling by himself. his face is so pure. until i saw cigarette pack in his pocket. haish. seriously he look so pure. well pure la for youngster like him. then i switched to his friends. friends he was spending time with. then..hahaha. omg. he was wearing gold bracelet. mind me he is a malay boy, and it is forbidden for Malay males to wear gold things. but the funny part is. gosh. it looks so makcik-style! hahaha. gosh. cannot tahan! sorry kid! u are funny!

ok2. so i hope i get to see funny stuff again tomorrow as that is the only thing that can swipe away all my stress. ^_^

peace n out

engineer?

2012-01-20T00:30:00.000+08:00

salam~

Almost 2 weeks as an engineer. life is getting worst i think. But thanks to my housmates, kakak, adik, nana, kak shera n kak azua for being there. At least i have a small dose of laughter to ease my tense each day. Thanks so much! without them surely i'll lose my sanity in the shortest time.

What i learned in these 2 weeks time can't never compare with what i have seen throughout my 25 years old of living. I used to trust people but now..i dont think i can trust anyone i know from work. everyone seems to find ways to stab u on the back. scary! not sure whether it's true or not..this is just my feeling. all the work loads are ok for me..only having problems to control the people around me. It's hard to satisfy everyone's need. I have 2 bosses and 12 subordinates to satisfy and that just hard...especially because i'm new in the field. my boss said..i need to be wiser in 'goreng' if u know what i mean. so that means i need to alter my life principle. is that appropriate? haish. working life is getting harder by day. maybe just for sometimes before i get used to the system. hopefully. for now i need someone i can count on at work. someone i can trust. sob3~

peace n out~

learn~

2012-01-12T18:48:00.000+08:00

salam,

it has been a while rite? been busy, very busy~
started working..and my title is ELECTRICAL ENGINEER ^_^

just hoping that I can bear all this things on my shoulders.

what doesn't kill u make u stronger~

sometimes it is hurtful when people ignore u and make u feel unwanted. But thank God some other people do show their concern much more than that. and now i am more content.

It is true when they say, God is Fair.
He took one because He want to replace with another better ones ^_^

positive vibes finally took its turn in me~

Alhamdullillah~

peace n out ^_^

happy day~

2011-12-24T09:06:00.001+08:00

salam~

Yesterday, 23/12/2011 was such a great day.

Great day because I finished the assignment my SV gave me,

great because finally I get to sleep during break and feeling fresh in the evening and able to finished the task.

Great because yesterday was the first time Aimi and I used the back door of the office.

great because we had great lunch.

great because my SV was so happy telling he will be away on Tuesday. haha. I am more happier to be left alone hahaha ^_^

great because finally one of the interview I had long ago paid of! the company called yesterday evening and said they want me! and yes I'll going back to KL! yipeee. Not sure I am so happy.Maybe because I wont be seeing mr tipu again. hahaha.but what I know for sure is...the title I will be holding is Electrical Engineer. wee. and I am kinda afraid hahaha~

great because we got our first allowance from the company. but since we got it on the same day as everyone else who got their bonus so.. we pretend that we too get bonus. hahaha~

great because me and my mates had a great night yesterday. we went to kedai Atuk and had dinner. Could it be the last dinner for the 5 of us? huhu~

great because we had another karok session for 1 n half hours. abes suara. haha~

great because I had a great dream! about him telling me that he will be going to KL just to see me. hehe. what a wonderful feeling! How I wish that dream was a reality because it does feel real ;p

and lastly

great but sad because I'll be leaving Kulim later next week. huhu~

here are some of pictures from yesterday~ ^_^

the supper

cik ain tgh cari lagu ;p

tgk tu abg long ley bantai tido~

goreng aten!! ;p

org bilik sebelah ;p

my rumate! ;p

abg long yg tido time org lain karok. haha~

peace n out huhu~

GEMS

2011-12-11T03:51:00.003+08:00

salam~

This coming Monday, I'll be starting my practical or Part II for my GEMS training. Oh yeah. I didn't put my GEMS experiences in words yet. Ok here it is. GEMS stands for Graduate Employability Management Scheme and it is for those who finds it hard to get placement in working world right after graduation. Well supposedly the requirement is 6 months of unemployment but I don't know how I get it right after 1 month of graduation. Lucky me I guess ^_^

I learnt a lot there and mostly about management. Since I'm an engineering student, management is one of my target sector for the golden or silver days. Silver? haha~

So here are some pictures from GEMS~

First breakfast

B.A.S.E Group Excellence

View from my room 307 of GVR

Our work got stars. Felt like in kindergarten again ;p

Drawn by Miss Ira. Cute isn't it? Love it so much!

Girls Power! ^_^

My company! Seveeeen!!

The girls. miss yaa!!

The company's cheers

The supporter's props~

Meaw2 was my trademark there ^_^

:credit to miss illiya of company 1

The company

The names. supposed to be 28 names~

This board is with me!! haha~

The wall we all love so much

The work of 2 months. (that's it?)

The entrance to our kingdom~

The contract from Mrs Faridah ME class

The notice board

Seveeeen!!

The birthdays

Works by Girls Power! ^_^

The Girl Power!!

Bestie, Jennifer miss ya!

The Corporate Dinner was held on the last Monday at GVR and here's the pictures from my cam~

The food

This look nice rite? nyuuummmm~

My view from the table at the back; we were performing so they put us at the back. Sigh~

My tablemates

Miss Queen!

Ehem.Mr CEO and the assistant scandal hahaha

The food destruction. huahuahua :D

Miss Shikin

Miss Yuma n Miss Aida

Cute Miss Umi

Mr Che Mat n Miss Farah

Miss Alin

My beloved 307

Miss Bella, Miss Shikin, Miss M

Miss Ati n Miss Yani

Miss Nadia

Mr PA expert from English Fair

Miss Nadia

Karok people. they influenced me badly ;p

My twin, Miss Yazi

My beloved English Fair team, I was the project manager. wehoo to me. haha~

It was such a great time working with them. No way I can forget this team! ^_^

Kedah people of Seveeen~

Mr Izaidi n Miss Hasmah

Mr Fahmi, Gossip partner! haha~

Mr Arif, the first person I knew in GEMS

Spot the similarity?

Feet of 307

Mr OA

Jealousness strikes again. haha~

Company last makan2 which bring few dramas and sweet memories~

Satay: before

Satay: after ^_^

I'm not sure why this attracts me. haha~

Lovely Umi

The crime scene ^_^

Partners in crime

I'll miss this sight forever~

Last speech by Mr OA. He was crying at this time. Thanks a lot Mr Omar.

I hate u but i love u~

307!! I will always remember our memories together

The CERT. Alhamdullilah~

The placement

Part II will be updated maybe in 2 blogs. The emotional version in here ^_^ and the professional one in the schuzyy's experience blog along with the MAS ;p

Gosh! I almost cried reporting this. I was listening to the songs list for English Corner A cappella. All the memories just flashed before my eyes bit by bit. Gosh I will miss everyone and everything. The bads and the goods. Epitomize, English Fair, GVR05 will always be in my heart.

09092011- 02122011

peace n out ^_^

life is weird or is it just me?

2011-11-28T01:55:00.000+08:00

Salam~

I'm not sure what I just did. I wanted this in the first place but with that response, I got demotivated. Right now I am clueless. Not knowing what to do, how to react and how to continue without affecting the relationship we already have. I used to get these kind of response, so I shouldn't be this sad. Be strong Schuzyy! You are ok even if u are all by yourself for the rest of your life. What the heck. Life is for us to enjoy and to fill it with happy moments so with bits of sad things I shouldn't be bothered much right? Positive2!!

Just live life to the fullest!! yosh!

peace n out ^_^

thanks for making me hate you!

2011-11-12T01:42:00.000+08:00

salam~

It's 11.11.11. and nothing happy and sweet happened. as expected! darn! On the day when I expected I would find someone to fill the emptiness in my heart, 2 persons that I supposed to respect just lost my respect.

Case 1:
I used to get comments from friends and others that I don't look my age. I was happy to hear that before. but now it is kinda annoying as I'm already in my quarter century plus it is being the factor I am not being taken serious. I hate that so much now. huu~

Case 2:
What do u feel when someone who knew u for 4 days evaluates u? Obviously it can't be right. There's no way someone can know u in and out in 4 days. Impossible!

Case 3:
I just hate being typical and I favor uniqueness

Case 4:
I hate waiting for people who doesn't respect time. If they can't respect their own time they obviously won't respect others.

Case 5:
I hate old people who don't respect others. They are the one that supposed to show the example and when they failed to do so, i just can't respect them anymore even if they are the authority. But maybe i'll try my best to act as if I'm still OK in front of them~

So sorry for my rudeness. I am so under stress right now. If it is the stress that involve useful things or work I still I can take it but this is just stupid things that I need to face everyday. Hope Allah will help me to bear this for another 25 days. huu~

to my rijal n mr topex..thanks so much for the advice. You guys did cool me down.hehe. thanks again!

peace n out ^_^

after about 1 month~

2011-10-30T12:08:00.000+08:00

salam~

It has been such hectic days. The training isn't just training. It was about making friends, being good to people and superiors and performing. Making friends is not a new thing for me as I always love to make new friends wherever I go. Being good is just my nature so no biggy. Being good to superior? I am OK as long it is sensible and logical. When it started to be 'weird' I lose interest. I was performing quite good within the first 2 weeks and when my job was not appreciated and the boss is not acknowledging me..that just s***. Plus all the blame keep on coming back to me. Making me not wanting to go back anymore. I do love the modules and lesson taught there but when politic take charge I prefer backing up. I really hope I would get a firm job fast so that I can get away from all these political stuff. I once question this to the other boss. Even he said that's how things work these day. It was such a questionable-heart-broken answer for me. How can we improve ourselves when internal network like that is the only way to get things done? I can never agree with that. NEVER! One more thing. Where is the professionalism when the people trying to teach doesn't practice it. When come to think of it..oh yeaaah. It was all about the ROOT. How can I missed that. So for another month time I should bare with all the challenges.

Again I am stressing here that the modules are all good and it is such a waste if one did not want to experience it. I have no problem what so ever with the modules and activities. I am only writing this to express my dissatisfaction in my own blog. This is not a complaint. I will maintain my position there as a trainee as long as God permits~

peace n out^_^

ps: I think this is the fever talking. It is too emotional don't u think? ;p

gems~

2011-10-09T00:25:00.000+08:00

salam~

It's sunday!! and I'm off to Genting Highland later! I supposed I'll be using this blog again after all. ^_^

Today I guess was a blast! Beginning with car coaching for Ita at 8am around Putrajaya and Uniten. then headed to Sg Chua for laundry then back to Uniten to get my Snowy then went to Bangi for food and car wash. and continue with ita's car repairing then back home. such a wonderful day!

I love having full activities day like this.

To top it all. I got choc from fiqa, my housmate for farewell and good luck for the GEMs. thanks fiqa!! terharu sy! ^_^

yesterday ita 'blanja' western food at Keramat AU. Fiske Steakhouse. Such a nice place with superb food! Thanks to Shida for the 'blanja' session few years back.

again, looking at this entry, I guess I do have friends that love me. Thanks girls. I Love u too with all my heart! ^_^

It's really sad to leave Bangi. Although maybe not for long but the confirm period is 2 months. huu. sad~

ok. next entry will be on the activities i did with GEMS~

nite2 peeps~

peace n out ^_^

ps: after quite some time. he called again. thanks for remembering me~

Saranghae! ^_^

lifeless life~

2011-10-03T11:33:00.000+08:00

salam~

it has been a month since i graduated from uniten and it has been such boring days. internet sleep eat sleep internet series. i havent done anything much. i wanted to apply for part time job but since the convocation is already around the corner i think i shall wait a little. so rite after convo. no more delay.

as for life event. i keep on reminding myself to look forward. my convocation is on this coming 16th oct and usually i heard this is the perfect time to introduce your significant other to your family. it was once my dream too. but guess i wont be able to find anyone in this next 13 days so. it will be wasted. sigh~

i wanted to tell him this but since the last time i tried to contact him, i only end up hurting my own feelings. so guess that's the end. anyway thanks for the memories. i really hope u could come to my convo as i cant on yours~

peace n out ^_^

thanks, but no thanks~

2011-09-25T12:37:00.000+08:00

salam~

ok. thanks for ruining my day. with all the things i did for u..u keep on testing my limit. and fyi. it is reaching the top..so beware~

and from now on. please note that my least favorite phrase is
" G la sorang-sorang"

yes. thanks. if i were fine to go by my own i would never ask u to come with me. how could u say such things to me? i've been hiding this feeling for quite a long time now. and it always reached the top when i heard those words!

thanks thanks thanks!

that is the word that we hear less and less these days.
do you know that with that single word, u can make a dark sorrow day turn all bright again. so please please please make it a habit.

again. thanks~

peace n out~

hello world~

2011-09-20T03:00:00.000+08:00

salam~

it's been a while since i last wrote in here. it has been very busy and now. i'm totally 100% free. I am now a graduate from UNITEN with a degree to be proud with. just that the fact that i'm still struggling with the job seeking period now. and this is such a frustrating period. been to few interviews and it all went bad. not a single responds after. and now i'm back to my couch and be a potato.

right now i have too much time to think about everything but my mind just refuse to do anything because of KOREA! haha. i keep on watching this variety show called 'Running Man' love it so much i can finish watching 5- 1hour episodes one shot. which result with panda eyes everyday. haha.anyhow. i'm happy..for now~

life?i will just let it be and just go with the flow. i was once thought the history could have a chance to repair itself. but i was wrong. when we put it in the history chapter.it should and always be in the past. if it were to be repaired. let it be another chapter. dont continue from the previous one. it can only do harm. just like what happened to me just few seconds ago. what actually happened? i tried to find out what actually the other side was thinking. turned out just exactly like i thought it was. so..just let it be. i am deleting everything related hoping that i can start my new chapter fresh! i really really hope i can find the new chapter fast. time is limiting itself and i wont stop anymore.

just remember.i forgive but i never forget~

peace n out ^_^

weird~

2011-08-07T10:51:00.000+08:00

salam~

i was all this while against 'gedikness'. but when my own friends became one..it just get even weirder. why would you want to do that. u already have a significant other. why would u want someone else? just because it is a long distance relationship doesn't mean you can go cheating on your significant other.

maybe you would say i am jealous because i cant even get one guy to like me. but wth. i am more content with my less sinful life. yes i do want a man in my life. but not that way. please. i thought u are better than that~

regrets~

peance n out ^_^

nightmare!

2011-06-23T09:03:00.000+08:00

salam~

i was awaken by a morning-mare i would say. i regret sleeping after alarm now. Thanks Allah. i know this is the best way to wake me up. but why does it felt so real him telling me that he's now happier because of other girl. but at the same time still looked at me with those face? sad but it was more sad and disturbing to me. felt like texting him telling how i miss him. luckily i deleted the numbers already. i know if Allah permits it, it will happened no matter what. right now, my priority is to finish my studies and get the best job. insyaallah~

thank you Allah. i am sorry i am not an obedient slave of yours. i am trying to improve myself. help me please~

peace n out ^_^

weekend~

2011-06-20T07:03:00.000+08:00

salam~

this weekend felt so short. spent saturday with jalan2 and sunday with works. huuu~

saturday:
12pm: pmc, bangsar. visit ika. omg. she looks bad. i pray the best for her health. it's sad to see her like that after we all know her as a young cute n cheerful girl. i know u are a strong girl ika. hope u get well soon~
4pm: IOImal puchong. teman kak onny. meet kak tiq, toher and their cute friend. haha. pek'u just the person i would like to have in my life. haha. yea rite schuzyy. i had enough of all this. rite now all i need to focus on is finishing my school projects and graduate! yosh! jun, july august! yosh2! :D

thanks kak ony for the ABC,and mcd! and tol n fuel and parking. hahaha. felt like spending time with mama. everything was taken care of. just be there and enjoy! hoho~

sunday:
11am: cook for the day
12pm till 12am: icsipa works. huhu..that's all i did for the day~

monday:
5am: sahur
7am: cdm
11am: protection esaimen n quiz..huhu

gosh! i need my sleep!

happy rejab everyone~

peace n out ^_^

why?

2011-06-12T23:36:00.001+08:00

salam~

today..a little furious. many friends are getting married and me? nothing. haha. then i came across this article telling that it is better to regret a loss than not experiencing loss at all..yes i am referring to love loss. darn! i think i only felt it 3 times and it was so bad. i really hope that the next time i fall in love it will be for real. no more hurting. please. it not..better leave me alone. i am more peaceful like this. all those false hope would kill me. hate it! why all men nowadays are looking for sexy girls to make a wife. i thought they say men always look for the best only flirt with the sexy ones. gosh. sometimes my fragile heart is telling me to be sexy. gosh. lucky Allah love me. i am still insane. that just not me. i am better off like this. i believe Allah has His plan. all i need to do now is concentrate with my studies and graduating and getting a good work. then love will eventually come when we least expect it..right? insyaallah~

ok..enough talking bout love..sick of it already rite?

since few weeks ago..after i discovered that they made angry birds plus toys..i fall in love with them. but i'm not interested in getting any of the birds..but i am looking for the piggy with misai..haha..but i still found none. i'm sure they made it too. how i wish i have all of the set..then have the slingshot and play in real life. haha..

hehe..aren't they cute? please help me find them..

oh..i never tell anyone before i think..i love key-chains..i collect key-chains since forever! have 2 boxes already..and i;m looking forward to keep on collecting ;p

oh..another thing that i have difficulties on forgetting this week. this video. i was introduced to Korean's variety show called Family Outing..yes i know i am so out dated. this show was a hit back in 2008 and me..only get to know this in 2011..haha..anyhow..i fell in love with hyori and her character..and also bigbang songs. haha..few..because i downloaded their song i only like few. hehe. but here..this one..i cant grow bored listening to this~

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8A9nfvtMteE

i'm not sure why they are no more embedded link. haish. i love this song too much already~ ;p

oh lastly..time waster ;p

Your Wedding Color Should Be Blue

You are super duper sensitive and find it hard to get out of a sad mood.

You are in touch with your six sense. If you have a strong feeling about someone or something, you listen to it.

You're the type of person who still believes in changing the world. You passionately believe that things should be better.

You are compelled to help everyone around you. You are naturally selfless.

What Should Your Wedding Colors Be?

Blogthings: 100's of Fun, Free Quizzes and 3 Stupid Ones

peace n out ^_^

being negative!

2011-06-05T11:57:00.001+08:00

salam~

i'm being negative today.
1. i protested on being late replied. obviously this is PMS talking~
2. i hated that i am left alone in this house..but i am glad there no one here as they'll be my victim if they are here.
3. i hate that everyone is in love except me! what is wrong with me? plus the fact that i am listening to bigbang's song..and mostly the sad ones are super sad..i actually felt sad. and those love songs..my heart just cant take it anymore. only the fact that i cant really understand what they say as it is in korean make me still sticking to them.
4. having nescafe is definity not helping with PMS!
5. schuzyy u need to calm down!

u know this is not u speaking~

peace n out ^_^

life without a man~

2011-06-03T13:19:00.000+08:00

salam~

i'm single..so what? should i be sad about it? yes i am lonely. yes i am sometimes feel sad when i saw someone else is happy with their significant other. i know my time doesnt come yet. so i should just wait. Allah knows best! he tested me once..i cant be trusted with guys. i'm just too generous. luckily that guy cant stand me so he back down. he's the one that lost. i am still happy and beautiful! yosh! never i would accept someone that stupid..not even knowing there are some states with friday holidays. stupid. but i am stupid too for trying to love him and still thinking about him until now...damn! i hate this feeling. i know i am stronger than this. yes i know u can! yosh!

why i love your bf~

2011-05-20T21:05:00.000+08:00

salam~

just creating a noncontroversial title..hehe..actually what i wanted to say is..i love to be friend with someone boyfriend especially my friend's because they made me feel comfortable. Friends..trust me..i will never ever try to seduce your boyfriend..i am not like that. don't worry. why befriended them made me feel comfortable? because i know they wont be anything between except for friendship. i love being friend with anyone. the problem is that..i am not so comfortable when i with guys.but only when i know the guy is someone else's bf..then i'll be relaxed. haha..yes i know i am weird.

i know i always said male never get the positive impression from me..the truth is..it was never 'clean' when thing comes with them. but so far..only the bf are clean..haha~

anyhow..i am so sorry if i made any of my friends annoyed because of this. dont worry..i wont steal them from u because i love u more :D

peace n out ^_^

ps: i'm tired of being cheated..done believing~

time-waster~

2011-05-17T16:24:00.000+08:00

You Are Together

When it comes to dealing with other people, you are all class. Manners are very important to you.
You emphasize quality in all aspects of life. You're a big believer in living well.

You are almost always correct. You know when you're right, and if you end up being wrong, you'll admit it.
You are a fact-finder. You are concert with what's real and actual.

The Modern Chair Test

Blogthings: 100's of Fun, Free Quizzes and 3 Stupid Ones

You Are Compassionate Toward the World

You are a true humanitarian. You care deeply for everyone on this planet.
If you were independently wealthy, you would be a huge philanthropist.

Since you're not rich yet, you do what you can to help everyone around you.
It's likely that you are active with charities and always willing to help a friend.

How Do You Feel About the World?

Blogthings: Discover the Parts of Your Personality that Have Been Hiding

Your Brain is Creative

You have a dreamy mind, full of fancy and fantasy.
You have the ability to stay forever entertained with your thoughts.
People may say you're hard to read, but that's because you're so internally focused.
But when you do share what you're thinking, people are impressed with your imagination.

What Pattern Is Your Brain?

Work is Hard. Time for Blogthings!

You Think Best While You're Driving

In order to be able to think, you need to be able to have time to think. Problem is, there isn't a lot of time for that in your life.
When you are driving, you are finally able to let your mind wander. And it wanders to some pretty interesting places.

Depending on the conditions, driving can make you feel elated, relaxed, or even frustrated. All of these varying emotions spark a lot of revelations.
While the thoughts you have while driving may have a lot of noise in them, there's definitely some insight to be found.

Where Do You Think Best?

The First Rule of Blogthings Is: You Don't Talk About Blogthings

You Are a Hot Tub

You are an experience junkie. No matter what it is, you’ve either tried it or seriously considered it!
You have good people skills. That being said, you need a lot of downtime to renew and energize.

You are the type of person who likes to take it easy. You look forward to your relaxation time at the end of the day.
You prefer to open things up for discussion and see where the brainstorming takes you. You don’t have expectations.

Are You a Hot Tub or Pool?

Blogthings: Waste Time at Work!

cinta sejati~

2011-05-15T18:38:00.001+08:00

salam~

heart is harden. stop trying to make me change my mind bout things in life. already pasrah~

Bingkisan Doa

SEKIRANYA KITA CINTA KEPADA MANUSIA,

TAK SEMESTINYA MANUSIA CINTA KEPADA KITA,

TETAPI SEKIRANYA KITA CINTA KEPADA ALLAH,

NESCAYA CINTA ALLAH TIADA PENGHUJUNGNYA.

SEKIRANYA KITA CINTA KEPADA MANUSIA,

KITA AKAN CEMBURU KEPADA ORANG YANG MENCINTAI ORANG YANG KITA CINTAI,

TETAPI SEKIRANYA KITA CINTA KEPADA ALLAH,

KITA AKAN TURUT MENCINTAIORANG YANG MELABUHKAN CINTANYA KEPADA ALLAH JUGA.

YA ALLAH,

ANDAINYA DIA ADALAH JODOH YANG DITETAPKANOLEH-MU KEPADAKU,

MAKA CAMPAKKANLAH DALAM HATIKU CINTA KEPADANYA ADALAH KERANA-MU,

DAN CAMPAKKANLAH DALAM HATINYA, CINTA KEPADAKU ADALAH KERANA-MU.

NAMUN,

ANDAINYA DIA BUKANLAH JODOH YANG DITETAPKAN OLEH-MU KEPADAKU,

BERIKANLAH KU KEKUATAN AGAR PASRAH DALAM MENGHARUNGI UJIAN YANG KAU BERIKAN KEPADAKU.

YA ALLAH,

JIKA AKU JATUH CINTA,

CINTAKANLAH AKU PADA SESEORANG YANG MELABUHKAN CINTANYA PADA-MU, AGAR BERTAMBAH KEKUATANKU UNTUK MENCINTAI-MU.

YA MUHAIMIN,

JIKA AKU JATUH CINTA,

JAGALAH CINTAKU PADANYA AGAR TIDAK MELEBIHI CINTAKU PADA-MU.

YA RABBANA,

JIKA AKU JATUH HATI,

JAGALAH HATIKU PADANYA AGAR TIDAK BERPALING PADA-MU.

YA RABBUL IZZATI,

JIKA AKU RINDU,

RINDUKANLAH AKU PADA SESEORANG YANG MERINDUI SYAHID DI JALAN-MU.

YA ALLAH,

JIKA AKU RINDU,

JAGALAH RINDUKU PADANYA AGAR TIDAK LALAI AKU MERINDUI SYURGA-MU.

YA ALLAH,

JIKA AKU MENIKMATI CINTA KEKASIH-MU,

JANGANLAH KENIKMATAN ITU MELEBIHI KENIKMATAN INDAHNYA BERMUNAJAT DI SEPERTIGA MALAM TERAKHIR-MU

YA ALLAH,

JIKA AKU JATUH HATI PADA KEKASIH-MU,

JANGANLAH BIARKAN AKU TERTATIH DAN TERJATUH DALAM PERJALANAN PANJANG MENYERU MANUSIA KEPADA-MU.

YA ALLAH,

JIKA KAU HALALKAN AKU MERINDUI KEKASIH-MU,

JANGAN BIARKAN AKU MELAMPAUI BATAS SEHINGGA MELUPAKAN AKU PADA CINTA HAKIKI DAN RINDU ABADI HANYA KEPADA-MU.

p/s: Mati hanya sekali, jadikannya pada jalan Allah

*not sure whom should i give the credit for this..but..thanks so much~

You Are Wild

You're very restless and bored easily. You get antsy easily... you need to wander.
Everything is up in the air for you. You just go where the wind takes you.

If you're facing a problem, getting away for a couple days always helps you clear your mind.
You are both optimistic and philosophical about life. You often need space to think things through.

The New Hair Color Test

Blogthings: Take a Quiz. Annoy Your Friends.

4 months race starts today!! yosh!!

2011-05-09T14:03:00.000+08:00

salam~

it's Monday!! and it is one hot Monday morning. usually i love to wake up early in the morning because it's cold..last night was hot..restless night..i hope today will be bit cooler. so..today is the first day of class. i hope i'll get to see few faces..sad as most of known friends are either already finished their days in university or aways for their internship. huhu..sad~

i need to see my supervisor..that's is another hard thing to do today, apart from the fact that i only have 3 classes today. dang..monday and those gaps! really is challenging! huu~

shut it schuzyy!! you know u can do it! yosh!! positive2!!

holiday is almost over..huhu~

2011-05-04T23:29:00.000+08:00

salam~

as usual..the final week before i go back to bangi..life will be tunggang terbalik again..huhu..with mama n abah berebut to spend time with me..asking me to do this and that..saying..aritu kata nk buat tu ni..xdan dah la..huhu..penat2..but i do love that all..haha..will miss them much as i wont be coming back for 3 more weeks..eheh..3 weeks je kot ;p

i found this somewhere..i love it!

No one else can ever make your choices for you.

Your choices are yours alone. They are as much

a part of you as every breath you will take,

every moment of your life.

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You cannot manage your life if you do not manage

your self. You cannot manage your self if you do

not manage your choices. Manage your choices,

and you will manage your life.

peace n out ^_^

if only~

2011-05-01T16:48:00.001+08:00

salam~

WARNING: THIS IS AN EMO ENTRY..FEEL FREE TO LEAVE IF U DISLIKE LENGTHY EMOTIONAL READING! ;p

i AM having issues with men. i cant truly see their potential in women life. i know there are some who proven their worth to the woman they love..but still i havent see any before my eyes. so sorry men. u just dont have my trust anymore. i know i will maybe someday eat my word..but until i found a man that truly prove it to me..i will remain as this. i know women are somehow can survive without having men in their life..i have seen proves. it is hard in terms of emotions i know..but with some other substitutes, love from a man can be replaced. i'm sure of that. So here are something that i would like all men to read. because i thing this is something that they should know. it may sound silly..but trust me..how hard a woman heart is..these will always apply..and i marked several that also true for me..sadly..sigh~

Andai lelaki tahu..Apabila seorang perempuan jatuh cinta,lelaki itu tidak semestinya punya segalanya tetapi lelaki itu adalah segalanya di hatinya.

*true*

Andai lelaki tahu..Apabila seorang perempuan itu mengalirkan air mata, itu bukan bermakna dia lemah, tetapi dia sedang mencari kekuatan untuk terus tabah menyintai lelaki itu.

*not true..i wont cry for men. well..maybe not yet..only God knows~

Andai lelaki tahu..Apabila seorang perempuan marah, memang dia tidak mampu mengawal perasaannya tapi percayalah, itulah maknanya dia sangat mengambil berat dan menyayangi lelaki itu. Lihat saja pasangan yang baru bercinta, mereka jarang bergaduh. Tetapi percayalah semakin bertambah sayang mereka pada seseorang, semakin pula banyak pertelingkahan yang berlaku.

*true*

Andai lelaki tahu..Apabila perempuan bercakap banyak, dia tidak pernah bermaksud untuk membuat anda rimas, tapi dia mahu lelaki mengenalinya dengan lebih dekat.

* i' m more silent with them

Andai lelaki tahu..Apabila perempuan berkata dia mahu anda berubah, itu bukan bermakna dia tidak mahu menerima anda seadanya, tetapi dia mahu menjadikan anda lebih baik, bukan untuk dirinya, tetapi untuk masa depan anda.

*yes..this is so true..i'm sure it is to everyone else too

Andai lelaki tahu..Apabila perempuan cemburu dan tidak percayakan anda, bukan bermakna dia tidak sayang..tetapi dia terlalu sayangkan anda dan masih mengangap anda anak kecil yang masih memerlukan sepenuh perhatian. Kadang2 dia terlalu risau sekiranya terlalu percaya, anda akan mengkhianati kepercayaan yang diberi. Naluri keibuannya sangat kuat. Dia hanya mahukan yang terbaik untuk anda.

*so true

Andai lelaki tahu..Apabila perempuan merajuk, jangan kata dia mengada-ngada. Dia bukannya mahu dipujuk dengan wang ringgit atau hadiah sedozen, tetapi cukup dengan perhatian yang boleh buat perempuan rasa dihargai.

*time and comfort

Andai lelaki tahu..Apabila perempuan jarang mengatakan ‘i love u’, itu tidak bermaksud dia tidak menyintai tetapi dia mahu lelaki itu merasai sendiri cintanya, bukan hanya hadir dari kata-kata tetapi juga melalui bahasa tubuhnya.

*nope..just no.

Andai lelaki tahu..Apabila perempuan kata dia rindu sama kamu, dia benar-benar maksudkannya. Apabila berjauhan, bayanganmu akan sentiasa bermain di mata.

*sadly true..God please forgive me~

Andai lelaki tahu..Apabila perempuan kata lelaki lain itu lebih baik dari kamu, jangan percaya kata-katanya kerana dia hanya mahu menguji kamu. Dia mahu melihat sejauh mana kamu sanggup menjadi yang terbaik di matanya. Walaupun sebenarnya memang kamulah yang terbaik di hatinya. Selagi dia dengan kamu, percayalah, walaupun perempuan menganggap masih ramai lagi yang lebih baik di matanya tetapi di hatinya, kamu tetap yang terbaik.

* true

Andai lelaki tahu..Apabila perempuan menjadi degil, dia bukan bermaksud untuk menjadi degil tapi dia mahu melihat sejauh mana lelaki itu mampu bersabar dengan kerenahnya. Percayalah, hati perempuan itu sangat lembut. Andai kena caranya, jangan terkejut kalau akhirnya dia menukar fikirannya dalam masa sesaat.

*yes..we can change in matter of seconds

Andai lelaki tahu..Apabila perempuan berkata, “tolong tinggalkan saya!”, dia tidak bermaksud menyuruh anda pergi selamanya. Dia hanya mahu menenangkan fikirannya sebentar saja. Apabila dia kembali tenang, percayalah dia akan mencari anda semula. Itu tandanya dia benar-benar menyintai anda. Perempuan sukar untuk mengawal perasaan. Dia terlalu emosional. Tapi dialah yang paling menyayangi anda dan sangat sensitif dengan perubahan pada diri anda.

*truth that not many understand

Andai lelaki tahu..Sememangnya Allah menciptakan lelaki dan perempuan itu dengan perbezaan yang tersendiri. Tetapi sekiranya mereka saling memahami, mereka akan saling melengkapi dan menyempurnakan . Perempuan itu diciptakan oleh Allah indah sekali. Di sebalik air matanya, tersimpan seribu satu kekuatan yang bakal menjadikan seorang lelaki itu merasa selamat bersamanya. Biarpun zahirnya perempuan itu tampak lemah tapi dia punya kekuatan tersendiri yang bisa menggoncang dunia dan mungkin bisa pula membuat lelaki menjadi lemah kerananya. Jadi hargailah kehadiran seorang perempuan dalam hidup anda kerana dia didatangkan bukan dengan kelemahan sahaja tetapi dia juga ada kekuatan untuk menyongkong anda dan membuatkan hidup anda lebih sempurna. Dialah yang bakal menjadi perempuan bekerjaya, isteri juga ibu yang terbaik untuk anak2 anda.

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peace n out ^_^

kagum~

2011-04-29T01:11:00.001+08:00

salam~

what was i 'kagum' with? kids these days..aha..yea..i am accepting that i am no more in that category..i know i know. haha..but still i am keeping my young look..hehe..ok..kagum..i am amazed with how kids these days are acting..acting like adults..i am already an adult..ok..maybe official adult age is 21 so maybe those who are off 18 very keen on getting to the age of 21..but believe me dear..it is not that wonderful..haha..i was there few years back..yea i know i shouldnt be complaining or saying much about adulthood..but seeing you guys acting all grown-up make me kinda sick sometimes..how u dress how u act..how u speak with others..it is still a long way till u really understand what adult is all about..but right after leaving school..ur freedom kinda get to ur head..and it doesnt look good..ok..i maybe envy ur fashion sometimes..because i dont have the guts to dress as much..but please..behave..and show some respects to others ok. ok enough negativeness~

time waster..as always..haha~

You Are Patient

You tend to stick with relationships - through the good and the bad. You're stubborn that way.
You are willing to wait for someone to come around. You give lots of second chances.

You are a great listener and tend to give valuable advice. You know your friends well.
You have a lot of inner strength, and you can dig deep when you need to. You are resilient.

You Are an Adventurous Traveler

You travel to expand your own mind and challenge your conceptions of the world.
You think that each vacation should be a growth experience. You aren't content just to relax.

You want to see the world, and you're willing to rough it a bit - if that what it takes.
You are a thrill seeker, and you want to do it all. You're not content to just lie on the beach.

You Are Iced Coffee

You are witty, flirty, and fun. People love to be around you and your energy.
You need change in order to feel alive. You are very dynamic and interesting.

There's so much you want to try. There's so much you want to experience.
You are always expanding your mind in some cool way. You are open to and curious about the world.

peace n out ^_^

cemas.debar.cuak

2011-04-18T00:50:00.000+08:00

salam~

since evening i was feeling this..uneasy..usually my instinct works..but this time..i really not sure what is the cause. but i'm really am glad i'm with my parents now..so i have the chance to protect them. so who else would cause me this much of uneasiness? huhu..

eat pray love~

2011-04-15T03:10:00.000+08:00

salam~

ok..another movie today..i've heard my friends talking about this movie and the book..i havent found the book and i'm not sure i wanted to read it or not..the movie is inspiring..i love the eat and pray parts..because i too love to eat..pray? yes..but not meditation..i just need the sea breeze to make me relax and get the balance again..hehe..but the love part..guess the hero doesn't look nice on the eyes..sorry dude..u r so not my taste..haha..but BALI..that is one thing that i was soo excited about..i like the idea of the guy..living in Bali..a place that one can find peace and in his case..recover from his divorce. hmm..i would love to live there too..and i love their houses..not to mention the laut! OMG! i can still hear those sound..the waves..i love Bali..ok..back to the review..through the 3 parts..i can feel the first two..but the last one..i'm lost..i can't feel anything..at a moment i felt like..gosh..i am just like her..i'm just too afraid to love..afraid of trust..commitment..of being hurt by someone i love dearly...gah..life is beautiful..no one should spend any second worrying about how bad their life is..just live the moment like there are no tomorrows~

peace n out ^_^

love actually is all around~

2011-04-14T03:31:00.000+08:00

salam~

ok..i know i am a bit out dated..this is a 2003 movie and i just saw tonight..wonder why i never heard of this movie before..haha..and it was actually a great movie..as always..it does make me cried few times..it was so lovely..and trust me..i am writing this and it all sound very English in my head..haha..blimey~

but with all the sweetness of this movie..and the tears..it all then came back to me.. my life..it is never a good idea to watch a romantic movie when u r sad because of love..because it will only make u even more sad..darn it~

i really want to pour it all out here..but it is too personal..and it will look stupid when i re-read this again..haha..aa..love..people say..love urself then u will get the love of ur life..pursue ur career first before u pursue ur love..and tonight..love is all around..it is always about love..it is not that i hate the idea of being in love..falling in love or such..i still do believe in love..just that..seeing is believing..and i need to see one to believe..ok..that's not right..i've seen too many..i need to experience one to believe it is actually true especially in this cruel cruel world~

peace n out ^_^

hahaha~

2011-04-10T00:30:00.000+08:00

salam~

i know i'll be embarrassed and will laugh at myself when i came back to this next time..
today's topic is love..yes..the taboo topic..i am so lack of experience in this field..or maybe i am too scared to gain any more experience related...and after few months of emptyness..i found another candidate..yes i still consider him as a candidate..havent yet ready to commit..truth hurts..twice is enough for me..but age and time does change people..i admit that..so i am trying to get to know this guy..but all i get is still the same as the previous ones..so i guess it was my mistake after all..so i tolerate..again..ok..i'm not telling all the details here..ok..so what i do this time around..i kinda seek for some help..haha..well not anything serious..just someone on the internet..and about this problem i have..this is what i got as an advice..as my age is getting more and more each year..and i am trying to be more mature..i think i need to be ready for the fact that one day..anytime sooner..maybe rite after august (what??!) maybe my parents would ask THE question..so i'm preparing..myself for the moment..and for the future....ok2..here's what the advice say i should have said to the guy i'm with..and it does make sense..rite?

It would feel great to be with you. I feel awkward and excited even talking about this. And I don't want...a boyfriend or a live-in relationship at this point in my life. I'm looking to be married and be a mother. So, until you're sure you want marriage and fatherhood, it would feel better to just date and keep my options open.

words: well..this is where i'll start to feel thorn apart..one side of me say..yosh schuzyy!! you should open up and try to meet new guys.. and the other is saying..no no no..u should just wait..that is not how a muslimah should do..u are way too good to do that(sigh~)

God..please help me..show me some signs..talking about signs..usually when i started to lost the emm..how to say this..like-love-connection thingy with anyone..they would enter my dream..and usually when i woke up and remember it..i will end up feeling sad..i am a girl who fall..em..like someone easily..and i will like them for quite a while..only until..he did something that is not tolerable to my eyes and hearts..then i'll close the case..but among thise thousands crushes..only 3 made into the 'other' list..haha..yes..self-centered mode "on" but like i said..it all ended the same way..sigh..anyhow..it is all about the lesson..life lesson..life still need to go on~

ok..enough said..i'm locking this heart again..and only time can unlock it again..hope there's still hope for me..insyaallah~

peace n out ^_^

memories remains~

2011-04-08T01:32:00.000+08:00

salam~

i was re-arranging my xternal hdd..bought another one because the old one will be dedicated only to my FYP..as a backup..huhu..why? i heard a friend of my lost her pc and everything was in it..no backup..sigh..hope that will never happen to me..i'll lost myself then..so..using MARA scholar honestly..i then bought a 500gb hard disk..wuhoooo!! heaven weyh i tell u..haha..actually was planning to buy the 1T..but the price is still bit high for me..so 500gb is enough la compare to the old 120gb..hehe..but the sad story was..i bought the old one twice the price i got the new one..darn technology..how can i ever follow u..huhu~

so..the story~

i was re-arranging the folders..everything..songs..pictures..documents everything..u name it..and along came the memories..the sad, the laughs..the urgh..hurt much..still..i even found few documents on YM chats with few friends..and gosh..reading all those..just make me blushed..seems soooo stupid..i know in 20 years time if i come and read this blog again..this too will sound stupid..haha..well..that is why we heard them say..life changes people..and so did i..haha..and i managed to delete few picture folders that i think don't matter to me much..all those stories..i think i better leave them behind as i move on to the present life. oh..talking bout funny stuff..i got this 1 biiiiggg folder of crushes..note that..crushes..haha..yes..since few years back..i got few crushes..and when i looked at the pictures..again..i blushed..haha..stupid! how did my mind worked? now those guys belong to others..and i think..thank God i didnt go any further with any of them..not that they want that..hahaha..so..i deleted the folders as i deleted the crushing2 thingy..i am so matured now! haha~

looking at those things..really brought me to reality..yes i know i am not acting my age..but who ask them to say that i look younger than my age..haha..blame them!! blame them all!! hahaha..i read a fb statement of a friend..about age..and the fact that we are not that far to the big 3O..haha..gosh! gulp! double gulp! i know if i tell mama about this..she sure will straight go and ask anyone to marry me fast! haha..ok2..back to serious mode..i was saying..i know..this could be the perfect time to change..acting my age..as in few months time..i will be facing the real world..and if i continue to act like this..no one will take me seriously..i learnt that 3 times already..and i think..a change will be great..but how? do not know~

that 1 + 2x3 months experience really taught me what real life is all about..and how i should deal with it later..i hope i can be a better person..i have a dream..a dream too great to be told here..so i think better keep to myself first..but i did told my rumate..and she said no prolemo! only and only if i leave the unnecessary behind..yes! i should do that..those 'unnecessary' will only keep my dream away..i know i might jeopardize my happiness..but with that i will surely make my parents happier..and my rumate too..haha..only 3 of us know about the plan..hehehe..hope it will come true~ ^_^

still got much to tell..but for some reasons..i kinda need to learn to be silence for a while..been talking and writing too much..i'm not only writing here..i have another 2 diaries that i keep..one for the loved ones and one for study purposes..cewah..i know..i've been writing here as if anyone would want to read this..a friend once told me..the instance she saw the length of my entries she closed my page..haha..i dont mind that..thanks for trying to read my blog..if u managed to read up until this...congratulations..and thank YOU sooo much!! love u! ^_^

peace n out ^_^

wasting time~

2011-03-31T22:28:00.000+08:00

salam~

i thought i love wasting time..gosh..i guess not..these few days..felt like hell..and still do..all blame the sponsor..haha..but mama said..dont be furious with them as they are the one who providing the money..hehe..sorry mr sponsorship..i'll be patinet~

so what i did since last night after finished with the paper..i started on reading the iluvislam blog..and i love it..actually i still reading it now..havent finish..so many things i learn..and today..i guess this one is nice~

Rumput dan kasih sayang~

Pada suatu pagi di satu sekolah menengah, ada seorang pelajar bertanya pada seorang guru yang sedang mengajar. Ketika itu, guru tersebut sedang menyentuh mengenai kasih dan sayang secara am.

Dialog di antara pelajar dan guru tersebut berbunyi begini :

Pelajar : Cikgu, macam mana kita nak pilih seseorang yang terbaik sebagai orang paling kita sayang? Macam mana juga kasih sayang itu nak berkekalan?

Cikgu : Oh, awak nak tahu ke? Emmm... baiklah, sekarang kamu buat apa yang saya suruh. Ikut je ye... mungkin kamu akan dapat apa jawapannya.

Pelajar : Baiklah... apa yang saya harus buat?

Cikgu : Kamu pergi ke padang sekolah yang berada di luar kelas sekarang juga. Kamu berjalan di atas rumput di situ dan sambil memandang rumput di depan kamu, pilih mana yang paling cantik tanpa menoleh ke belakang lagi walaupun sekali. Dan kamu petiklah rumput yang paling cantik yang berada di depan kamu tersebut dan selepas itu bawa balik ke kelas.

Pelajar : Ok. Saya pergi sekarang dan buat apa yang cikgu suruh. Apabila pelajar tersebut balik semula ke kelas, tiada pun rumput yang berada di tangannya. Maka cikgu pun bertanya kepada pelajar tersebut.

Cikgu : Mana rumput yang cikgu suruh petik?

Pelajar : Oh, tadi saya berjalan di atas rumput dan sambil memandang rumput yang berada di situ, saya carilah rumput yang paling cantik. Memang ada banyak yang cantik tapi cikgu kata petik yang paling cantik maka saya pun terus berjalan ke depan sambil mencari yang paling cantik tanpa menoleh ke belakang lagi. Tapi sampai di penghujung padang , saya tak jumpa pun yang paling cantik. Mungkin ada di antara yang di belakang saya sebelum itu tapi dah cikgu cakap tak boleh menoleh ke belakang semula, jadi tiadalah rumput yang saya boleh petik.

Cikgu : Ya, itulah jawapannya. Maknanya, apabila kita telah berjumpa dengan seseorang yang kita sayang, janganlah kita hendak mencari lagi yang lebih baik daripada itu. Kita patut hargai orang yang berada di depan kita sebaik-baiknya. Janganlah kita menoleh ke belakang lagi kerana yang berlaku tetap dah berlaku. Dan semoga yang berlalu tidak lagi berulang. Jika kita berselisih faham dengan orang yang kita sayang itu, kita boleh perbetulkan keadaan dan cuba teruskan perhubungan tersebut walaupun banyak perkara yang menggugat perhubungan tersebut. Dan ingatlah orang yang kita sayang itulah kita jumpa paling cantik dan paling baik pada mulanya walaupun nak ikutkan banyak lagi yang cantik dan baik seperti rumput tadi. Kecualilah jika perhubungan tersebut tak boleh diselamatkan lagi, maka barulah kita mulakan sekali lagi. Maka sayangilah orang yang berada di depan kita dengan tulus dan ikhlas.

Maka, bersyukurlah dengan kasih-sayang yang kau terima pada hari ini, kerana jika kau meninggalkannya, mungkin kasih sayang itu tidak akan kembali seperti sediakala.

Sedarlah wahai insan, kasih sayang Allah itulah yang paling hakiki, jika kau memalingkan dirimu dari kasihnya, maka kamulah serugi-rugi manusia.

myWord: this story kinda woke me up..i never thought love like that..i've been wondering why they managed to find someone they love..and live happily ever after..but why havent i found anyone? my ego heart usually say..why i havent found someone who are worth my love..gosh..i am so full of myself..thinking that i am too nice too good for anyone..i remember reading this blog..about a girl who listed down her MR Right criteria..and this guy is all laughing at it..and saying that the only man that suit the list is only Rasullullah saw..and that too make me again wonder..i know..the choice is not really in my hands..it definitely in Allah's..and again a man who are nice enough to wanted to choose me..i maybe have turn down few hearts..because this stupid head is thinking she is too good for those hearts to have hers..i am soo sorry for not giving you the chance..and for that i paid the price..not having anyone till now..haha..regrets are still here..but like they say..there's no point of regretting something in the past..as those will never happen again for you to make it as a lesson..life lesson..so cherish what is in front of you..even if it is something weird in normal eyes..i know i want to start believing again..i talked to my room-mate last night about how i treated people who i thought i'm in love with..and i know she think i'm weird..haha..like i say..this ego is just too high..even i cant conquer it..huhu..hopefully by august everything will be better..age is increasing..life is getting shorter..i know i am ready to step forward..it is only the matter of time..Please Allah..help me get through this..i need your help to be strong in this~

peace n out ^_^

work? or no work?

2011-03-29T15:01:00.000+08:00

salam~

work? is it that hard? i watch people saying they are too tired to go out because of work..they dont have time for this and that because of work..sooo many limitation because of work..i hate that..well maybe because i am not there yet..gosh! hopefully i wont be like them..or would i be worst?

my least favorite for these weeks..trust..understanding..tired and work

sekian terima kasih~

peace n out~

life is getting harder~

2011-03-26T21:45:00.000+08:00

salam~

people say i am friendly..i think i am..haha..but guess what..i'm not only good at making friends..i am good at making enemies too..sigh~

i hate to be hated and to hate..but maybe life hasnt teach me how to accept people for who they are..i am trying..i know and very much aware of how difference people are..but still..i am hoping that everyone are like me..haha..crazy rite? i am so sorry for those who i accidentally be mean to. believe me..i am nice to those who are nice to me..and u'll get back the shit if u gave me some..hahaha..cash babe~

ok..i got exam tomorrow..i know i am being mean..but i did what i need to do..

today..what i learned..it is all about understanding..people always looking for someone who can understand them..but if u only seek those who understand u..who will understand them? they too need u to understand them..understood? life is simple if u made it simple~

peace n out ^_^

hyperness~

2011-03-24T21:41:00.000+08:00

salam~

today..my 1st final exam paper..huhu..for how many time..this is the first paper that i felt like i cn do..but when i accidentally check for the answers..it was all wrong..all!! rasa nk sepak diri sendiri!

so supposedly..i took nescafe tonight so that i can study 2 wordy subjects that will be tested on this coming sunday and monday..huhu..but see what i did? fb-ing, blogging..tv-ing..haha..what a waste of time schuzyy! u know words make u sleepy..still u are waiting for sleepy to come then u study?? what la wey?

ok2..now hyperness strikes me already..haha..so not for long..then night2 everyone~

actually..i am trying sooo hard to get my priority straight. i know what i need to settle now..even if some other matter came by..i wanted that other matter too..but a friend told me..that of the time is right..it will come by again..hopefully~

ok..that's enough..hard to keep myself still..

peace n out ^_^

mood mood mood~

2011-03-22T02:26:00.002+08:00

salam~

my sleep pattern changed abruptly this week..and i know it is bad! especially when i have a morning paper this coming thursday..plus we are spending time at library the whole day..sigh!

so here's what i did to kill time..and to spend those time needed to get sleepy..sigh..i accidentally slept for 2 hours after mgrib just now..regret!

You Are a Book

You are a very intellectual and logical person. You like to think, and a lot of your thinking is quite deep.
You are both philosophical and idealistic. You think it's interesting to imagine how the world could be.

You enjoy spending a good deal of time alone. In fact, you tend to go sort of crazy if you don't get your space.
While you may seem distant, you care very deeply for humanity. You're trying to figure out how to save the world.

Are You a Book, Magazine, or Newspaper?

Blogthings: Cheaper Than a Therapist

You Are a Blue M&M

You are an affable and likable person. You are a natural people-pleaser.
You change your mind constantly. Everything ends up sounding good to you.

You like to keep your options open, but your mind isn't muddled. You're a very clear thinker.
You love people, and you're an optimist about everyone you meet. Friendship is important to you.

What Color M&M Are You?

Blogthings: Waste Time at Work!

i don;t really like heliza..but i do envy her big eyes..haha..but this song..i kinda like it..heard it in MHI few weeks ago..tried looking for this song as soon as i heard it but didnt know the title..so found this on a friend's fb..and here it is..posted on my blog..hahaha..cute song~

You Are Bamboo

You are a very independent and unpredictable person. You do things your way, and you never know what turn your life will take.
You are very intellectual and logical. You try to think things through carefully, in steps.

Sometimes it seems like you are unemotional, but you try to have your emotions work for you instead of against you.
Those who know you best know who loyal, compassionate, and supportive you are. You are a very admirable person.

What's Your Lucky Charm?

You Are Pineapple

You are funky and original. You have a lot of natural flair, and that flair infects everything you do.
You are very expressive. You can't help but let your one of a kind personality show through!

You may be a little different than everyone else, but you're still loved by many.
You are naturally sweet and welcoming. You're always up for making a new friend.

What Pizza Topping Are You?

Blogthings: Discover the Parts of Your Personality that Have Been Hiding

You Are Outgoing in Real Life

You are modern and up on the latest trends. You resist getting stuck in a rut.

You are confident and sure of yourself. You may not be prefect, but you're happy with what you've got.

You get easily distracted in your life. You often forget about the things that you love.

You consider yourself to be a responsible person. You will do whatever needs to be done.

What Does Your Facebook Profile Say About You?

Blogthings: Quizzes and Tests and Memes, Oh My!

peace n out ^_^

i laughed..laugh is good!

2011-03-17T21:17:00.000+08:00

salam~

i don't know why..but i am happy today..keep on smiling and laughing all day round..morning started just fine..went to school..had the talk..nothing important except for the facts that i think don't really affect me..so guess just wait and see..then went back home to save some money on lunch..haha..3 days of spaghetti..haha..then headed back to uniten for a 1-hour class..then submit all assignments..then lepak with kak ida..then headed home! and it was raining! haha..and i 'redah' the hujan happily!! siap laughing at other bikers..funny how we reacted with rain..oh..and yes..i love rain! i love water..i love everything that has anything to do with water. hehe~

i hope everything will be as good as today's..amin~

oh..here's one quote that i read on my friend's fb page..and i like so much!!

"If someone wants to be a part of your life, they'll make an effort to be in it. Don't bother reserving a space in your heart for someone who doesn't make an effort to stay."

my comment: so true..it never worth it to sacrifice the space and time and whatever for someone who afraid of making such an effort..so..if u have someone who are making the effort..and u have a hint of liking the person..u might want to consider accepting that person..because he/she might be the one..only that u havent realize it..keep on praying..may God help u choose~

peace n out ^_^

life and changes it makes~

2011-03-16T21:45:00.000+08:00

salam~

i'll be single again for another 4 days..haha..the last words are funny..anyways..it was all sweet..thanks dear~

i read a quote from yana's blog..

"If you look at what you do not have in life, you don't have anything; if you look at what you have in life, you have everything."

it is true isn't it? when we keep on thinking about things that we want..we will keep on finding things that we still haven't achieve or have. but when come to think of things we already have..it is already everything that other people envied us for. That is why Allah always say..we need to be grateful for everything we have and don't have..even for the misfortune..we need to be grateful..maybe there are something that not good if we have what we wanted..so by making it a misfortune..we end up with some other fortune..only God knows what best for us..

we were talking about this in this few days..i begin to believe more in you..eventho time is something that bring us apart..i know..God must be the mastermind behind all this..because He knows better. I know we are not that strong..i will keep on praying for u..and for the future. Who knows..u might change for the greater good..amin~

and for me..in these 4 days..i will try to be strong..aha..with my final exams coming super fast! and another assignment due on Friday..be strong schuzyy!! you can do it!! yosh!!

today..is quite a day..i didnt sleep the whole day..haha..i finish few assignments..erm..1..hahaha..well at least i did something rite? ;p

so tomorrow? talk with mara, settle everything..then i can start on my study! yosh!

oh yeaaa...i haven't tell about my fyp presentation on last friday..it was superb! well i did some 'gorengan' hehe..but i saw them nodding..so i guess my 'gorengan' taste good..haha..alhamdullilah~ :D

ok..stop about that..i hope my fyp 2 will be just as good. amin..for my sisters cik idalia n cik diza..all da best for friday's presentation! ^_^

happy soul~

2011-03-14T21:41:00.001+08:00

salam~

i love weekend..i regret waking up late on weekends..felt like losing a day..sigh! so starting from today..i will be waking up at 6.30am everyday!! yosh!! on weekdays it's already feel natural to wake up at 6.30am..only on weekends..on saturday i did an experiment..sleeping without setting any alarm..hoho..usually i set at least 3 alarms..because snoozing is a habit..haha..and my saturday started at 8.30am..and i was quite amazed..slept quite late..so claps for myself i guess..hahaha..

exams are coming up super fast..but still not fully prepared..10%? hardly..so schuzyy..what r u waiting for? it's not like u r going to get married any time soon...so start struggling for ur own future! please~

i was updating my fb' profile..and i just realized that longest working experience i had was for only 3 months..and i guess..3 months is the perfect number for collecting working experiences..meaning? ok..

month 1: getting to know the job, the people and the world.
month 2: doing the job right, blending in the world
month 3: keeping up the good job or getting bored..u r no longer new..then people are showing their true colors..so time to get out from current situation :D

theory proven twice..so it is possible to keep on repeating. ^_^

so love life? not important till the end of this month...will only wait...and wait..and wait..next step is definitely not by me~

schuzyy!! start now!!

Your Soul is Aries

You are impulsive to the point of being a daredevil. You don't like to sit around wondering whether you should act!
You are dynamic and goal focused. You want to change the world, and you've got what it takes to do it.

You are both quick-witted and quick-tempered. You act immediately on your emotions and impulses.
You are confident and brutally honest about your opinions. You believe that it's best to be straight-forward with people.

What Sign is Your Soul?

Blogthings: Quizzes and Tests and Memes, Oh My!

peace n out ^_^

picture YOURSELF as YOUR OWN
Fountain Of Love, flowing water all over yourself,
loving yourself, caring for yourself.

Oprah show~

2011-03-10T11:25:00.001+08:00

salam~

i was watching Oprah. today she had Kristin..sorry lazy wanna google her full name..she is an actress who started as being a cleaner..it amaze me how she love cleaning so much..using hand for the floors..i wish i can be like her..mama will be super happy then..haha..oh..what i love about today's show is she like this house since she was a kid..and now..she has it!! that just a life proven thing that i always hear..what we say is a pray..so say good things so that the prayers works well~

since she was saying about getting historical house..i too have a dream house..a? hmm..few i guess..haha..ok..my dream house will be..a house near a beach..because when i'm under stress..i need to look at anything watery..beach will be the best! river, lake or fountains or even rain is ok too..but gosh i really want to have a beach house..like this is nice

just like the house in full house..i'm not so much into sun-bathing..i tanned too much too fast..so i just need the view..so i need a house with nice beach view..and my dream location is in Bali..hehe..but i need to earn HUGE to have that dream coming into reality.but well..what i need to do now..is study smart..work well and earn HUGE..and have my dream house! amiin!!!! ^_^

here the link..gosh! i really really really want this house!!!

ps: please ignore the adv..weird..haha~

oh..quote of the day..

if u work great at average..u will turn out big one day..sooner or later~

thanks Oprah!

peace n out ^_^

sy stress~

2011-03-09T21:59:00.000+08:00

salam~

sy stress.. sbb sy sedey..lg..nape la nk wat hal time2 nk exam n time bz camni? boley x jgn cari pasal..so i did the same thing i always do each time this things happened. hahaha..this thing..always make me wanna sleep the whole day..being lazy..as that is what i always do best..gosh! this is what i fear most each time exam time come by..stress..and so little time with all those assignments and presentations and STUDY! gosh! please God..help me..i need to hibernate all matters that concerning heart..for a month..or for 3 weeks at least..just now..we was talking about the grad nite..gosh..thinking about it..make my heart leap..in pain! no partner! hahaha..gosh..why on earth did i sign up my name for? schuzyy! think again..the dress? make-up? r u sure? re-think~

ok..stress!

peace n out ^_^

ps: i would like to thank Faizal Tahir and for the song "Gemuruh" that song really helping in making my heart be strong again! yosh!!

aish...sy ngantuk~

2011-03-09T10:36:00.000+08:00

salam~

i read about life here..and few other articles too..haha..and what i learn is..never give more than what we get. hmm..not sure i can believe that..because i think it is all depending on the person. human are different! never assume! i love this feeling..it is not so near..but so far either..i keep on reading on things to improve relationship.. haha..funny~

kisses and hugs..i need some of those rite now~

life is getting busier..and tougher..i skip a test yesterday..and yesterday was a stressful day..thanks to my room-mate for the evening..u saved me big time! thanks! ^_^

i know i am being an *** these few days..not to one..but few others too..but i kinda get it back..so it's even now? i hope.. huhuhu..so..tomorrow and friday's presentations..hope everything goes well! yosh!!!

wish me luck!!! pray hard please!! ^_^

peace n out ^_^

time to get buzy~

2011-03-07T09:16:00.000+08:00

salam~

my addiction for nescafe is getting worst. but for my own good..well for now..i can be wide awake at 6am if i took nescafe at 8pm..and i can be wide awake till evening if i have one at 7am..haha..gosh..i hope i can still keep the dose that much..not more..i am too depending on caffeine..this is bad for health..i know the effects but still..i need to have them..how laaa?

ok..lets list down all the task needed to be done this month alone!

*HVT test tomorrow!! chap 1-4

1. 10 mac: presentation safety; infos gathered..but still havent edited and put in slides. and still one group member not responding..gosh

2. 11 mac: HVT assignmentl; group leader said, no need to do anything. biar btol???

3. 11 mac: FYP presentation!!! wuwuuu..cuak sey~

4. 18 mac: pci assignment..5Qs divided with eryn

5. final exam!!!
24 mac: HVT
27 mac: PDE
28 mac: ESH
30 mac: PCI

ahahaha..there they goes..by 30th mac..i am free!! wee..till 9 may..sigh~

instinct

2011-03-06T20:47:00.001+08:00

salam~

think with head? or with heart? i usually think with my heart. so instinct is kinda play big part in my life. simple example..with him..i usually have instinct when he text or miss-called. especially when he was mad at me..i can sense it rite away. that is why i keep on thinking..is he the one? haha..hope he is!

but usually..instinct will be affected if i took nescafe..which i usually need in frequent. 1 in da morning to kick-start the day..and one in late afternoon to keep me awake thru the night. gosh! addiction~

i'm thinking..should i de-activate my fb for a month? few of my friends already did..they say they need to do that to distract them from fb. but i am not so addicted to fb..i am more to surfing..so should i ban internet for a while? hahaha..yea rite!

ok..need to do work! plus another test in tuesday..presentation in wednesday and on friday!! FYP wey!! wish me luck!!! pray hard for me ok!

Your Soulmate is Friendly

You are a very open and extroverted person - and you seek the same in a partner.
Your soulmate doesn't have to be as outgoing as you are, but you'd have trouble being with a wallflower.

You also do best with someone who is responsible and practical. You sometimes need to balance out your easygoing approach to life.
However, you couldn't be with anyone who took things too seriously. You prefer to have a relaxed relationship.

What is Your Soulmate Like?

Blogthings: Discover the Parts of Your Personality that Have Been Hiding

love this!!! ^_^

peace n out ^_^

saye kene kedekut!

2011-03-01T10:08:00.005+08:00

salam~

hehe..saya evil! duit da dapat..nk diam2 boley? hehehe...

for 3 months salary there..still not anywhere near to what should an engineer get for a month! sigh! so..this should make me more rajin!! yosh!!

mara debited my allowance! yey! finally!! ^_^

alhamdullilah!!! happy2!! ^_^

Your EQ is 147

You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin.

You are warm and open. Even when life gets you down, you're unafraid of the world and its challenges.
You are comfortable with who you are. And you accept your weaknesses - as well as the weaknesses of others.

While you are quite stable, you don't respond perfectly to every bad situation that comes up.
But you have enough emotional intelligence to know when you need a course correction.

What's Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?

Blogthings: We're Not Shrinks, But We Play Them On the Internet

You'll Have 3 True Loves

People wouldn't take you for a passionate person - and that's where they'd be wrong.
You can develop deep emotions quickly, and you're the type most likely to move in with someone after a few dates.

Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 1

You are most compatible with people born on the 5th, 14th, and 23rd of the month.

peace n out ^_^

jodoh?

2011-02-28T20:13:00.000+08:00

salam~

since yesterday was a big day for a friend of mine..i am thinking of my own big day..when la? haish..but the big question now is..who la? sigh again~
currently..i love to read any articles that touch on the matter..learning the correct way maybe..because i am in a middle of a something u can call a relationship..but i think it is still a scandal. i am hoping it can change to something more real but let just go with the flow and let time decide. after all..only Allah knows what best for me. for what i know..he is different from the others..they are all very sweet and caring..but this one..he just different..too straight forward i would say..i was shock at first but..since it was something i was looking for in the last..so i guess..i can accept this..but..i still can give 100%..not knowing why..maybe i am still afraid. afraid for the past..

yesterday..i was furious because he said he didnt want they to know..keeping me as a secret..but today..i was skeptical when he called me when he was with his friend..mind is taking it as..show-off! haha..schuzyy! get real..u need to know what u want..accept whatever in front of u as ur destiny..whether it is good or bad..haish..there are too much in head rite now..just need to clear up some space for more concentration in studies! and project and group assignments! sigh!

peace n out ^_^

penat gile..penat yang dh rasa nk gile~

2011-02-27T22:17:00.000+08:00

salam~

today..me and friends did a wonderful and crazy thing! hehe..anyway..thanks yana, jana, eda and ita..u made my day..oh..what happened today? we went to our friend's wedding..GMI's friend..Mrs Noreen Nadia n her husband..Mr Edi..congratulations to both of u..soo happy for both of u! hope to see the first baby of GAPP 4 soon! ^_^

oh..the kenduri was in kluang..yes its in Johor..and we made it in one day..haha..the journey started at 9am..hehe..supposedly planned at 8am..but due to waking up lazily around 6.40am..fbooking and doing bit of schoolwork..only then we started preparing for sandwiches. luckily all the sandwiches are gone! yipee!! hehe..berkat me as the makcik kantin..gagaga..arrived at the dewan at 12pm..makan..then we went to noreen's house witnessing her being dressed up...she was sooo beautiful and skinny!! gosh! but it's your day girl..u look perfect!!! soo happy for u..took few pictures on ur pelamin..hehe..gosh she had 2 pelamin! jeles!haha..then we went back to the dewan with her rombongan..hehe..xpasal2 terjoin rombongan pengantin..hehe..then arrived at the dewan for more pictures..then started the journey back..soo..tired already!..i drove back..gosh! that was my 1st trial driving from south to central..hehe..yipee!!! so meaning..i already drove through south and north! yipee!! hen hau schuzyy!!! u made it!!! hehe..during the journey back..all of us are very sleepy..i took my nescafe..and with help of my botol susu..we arrived at bangi around 7pm..so..it's 3 hours go 4 hours back..minus around 30min or so for prayers at pagoh's R&R. gosh..after taking bath..i tried straight doing my work..but body said noo...really tired!! need the sleep..so sleep till 10pm..only after he called..haha..thanks dear. guess my theory still works! ^_^

so starting tomorrow..my life will only be about studying! studying studying!! no more excuses! ^_^

i am really really glad i resigned! not that i didnt enjoy the life there..but..3 months are enough..just like doing practical..3 months..hehe..will definitely miss all of them..i'll be back as customer..dont worry~

yosh schuzyy!! ^_^

peace n out ^_^

byk keje xde keje mcari keje..;p

2011-02-27T07:21:00.002+08:00

You Both Wear the Pants in Your Relationship

You and your sweetie seem to have stuck the perfect power balance.
It's not that you don't disagree - it's just that you've learned how to compromise well.

You're both mature enough to know that you can't always get your way...
And usually, you're both adult enough to reach an agreement - even if that sometimes means giving in a little.

Who Wears the Pants in Your Relationship?

Blogthings: Learn Something Surprising About Yourself

You Are Not Clingy

You couldn't cling to someone even if you tried. You're too busy being independent.
You're perfectly happy to do your own thing, and to be honest, relationships mess up your groove.

Make sure you make enough space to have someone else in your life ... even if you're single right now.
A little clinging can be nice in small doses. Try it sometime!

Are You Clingy?

Blogthings: A Fine Line Between Insight and Stupidity

sabar~

2011-02-25T12:37:00.000+08:00

salam~

i always expect the usual..and when the usual becomes unusual..i become stressed. hate and bored. and i will questioned. should i or shouldn't i? this is what i hate most. dah la tension buat report nih..sigh! sabar schuzyy! u can do it!! jgn malas2! u regret twice..no more regret bitte!

peace n out ^_^

hate being so poyo..haha~

2011-02-25T06:34:00.000+08:00

salam~

i was being so poyo last night..thinking that my english is soo perfect..haha..i'm sorry dear..poyoness hit me last night..hahaha..

i know my english was not perfect..but i am trying hard to improve it! yosh!! ^_^

being this much of age..hehe..making me be a bit more mature..saying the number..having the year as birth year..really making me realised, life is nothing that we should waste doing nothing..

last night...all those hugs and kisses..really touches me..deep down..i dont know why i cried..but truly from my heart..i love all..i will definitely miss them much!!! ^_^ the experience are precious! never will forget!

and i really really hope we can still be those ^_^

peace n put ^_^

hepi bestday to me! ^_^

2011-02-24T00:38:00.000+08:00

salam~

23022011

hehe..i was born at 6.21am 25 years ago..omg! i can hardly believe it myself! 25 is a very big number! suku abd kot!!

thanks for all wishers! love u all! and thanks for remembering my birthday!! and thanks also to mr fb to remind all of them..hehe..

my day wasnt so much different than the others..apart from all the wishes..hehe..thanks again..and all my closest friends doing their thing..pretending not to remember..haha..xpe..dah tau dah..haha..then..my secret scandal..haha..the drama was funny..both sakit hati..but in the end..he did make me felt a little above the cloud..thanks dear..love u miss u..then work..i was happy tonight..apart from he already told me not to be stressed..so i'm not..then..everyone wished when i arrived..that's sweet!! love that moment! got kak wati, nadia, liza, k lily and apek..and kak sie! kak sie offered her hug! gosh how i need a hug rite now..hehe..thanks so much! then..i saw apek bought eggs..i was scared..i thought of the idea..but gosh..hope not..then..the end of shift..omg! when i was talking to kak sie..apek came from my back..with tepung!! i was running all around there..and resulting with me being a cucur..lucky i saved the egg's life..haha..or else i would be azy celup tepung..hahaha..thanks dear!! i will definitely miss all of u guys..this 3 months are very precious to me..i learn so much that i could never learn in school..thank you..thank you! i will miss the life there! thanks for the celebration again! ^_^

peace n out ^_^

*by 25-year-old schuzyy ^_^

Apa yang dirasa~

2011-02-20T10:24:00.000+08:00

salam~

i found this in one of the forwarded emails..think it touches me..i always want to be good at heart and out. i want people to like and love me..but when at times..people tend to hate me because they think i am just acting. truthly speaking..sometimes i got lost in my own search~

Kadang-kadang kita merasakan diri kita berilmu, walhal "air mata" ilmu yang terbit daripada dada kita sangat sedikit. Kadang-kadang kita merasakan diri kita hebat apabila orang menyanjung dan memuji kita, walhal itu semua muslihat Iblis untuk menyesatkan kita.

Amalan seseorang yang banyak adakalanya menjadi modal untuk Iblis memperdayakan kita agar kita berbangga dan riak dengan kelebihan yang Allah pinjamkan. Amal yang sedikit turut dipergunakan oleh Syaitan dengan menimbulkan perasaan sentiasa berprasangka Allah akan mengampuni kekurangan diri tanpa sekelumitpun rasa ingin menambahkan amalan untuk mendapatkan keredhaan Allah.

Penyakit orang kaya adalah bakhil. Penyakit orang miskin adalah malas. Penyakit orang berilmu adalah takabbur. Penyakit orang bodoh adalah tiada keinginan. Penyakit orang beramal adalah 'perasan'.

Orang yang banyak beramal merasakan dirinya hebat dan disegani. Lalu apabila dia berjalan, dia tunduk semacam tawadhu' walhal Syaitan dalam jubahnya. Dia bercakap lembut agar dikata orang sebagai orang yang lembut hati walhal dalam hatinya tersimpan suatu perasaan takabbur yang tinggi. Apabila dia bercakap, dia merasakan semua orang memerhatikan kata-katanya. Syaitan telah memperdayakan pandangan mata hatinya, lalu dia menganggap yang buruk itu baik dan yang baik itu sebaliknya.

Orang yang banyak dosa pula sentiasa berharap dengan kalimah Allah yang Maha Pengampun. Dia terlupa Allah juga keras seksaan-Nya. Allah ciptakan neraka sebagaimana Allah turut menciptakan syurga. Neraka untuk orang yang buruk perilakunya, dan juga untuk orang yang baik perilaku tetapi buruk hatinya. Syurga pula untuk orang yang benar-benar bersih daripada sebarang karat kekotoran, jika ada sekalipun, ia terlindung di sebalik rahmat Illahi.

Sesetengah orang berilmu apabila berbicara, maka penuh mulutnya dengan pancaran ilmu yang mempesonakan, walhal hati mereka cemar dengan pendustaan. Mulut mereka berkata benar sedangkan hati mereka menidakkannya. Dia mengatakan cinta akhirat tetapi dia sendiri kelihatannya sibuk mengejar dunia. Dia menyebut perihal zuhud sedangkan jiwanya diselimuti perasaan cintakan dunia berlebihan.

Mungkin orang lain mendapat manfaat di sebalik ilmunya yang melangit, tetapi dengar hanya sekadar dengar. Disimpan dalam otak tetapi tidak di hati. Kepalanya makin membesar dengan ilmu yang sarat tetapi hatinya dipenuhi kotoran pelbagai penipuan. Mereka pakar berbicara dalam pelbagai bidang, aqidah mahupun akhlak, tasawuf juga barangkali tetapi hanya lidah menuturkannya sedangkan hati menafikan. Katanya pejuang Islam tetapi lagaknya berlainan.

Orang yang bersih hati pula, kata-kata mereka mungkin tidak membawa mesej keilmuan yang tinggi, tetapi apabila mereka berbicara, ia mengusik jiwa yang mendengar. Apabila dia menyebut soal dosa, yang mendengar akan terbayangkan neraka. Apabila dia menyebut tentang perjuangan, orang akan rindukan jihad. Apabila dia menyentuh soal ibadat, orang semakin rindukan waktu malam untuk bertahajud. Mereka tidak perlu berbicara.

Kerana akhlak mereka sudah berbicara sebelum lidah mereka bergerak. Apabila mereka ingin berucap, maka seluruh hati orang mula terusik dan menanti-nantikan mutiara kata yang terbit daripada lidahnya. Sekali orang mendengar, rindu akan bertapak dalam diri mereka. Alangkah mereka rindukan kata-kata orang yang bersih jiwanya yang mana mungkin ilmunya tidak banyak tetapi ia sangat memberi kesan.

Orang yang kotor sebaliknya. Berbuih mulutnya berbicara, namun orang hanya endah tidak endah, dengar tidak dengar. Orang mungkin rindukan pidatonya yang bersemangat, tetapi orang tidak rindukan mutiara kata darinya. Sekadar mendengar menambahkan semangat dalam satu atau dua jam, kemudian hilang berciciran di tengah jalan. Orang yang bersih hatinya, mungkin pidatonya tidak menarik tetapi jiwa sentiasa dibuai dan terusik.

Al-Hijr

Iblis berkata: "Ya Tuhanku, oleh sebab Engkau telah memutuskan bahawa aku sesat, pasti aku akan menjadikan mereka memandang baik (perbuatan ma'siat) di muka bumi, dan pasti aku akan menyesatkan mereka semuanya, kecuali hamba-hamba Engkau yang mukhlis (orang-orang yang ikhlas beribadah kepada Allah) di antara mereka." ( Al-Hijr: 39-40 )

sajak untuk hati?

2011-02-19T05:26:00.000+08:00

salam~

dear hati..
i always say u need to be strong..
show everyone that u are stronger than what u appear to be..
but they never know..it was all just an act~

dear hati..
i always say u need to please others..
show everyone that u love them..
even if u don't..
so that they can feel good about themselves..
it is always better to make their hati happy rather than ur own~

dear hati..
i always say u need to be patient..
show everyone that u are able to take whatever that comes your way..
but they never know..that u are dying inside..
but the act still goes on~

last night..
my dear hati felt betrayed..
hati always tells itself that be good to others so that it will get the same in return..
hati always knows that other maybe not in their best mood each and every moments...
so maybe when they treated it bad..maybe something when really wrong in their world..
but hati say..i never did that to you..what u still do that to me?
it is not fair..never fair..
but hati keep on trying to be positive..
it is hard enough being a hati..
it survived this 25 years..so another 25 years will only add up the experience..
so dearest hati..as it was told..
continue be strong as rock..
soft as wind..
u know u can move the world if u want to..
u know u can!
be positive!
never give up..
just forgive and forget..
they will too learnt sooner or later..

no worries~

peace n out ^_^

thanks ^_^

2011-02-18T12:39:00.000+08:00

salam~

maybe u cant always be beside me..but knowing that u wanted to..enough to make me really happy..u made my day~

thanks dear~

peace n out ^_^

popping a balloon~

2011-02-09T17:35:00.000+08:00

salam~

i wish i am good at doodling~

what's on my mind now..a picture of a boy having a heart-shape balloon in one hand..and a needle in the other~

the temptation is there..what matters now is only time~

hurtful~

peace and out ^_^

amazing~

2011-02-07T23:39:00.000+08:00

salam~

ok today i want to talk about..mind..mind is something that hard to control..but one can train it to be in control. what amaze me today is..how mind works. sometimes it can be brilliant..sometimes it can be dumb..but mostly we only notice the dumb act of a mind. the brilliant one? often be neglected or envied and being pushed away.

as 'we' put it..the ordinary mind that we mingle with everyday. when one only focuses their mind on one thing..or maybe one surrounding..sometimes..the act of the mind can be seen as fool and ridiculous.

let's us hope that our mind can be a little bit extra ordinary and be brilliant..ignoring all the ignorant of others.

ok. what am i talking about here? ok..this is my example of my own life experienced..and it just happened a while ago. i am 3 months old there..and in this 3 months..this 2 days experience really brought the shock of my life. people been talking behind my back. left alone those who talk in front of my face. lucky i am quite an actress. haha..i do mind people talking about me.. especially when they are bad..ok2..straight to the point. there are few girls..young girls around there..and ones who are most talked about are only 3...and it is quite amazing how i got in the list..well..i just found out tonight..a bit of myself feel flattered..it was almost never!! people got jealous of me because someone LIKE me..what i know..i enslaved myself there just to gain experience and most importantly...money..and what happened now..is something that i always avoid my whole life! stupid gossip! it is amazing how their mind work when it come to gossips. i was away for 11 days..and what i know after i came back..people are talking about me being favorite..yes i am glad..but truly speaking..what good does that give me? enemy? all my sisters hate me..giving me sarcasms looks and words..gosh i hate those things. i wanted to be good to everyone..and when i am soo close to be liked by everyone..they talk..and everyone just turn their back on me now..well..i think that is a cue for me to resign..well..lucky them..my problems is almost solved..so i think..on Wednesday..i will hand in the resign letter. gosh..i can only pray that in my real job later..none of this would happened. i only want to be a good.. kind hearted girl who is loved by everyone..and without having any gossips. people..please...tingkatkan prestasi..kurangkan kontroversi~

zasss~

peace n out ^_^

~

2011-02-07T16:48:00.002+08:00

Your Love Word is "Devotion"

For you, love is a doing word. You prove your love with the actions you take every day.
You are loyal and true to whoever you're in a relationship with. You don't give up unless things are absolutely hopeless.

You don't love easily or quickly. You only will fall for someone you truly and completely adore.
Once you love, you love intensely. You take love very seriously.

What's Your Love Word?

The First Rule of Blogthings Is: You Don't Talk About Blogthings

second chance?

2011-02-06T12:29:00.000+08:00

salam~

*this is a serious comment, feel free to leave this page to avoid any negative remark on oneself* ;p

when u watch a malay program, what do u feel? u like it? love it? or just hate it? i always wanted to watch a malay program and having the feeling to follow throughout the season. ok..let's track out what malay program that i enjoy watching my whole life..tv1: forum perdana..i know this sound lame..but this is one of the food for soul source that we can find on the local station. lucky we now have few islamic stations to satisfy us this way. tv2: none that i remember, maybe because it focuses on non-malay program letting tv1 doing the honour. tv3: ahaa..tv3 has lots of quality programs but currently i can only think of few, jalan2 cari makan and Am Max. reasons: because i love makan and now they have Qi!!! haha..but Am Max..i love to watch this program during my practical time..aired at 8am sunday..but now..i lost track..sometimes i accidentally watched it in the evening. weird rite? Am max in the evening..oohh..maybe it will give ideas on what to do the next morning. haha..positive! ok..list of programs stops there. ntv7,8tv and tv9 are quite new..compared to the old 3 rite ;p

ok..my point here is..i love aznil's programs..everytime he hosted a program..it always bring life..bringing the audiences together with him..but..since he is a success..everyone else also wanted to do the same..but to me..none of them succeed. why people love to watch aznil's, oprah's, david letterman's, and rachel rays's and martha's? oh..and eric's home deco? it is because they include the audience and the guest together. it is ur program..u can do what ever u want..but the life of a program depends on the audience and how they react to u. i just watched a program this morning. the host is someone i never thought would have failed to satisfy me this bad..he is quite well known. but the way he treated his guest..omg..pity them..i wanted to watch that program because 2 of my u-tube idols are on it..haha..love them! but a 30min program with sooo many segments..kinda make both me and the guests lost! (can see that from their smiles) please...if ur program is short..keep it simple. or u will lose all the attention. lucky u have the guests that i love..i was tempted to change to other channel..but they made me stay..hehe..i really really really hope that our shows will improve..learn from aznil, watch all those martha and rachel's..they are good in making people stick till the end of the program..and making them want to watch again..this problem applies to cooking programs too...i love chef wan's but some other chefs..they just failed. too focus on the program..they forgot audience have feelings too..if u treat ur guest bad..we, audience will too feel bad..thus..leaving the channel..

so, moral of the story..learn before u do something new.

getting off topic: gosh i love Qi..envy Yuna!! ;p

gosh..Qi made me crave for cendol! nyum2..kt mane eh wahab cendol ni? ohh..wangsa maju? shidaaa..blk nnt bwk aku g ye ;p

ok..enough said..

peace n out ^_^

wonderful holiday!!

2011-02-05T16:55:00.002+08:00

salam~

just arrived! well..not really actually..haha..arrived at sentral around 5.30am (claps for KTM..their service has improved!! congrats! less delay more people and i love the makcik at KTM alorsetar..she is super friendly! love u makcik! and u n ur husband are very sweet! love u both!) oh..why i said that? the train was scheduled to arrive at sentral at 5.36am..haha..for KTM 6minutes is an achievement! this is an honest compliment ok..very glad about this fact! ^_^ then go for subuh and waited for the komuter till 7am..gosh..always missed the first train..sigh..had breakfast while waiting..and in the train..gosh i was sooo sleepy..dozed off a few times..haha..then reached home around 8am. so it is a 12 hours journey from Alor Setar to my house in bangi..sigh~

holiday~
i can say that this holiday is something that i like evey now and then..relax and happy and quiet..everyday my day is pretty much the same..mama kejut for subuh then sleep back (hehe~) then wake up quite early compared before..hahaha..having breakfast..help with the houseworks..the home-stay..then either cook for lunch or eat-out..hehe..even though mama is restricting herself from eating quite a list of food..me and abah still eat everything we wanted..hehe..sorry mama..anyhow..we still love u! muuuaaah! ^_^

discovery~
i know this is kinda lame..but what i discovered this holiday is..haha..abah, me and fendi have something is common..haha..we are allergic to dust! abah and i were cleaning the house the other day..then both of us end up sneezing and coughing and getting close to get down with fever..haha..then we went to visit fendi's new house in penang..then..haha..fendi too is having same condition as ours..leaving mama feeling left out...haha..and mama was jealous because she is healthy! haha..funny ok! mama got jealous because we got that in common! days before that..a friend of abah told us that i got abah's face and mama's figure..funny how she told me.." ala..macik tu nak amik ati abah la tu.." OMG! mama..hahaha..but i think that is true..i'm very happy with that fact..because abah's face is something that u can spend hours looking at..such a peaceful face..and he has dimple! or i think it is..haha..and i think i got that too..hehe..anyhow..abah..i love u...gosh..writing this making me feel home-sick already! miss home! huhuhu~

ok..another thing that is happening in life is..i think i am in that 'happy phase' again! yippee! i still don't know whether this is really happening or not..but i want to take it as a real thing..i know there might be some obstacles later but i hope we can endure it all together till we reach there. the previous one? what in the past should be left in past right? i stalked on him just now..and i guess he is happier without me..so..glad for u! let's be happy for everything we have now..i am accepting the destiny God made for me..who knows maybe one day he will become the man that i needed. i am always praying to God for that now..gosh how i really want this to happen this time.. last night..he 'teman' me eventho he was tired after going raya with his family..kesian dia..hope we can keep this forever..i am accepting u for what u are as i hope u would accept me as who i am..no more 'that' talk because all that matter now is heart. Time is what fails me the last 2 times..and i learn my lesson. no more 'time' problem..so i hope this is working well now..i know u won't read this..ever..but one of the reasons i love this holiday is having u 'around' hehe..ok..stop the jiwangness! i need to delete all the text msg just to stop me from berangan ..hahaha..geli je~

ok2..time to get-up and do my work!!yosh!! with the help from Mr nescafe maybe? ;p

oh..not forgetting..time waster ;p

Your Dominant Personality Trait is Prudence

You are a responsible and together person. You like structures and schedules.
You don't mind having a long to-do list... in fact, you sort of like checking things off on it.

You are a planner, and you rarely act on impulse. You know what you'll be doing tomorrow.
You are dependable and polite. You do your best not to give anyone any trouble.

What's Your Dominant Personality Trait?

You Are Extremely Empathetic

Whenever someone you love feels a certain way, you can't help but feel that way too.
The emotions of others deeply affect you, and it's easy for you to be moved to laughter or tears.

You are very in tune with your surroundings. You immediately pick up on the vibe of a room.
You don't like to see anyone feeling discomfort or pain. You want to make everyone around you as happy as possible.

How Empathetic Are You?

Blogthings: Waste Time at Work!

peace n out ^_^
ps: i can enjoy colbie caillat now..hahaha..it has been a while since i stopped listening to her songs ;p

~if i were a rock~

2011-02-02T09:25:00.000+08:00

You Are Intuitive

You are in touch with your "six sense." You don't try to understand the world around you... it just comes naturally.
You are highly sensitive to the point of needing to protect yourself from pain and suffering.

The world can overwhelm you at times. You let yourself escape whenever you need to.
You are selfless and extremely giving. You only want to help those around you.

The Zen Rock Test

Blogthings: Waste Time at Work!

Your Birthstone Should Be Aquamarine

Aquamarine brings peace and serenity - two things you value highly in your life.
Like most aquamarine wearers, you're always looking to dig deeper. You aren't superficial in any way.

You seek wisdom and truth. You believe that there is so much meaning to be found in life.
You shun gossip and anything mean-spirited. You only have room for positivity in your life.

What Should Your Birthstone Really Be?

Blogthings: We Have a Quiz for Almost Everything

go or no go?

2011-01-24T13:40:00.001+08:00

salam~

first i would like to say..thanks Allah for the approval from MARA! i think this is a sign from U that u did not think he is the one..even my heart feel so..it is ok..head dont think so too..i hope i can find someone that can take me for who i am..not trying to change me..i am better like this..how can u not want this side of me..and trying to bring the evil side of me? gosh~

i know being with them makes me being a lot like them as i am a 'suitor' but for 'that' matter..i just wont let me be like them..i am way better. i know i can be like them..but i choose not too..i love my self..my religion and my family..Alhamdullilah..Thanks for loving me Allah..i know i will always do..for few moments ago..when i was thinking about 'that'..about giving it away just to prove the 100%..i regret even to think about it..that's the bad of technology..too much info can do harm..i hope i can still keep this to myself until the time comes. Insyaallah..please help me be a better muslimah~

test are coming! wednesday: HVT, thursday: PCI and PDE..gosh! still havent covered all..yosh schuzyy!! u can do it!!

next week will be holiday! yey! and i will be going home! yey again!

ok..few time-wasters~

You Are Very Emotionally Savvy

You listen to your emotions and always check in with them. You believe they are important.
When it comes to making decisions, you listen to how you are feeling. Your emotions provide valuable clues.

You understand your emotions, but sometimes it takes a while to know how you are really feeling.
When you're in an emotionally charged situation, your feelings aren't always clear.*nescafe? ;p

You know how to keep your negative emotions in check and under wraps.*friends help~
You are able to get out of a funk simply by thinking positive thoughts.

The Three Factor Emotions Test

You Are a Thoughtful Best Friend

You are generous and caring. You often know exactly what your best friend needs.
You are good at helping others with their problems. You are very patient and compassionate.

You don't anger easily. You have a big heart, and you try your best to give others the benefit of the doubt.
*i do get angry..but i try to hide it to prevent anymore problems~
You are protective of your friends and family members. You would do anything in your power for them.

What Kind of Best Friend Are You?

*kinda doubt this~

You Are Liquid

You are a laid back person, and you always good with the flow. Why fight things?
You are dreamy and imaginative. You get swept up in the moment, and you love abstract concepts.

You are comfortable with solitude. You treasure your alone time and get into your own groove.
You don't follow rules, and you definitely aren't punctual.
You act without consulting anyone else.
*these aren't true!!

Are You Solid, Gas, or Liquid?

peace n out ^_^

ps: i lied a few times..but is it OK if it is only for the greater good?

tooooo fast~

2011-01-23T11:14:00.000+08:00

salam~

dear God..please save me from anything bad that people might get me into..i'm not strong enough to resist all of this..not at this period of time..too fragile too think..too weak to be mean~

please help me~

emptybusynot-so-positive

2011-01-20T10:50:00.001+08:00

"Sekiranya ingatan pdmu mendekatkanku dgn Allah SWT, maka aku tidak rela berpisah dgnmu buat selama2nya namun kiranya hadirku dalam ingatanmu hanya menjauhkanmu dari Allah SWT maka jauhilah diriku"

You Are a Window Seat

You are a highly imaginative person. In fact, you are a visionary.
You are very curious about the world. You want to see as much of it as you possibly can.

You are mentally alert. You like to daydream, but your dreams always have meaning.
You come up with many profound and original thoughts. You find entirely new ways of doing things.

What Airplane Seat Are You?

*i hate this because this is only a fling! for u! not me~

*sabar*

scared to hell!!

2011-01-18T22:24:00.000+08:00

salam~

ok..the tittle is a bit exaggerating..hehe.. today? i feel bad about today..but luckily my room-mate's positiveness affected me nicely..so i've recovered in a blink..or i should say pretended to recover..i am always trying to not letting my anger out unless at the person i am supposed to be angry at..because i hate when someone else do that to me..and that is because i always get that! and i hate that tremendously! please people..i know u are mad..but telling the whole story to me in a tone as if i was the one making the problem wont help anyone..it will only make me feel u are a terrible person..lucky u i am quite a patient person so i will try to understand your problem..but lately..i kinda lost the touch and...trying to regain it..but all this madness around me..is making the process a bit difficult. haish..sorry to everyone affected.

why do i still want to write here eventhough i know i should be doing my progress report?
1. i am trying to tell myself that i am sorry to everyone who i ever be bad to. because today..karma acted on me..and i accept it! padan muka!!

2. i am expressing my grateful to this blog..because u are the reason ( i guess!) i can write quite nicely for the written assignments and project reports..hahaha..funny..i managed to finish 12 pages of assignment( with the help from a friend's answer la tapinye..huhu..thanks dear! very much appreciate it! ^_^) in 4 hours. when i read it back..it is quite ok..not all are craps..hahaha..positive2!

3. i am partly happy because i have someone who i think like me to bring it forward..and i am halfly hope that it would be true..even i know..it could be some problems ahead..but anything is possible in God's will~

4. i am expressing my 'cuak'-ness..because i might loose 15% test marks just because i was procrastinating..sigh! go away mr lazy!!! i hate u!

5. i am thinking...should i quit the job? i kinda feel the pressure now..but was it because i was procrastinating a little too much? huhu..yea..it is all my own problem..i know i can do better!! yosh!!!

ok..problem factor? lazy and procrastination! improve!

ps: i was pushed to say it..i still cant say it like it was before..but i am really trying hard to make it work this time..imagine the brown eyes..hehe..so cute! :D

peace and out ^_^

Sunday morning~

2011-01-16T10:45:00.002+08:00

salam~

again..i was awakened by nightmare. a real horror! by after reflecting back..it was all from last night tv..haha..so nothing to worry..hehe..anyhow..thanks Allah for giving me life again today~

like few nights before..i need to take 2 panadols before sleep because the fever is not getting any better..all because raining still a must everytime i get on bike. haish..but it is no longer a problem..i accept my destiny..anyway..seronok kot main hujan ;p

last night..i called mama..casual call..nothing to talk about..i suddenly asked mama..xdak org masuk minang ka arini? haha..mama laughed..masuk minang sapa? xkan mama kot..mau mati kena bunuh ngn abah..kiki..then mama said..ada ka org nk mai minang schuzyy? haha..rasanya kita la kot kena p minang org..*sigh! duyai mamaku~

then she told me about this tv show "apa kata wanita" which she heard about this love portal..haha..i checked it..it is indeed a love portal..yes..i want to call it that..haha..when i read through it..what i feel is..ewww...this people are desperate..gosh..and coming back to reality..gosh..am i this desperate to look for love? hmm..i did sign up..but maybe not to be too involved. one quote that i like..biar memilih jangan salah pilih..huhu..i was a bit choosy..or still is..i don;t know..but i is hard for anyone to win my heart..they usually win my hate..haish..God please help soften this heart~

oh..or should i just focus on my study first..last night i was discussing this matter with my housmate..officially there are only 2 of us who are still single in the house..so the topic is very interesting..haha..gosh..the pressure come because many of our friends are getting married or engage..and us..nothing..well actually just me la..she has scandal i think..good luck dear! i love ur story last night! :D

so..i let God decide on that..me? focus schuzyy!! u got test coming up! oh..last night..i had a friend from work coming to house..she told me something about me being boss favorite pet..omg! that was super shocking! haha..i was excited..but at the same time..i was skeptical about the story..was she just trying to see how i would act upon that? haha..luckily i am a good actress u know..haha..it's all covered! yey! so let's just hope everything will be just fine today..but yesterday was a-OK! love it..he text-ed me asking things..and at work it was as usual..fun and tiring..haha..lunch at apek's house. went back at 5pm..cooked pasta..then tapau her the food to give to her house-mate. then my panadol-routine..then sleep..huhu~

oh gosh..need to stop here..got few things to settle before i go to work today..sigh!

oh..time-waster!

You Are Intelligent

More than anything else, you want to figure things out. You are a natural scientist.
You are detail oriented and a bit of a perfectionist. It drives you crazy to spot errors, especially your own.

You know your strengths and weaknesses better than most people. You don't speak with authority unless you are sure about something.*this is true~
You are very self-sufficient. You've learned to rely on yourself because others are unreliable.

The Wood Floor Test

peace n out ^_^

moody is never a good thing~

2011-01-13T11:13:00.000+08:00

salam~

last night..was not a night i want to remember..usually it will be something that i look forward to..but since they came in..it was never the same again..i continuously be jealous and dislike. kids..but i think it is all just me..i am being jealous because they don't pay attention to me anymore. haha..such an attention seeker..pathetic! what to do..that is one trait of last child that i am trying to diminish. tonight will be another miserable one too i guess..because there another dictator going around. mixing with them..making me realize the importance of education..especially English. and from what i am seeing..people are expecting us to not know any english..wel..i thought every malaysian know english and speak it. there was a day when i was soo astounded when they are me..apa u ckp td kt org tu? upstairs? apa tu? em2..atas. 1st shock..2nd shock..cleanning..huhu..3rd shock..arguing with me about the usage of good evening and good night..omg! feel like i want to do english classes with them..i love them all..that's why i dont like when people are looking at them like stupid weirdos..yes they are cashiers and maybe the highest education they have was only SPM..but still they are all human who have hearts. i am too being pathetic by doing this..they are not that 'ordinary' they too have intelligence in life. most importantly..they have family and kids who love them. unlike me..having only parents and friends~

i'm sorry..i know i am being to sad over some stupid things..i know i should be professional in this matter. i am sorry~

oh..thanks room-mate for distracting me last night..hehe~

i dislike canceled class..it is only a way to make me being lazy..huhu..not likey~

positive schuzyy!!! huhu~

peace n out ^_^

~AJL 25~

2011-01-10T00:01:00.001+08:00

salam~

i will be commentating everything that happened during this few hours of AJL..hehe
since i wont be updating on fb..so i update here..hoho~

the opening was superb! gosh i still have crush on M Nasir!! love u en nasir!!!! ^_^

1. Yuna -Cinta Sempurna
- weird outfit..but still admire u ^_^ shida..nape tgk yuna aku tingat ko? adakah ko sperti yuna? hmmm~
- nice backdrop!!! love it!
-new arrangement is not as good as last year~

2. Tomok - Berlari
- nice dance!!! gothic! api!!
- me still not ur fan! ;p

3. API -Pelita
- cute start!
- always love Noh's voice..sooothing~
- ehem.. Nazi? controversy?
- nice end! meremang..gaga..love it!except the dying part..haha~

4. Shahir - kebahagiaan dlm perpisahan (lgu edry upernye)
- makan dalam~
- soothing voice~
- hair..not cute~
- xmeremang..will pass..kalo menang xtau nk ckp pe~
- hahaha..she really slapped him!!! good one!

* commercial break..a long one..
i googled on niquitin..haha..i wanted to give it to someone. i hope it'll work~

5. Meet uncle husin +black - drama king
- xbjaya mnarik minat melekatkan mata kt tv..

6. hafiz - nokhtah cinta
- opening mcm lagu omputeh..tp xigt yg mn..huhu~
- gimmick! haha..drama..hantu nyanyi!! gaga..nice2!
- hafiz u r cute..mcm bdak2..cute2~ ;p

*xsabar nk tunggu lgu fezal tahir!!! mane ni~

haha..faizal ismail with justin bieber's hair..haha..cute~

7. ana raffali - tolong ingatkan aku
-keutuhan cinta? hmm~
- wow! cage..changing clothes..
- eyes on screen but no remang2~
- still with her baju-kurung! good image i say~

yipee! faizal tahir after this!!! ^_^
twitter? haish~
haha..gedik act!

8. faizal tahir - slamat malam
-wahaaa...nice drama there..walopon mcm xde kaitan sgt..tp anything bout u is good!! hoho..love u!!! love u!!

wah...edry sggh hencem d ctu~

9. adira - ku ada kamu~
- props nice~
-auh..baju cantik!!
- voice boley tahan~
*hm..i didnt follow their season of Af..dont know this girl much~
-lantang~
- org sabah mmg suara sedap eh? got a sabahan friend who sing very well too~
- oh..dah abes lgunya..xprasan..haha~

10. bunkface - xtravaganza
-please be weird! erk..haha~
-yes! way to go weirdos! but they are superb weirdos..love u guys!
-sam remind me of Beatles..hehe
- nice music! but why oh why everyone just sat on their chairs? gosh! u gotta be kidding' me!

11. Black - sofea jane
- oh..yana tunggu ni..hehe
-saye suke! the lyrics..the performance..the soothingness~
-oh black..ur voice is much bearable like this~
- oh..tarik2
* hmm..when will someone name a song after mine? ;p

*another commercial break~

12. faizal tahir - hanyut
-ok2..diam2~
-aaaaaa...fezal!!! cair~
-remang2~
- maafkan lah ku xbisa hidup tanpa kamu~
-aa...kompem menang! xmenang xtau la nk kate pe!
- eh ade tegelincir sikit..huhu..xpe2 sikit je
-woh drama!!waaaaaaaaaaa..dramaaaa!!! i luv u faizal!!!
- aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!
- cair~
- sy terlalu kagum juge~

13. stacy - jahat!(lagu edry lg?)
- please dont top my abg!
- wiwit! love the baju! n the dance of cos!
- wow..but not as much as my abg! ;p

*shadap not shadap = diam x diam...hahahaha~

14. hujan - mencari konklusi
- loud! voice ilang begitu saje~
- ok tbe2 jeles ngn mizz nina~
-u did better before!

*eh habis dah
*another commercial break; oh..byknye iklan yg dubbed from Indonesian..why?

ok back!
haha..3 supernovas! ;ziana zain, kak pah, n CT~
-oh kak pah dah pakai tudung? alhamdullillah~
-love this song..hati ku kau bawa pergi terbang tinggi..ku menanti pelukanmu yg kurindukan~
- eh sengau?
-oh lagu jiwa kacau! yikes~
= 2nd song: auh..feel like dancing! go-go..ago-go! cucuk bintang! kak pah..lawa la mekup!

ziana zain
-wiwitt!! miss u n ur kening! ;p
- woh! remang2! madah berhelah!
- oh my! kalo ziana yg masuk..kalah org lain nih~

CT
-wah..less covered i see..eh..no more tudung! omg! what happened? ke pakai tp kaler hitam? huhu..tv nih..xnmpk lak..
- wah..make-up cantik!!! nak2!
- eh..tp dah kurus blk ye cik CT? jeles2 ;p
- kagum..voice still the same~
- ahaa..cindai! my most favorite! teringat masa kecik2..hehe..kumpul duit skolah semata2 nk beli kaset ct..hehe~

the winners are:

persembahan terbaik: faizal tahir; hanyut! yey!!!! my abg!!!

vokal terbaik: hafiz; nokhtah cinta: stuju2!! flawless..soothing~

3rd: ajai noktah cinta HAFIZ!!
2nd: taja/tun teja meet uncle husin+black drama king~

asal xbedebar pon? huu~

juara lagu : ana raffali??? tlg ingatkan aku? omg! mmg wow..congrats dear..i'm speechless~

ok..faizal tahir xmenang? hmm..sedey sket d ctu..xpe2~

ok..that's all about AJL 25..hmm..hate the number..huhu~

i was supposed to search on my assignments' material but what i did just clearing my email inbox..and i found something that i think worth sharing here~

New Year's Resolutions You Can Actually Keep!

Resolution No. 1: Learn to Laugh at Yourself

Laughing feels much better than stressing.; yes..i am doing this much currently..oh..i smile~

Resolution No. 2: Practice Forgiveness

commit to forgiving those who have hurt you — and to forgiving yourself as well~

Resolution No. 3: Donate Your Time to Others

Helping others actually benefits you too — it can make you feel great. Research shows that people who volunteer are physically and mentally healthier than people who don't. have something to look forward to~

Resolution No. 4: Get Organized at Home

You'll feel more on top of chores and less overwhelmed when at least one aspect of your life is in good order.

this is definitely in my list! :D

Resolution No. 5: Put Sex Back Into Your Life

Sex not only keeps you close to your partner, but it also offers health benefits.

erk..pass~

Resolution No. 6: Schedule a Health Check-Up

Resolution No. 7: Manage Stress

Resolution No. 8: Keep Exercising

exercise in general helps to manage stress and makes most people feel better and function better

Resolution No. 9: Commit to Healthier Eating

a healthydiet improves physical health as well as emotional health and cognitive function

Resolution No. 10: Have Fun With Friends

Making time for friends and social relationships can help lower stress levels.

Resolution No. 11: Hit the Hay on Time

Studies have found that children who have regularly scheduled and healthy sleep become physically and emotionally healthier adults. Adopt good sleep practices, including setting a regular bedtime and waking up at the same time each day (yes, on weekends, too). To get good quality sleep, create a dark, quiet, and comfortable sleep environment.

Creativity Can Keep You Healthy

If you've ever wanted to take singing, dancing, or knitting lessons, you've got a perfect reason to start: Creativity reduces stress and keeps you healthy.

Most importantly, whatever you decide to do, make it fun. Sure, it's one more thing to add to your busy schedule, but taking time for creativity is one of the best investments you can make for your body and spirit.

ps: ok..still in mood xpecaye..huhu~

pape pon..congrats to all winners..like always..they win...not us..haha..

peace n out ^_^

getting old~

2011-01-06T08:11:00.000+08:00

salam~

last night was the first time i was not enjoying my time at work..gosh! really felt like i'm a bit older for those kids. i was bebel-ling at this girl because she wasn't too new that she need help in everything..plus the arrogant of a kid that think she's the best. omg! kids these days..that is the moment when i think i am getting older..or maybe should i re-phrase it..i feel a bit wiser and mature..wah..hehe..they were singing and laughing and making stupid jokes..and worst of all..they spend twice the time i spent to settle the end-of-day job..gosh! really tested my patience. end-up we all went back at almost 12am! gosh i hate that..i really missed those time went i wass the youngest and they all treated me like young budak skolah..haha..yes yes..i know i am being pathetic! i am such an attention seeker..haha..ok2..enough of the childishness..be like a 25! gosh! the number again~

positive schuzyy!!! u can do this!!!

peace and out ^_^

nightmare!

2011-01-05T07:28:00.000+08:00

salam~

morning world! such a cold morning today..luckily i had a nighmare last night that woke me up this morning..gosh! did i think too much? it was about having mid term exams..and everyone was studying except me. me being me..procrastinate..omg! schzuyy! God is giving u sign! study now or u'll never survive this sem. yosh!!! better start now! got to work on those assignments and notes. it is kinda true..i go to class..i listen..i understood..but when comes to questions...i lost it..or my mind just being lazy to think..which i know is bad..gosh!

another problem: this weekend..my niece is getting married. my aunt told me long ago to come back for the kenduri..but i havent tell anyone at work about it..gosh how i'm scared i can't get away.

ok2..that's enough to make my mind start working! new day new start!! 8 bulan lagi!!! ^_^

peace n out ^_^

^_^

2011-01-05T00:10:00.002+08:00

You Are Enthusiastic

Your friends would all agree that you're the happiest and most optimistic person they know.
You can't help but see life as full of possibilities, even when things don't go your way.

You like to embrace every opportunity, and because of this, you sometimes shy away from commitment.
Your biggest fear is losing out. You try to do as much as you can so that you don't miss a thing.

The Pasta Test

Work is Hard. Time for Blogthings!

new year!

2011-01-03T09:37:00.000+08:00

salam~

last night a friend said to me..i has been a long time since she last recite the quran. sadly..it too remind me of me..and reading on shida's entry..she too talk about this..thanks dear..insyaallah..i will start making it constant~

my new year resolution? i hate doing this because it will remind me of someone. so i will only say..i will try do my best in everything..not judging a person on what they say. keep my mouth shut and be a good muslimah~

jodoh? hmm..having 25 as an age..is kinda scary..everyone is asking..and what i can say is..tolong la carikan..haha~

my target for this year:
1. do my FYP rajin2!
2. NO Feeling involved!
3. be friendly- no more enemy please! stop being evil schuzyy! it is enough!
4. try not to burden MaBah ok~
5. less thinking on things that will not benefit any~

5 is enough~

peace n out ^_^

respect~

2010-12-30T23:54:00.000+08:00

salam~

respect others if u want them to respect you~

peace and out ^_^

i think i'm evil~

2010-12-30T07:22:00.000+08:00

salam~

am i? because sometimes i think i am too quick to judge..and when i'm judging..it usually inaccurate. this is the part where i really want to improve so badly! i love to make friend..but friends i made this few years time..usually turned out to be someone that i learn to dislike when i get to know them. running away from them hurt me as much i hurt them. i am sorry if i did that to you. i am still getting to know myself. i know this somehow will effect my own life. i am regretting this. i will learn to accept you as u are. i will..trust me..i will~

right now..head is stressing out! FYP! gosh! everytime the word cable come..i feel much stressed! gosh! should i rethink about this part-time job? but i do love this. it is like having another world. another life. day..as a student..night as a totally free-person without any burden. thanks to them..you make me smile. having you in my life now does mean so much to me..i hope what you say about time will come true. i don't know why i believe in you. but i do.

lies? why do people tell lies? and they say i am weird for believing too easily? what's wrong with telling the truth? gosh..i may not be kind at heart all the time..but the only thing i never do..is telling lies. that's why i hate liar..excuses on the other hand different ;p

ok..enough said~

peace n out ^_^

senyum is the greatest gift of all~

2010-12-24T12:14:00.001+08:00

salam~

today's topic is..smile..people say i smile a lot..i like it when they noticed..i know i am no pretty or beauty so i need my smile to make my appearance better..agree?

when i work i need my smile because it involves other people..but when they repeatedly come to see my smile..the smile will fade..like that day..a man came..he was teasing me..saying that he love to come because he love to look at this tembam girl..then he came to me and said ala..senyum la sket.. automatically i kembongkan pipi...OMG! i remembered a quote saying..a good girl is one who don't look and not looked at..huhu..so i guess i shouldn't be too friendly to people like that..bknnye dtg tuk beli barang..huhu..the bad thing about working there is i am exposing myself to people..but looking at the bright side..this is good for my observations and changing my perspective towards life..that's the reality that everyone is facing..whether it is good or bad..that's what we call life~

i am still trying to understand myself and people around me..and what i found out about myself that need attention is..i need not to fall for someone too easily..heart! please..behave2...there are too many people who are not trustworthy out there..just be aware..and lookout! don't trust people blindly~

one more thing..i don't understand why married people still want to flirt around..gosh! be loyal to ur spouse please!

ok..enough said~

time-wasters~

You Are Creative

You are open minded, flexible, and adventurous. You never quite know where you're going, and you like it that way.*true...just go with the flow~

You take a lot of time to enjoy yourself and live life to the fullest. You don't mind being in the slow lane.*yea!

You find that most tasks are easier than you anticipated. Things are never as bad as they seem.*betol3! positive2!!

You work hard for the material rewards you get in the end. You wouldn't have your job if it didn't pay you.

The Labyrinth Test

You Are Fun Loving

The holidays are a nonstop good time for you, and you don't have the patience for any stress or drama.
You're hoping that you can make everyone laugh during this stressful time of year... or at the very least smile.

You are confident and secure in who you are. You like to be the life of the party.
You stay away from the sappier sides of the holidays. You prefer to keep it uplifting.

The Holiday Card Test

Your Attachment Style is Preoccupied

You expect others to love and respect you, but you're still working on loving and respecting yourself.
You crave intimacy, and sometimes you try to get too close to people too quickly.*sigh~

You are afraid of being rejected, and you feel ashamed if someone else doesn't share your feelings.
You tend to alternately push people away and overwhelm them. It's hard for you to find a happy medium.*still looking~

What's Your Attachment Style?

peace n out ^_^

heart and soul

2010-12-21T00:58:00.000+08:00

salam~

i hate it when this things happened to me..again and again..repeatedly. But when i discuss the matter with a friend, the conclusion is..what if this is Karma? well..not saying i believe in karma..but even in Islam..things like cash pay-back do exist..huhu..i know i am being a bad girl a bad friend sometimes. i slowly ran away from friends..you might say i am being selfish. yes maybe i so..but i do this for your own benefits too..you said i hurt u..so maybe it is better if we dont hang around much..and it is proven..we are better like this. i love being friended to everyone. but sometimes when i get along with one person a little too close..i tend to run away..don't ask me why..maybe i am scared that we would be too close and i can't be apart from you..gosh..no no..i am not a lesbo..i am still straight! still in love with boys..haha~

maybe this is a lesson for me..lesson for me to be good to everyone..without wanting anything back..i am mean to my girlfriends..that's why He haven't let any man come into my life..it's OK..i am fine for now..but please Allah..let mama know about your plan~

haha..emo emo emo..so sorry..i am trying to avoid emotional-entries..but guess i am not trying hard enough..i am upset with myself because i am being stupid when it comes to this..again!! and i hate it so much! lucky tonight i am being strong enough...life must go! yosh schuzyy!! you got tonnes of things to do rather than spending time thinking about those hopeless things..go schuzyy!! you are better than this and you know it!!

peace n out ^_^

true love~

2010-12-20T19:08:00.001+08:00

Kali ni aku nak kongsikan tentang KEKASIH aku? (aku taip huruf besar tu sebab aku terlampau sangat sayang kat DIA!) Penyayang sifatnya. Betul ni.. tak tipu punya! Pure cintalah nak dikategorikan tu. Apa taknya, masa aku susah, minta tolong sajalah pada DIA. Pasti akan datang bantuan. Bila aku susah hati, boleh terus ngadu kat DIA -> direct! Pergghh !!

Yang bestnya tu, bila aku dah ngadu kat DIA, terasa peace aje. For surelah...KEKASIH, kan?! Ish! Beruntung betul dapat KEKASIH cam ni... tak pernah nak sakitkan hati aku. Bila-bila masa aje aku boleh contact DIA. Yang seronok tu, sebab memang betul-betul rasa DIA tu dekat kat hati ni! Ye la, cinta punya pasal, kan?

DIA tak kisah pun kalau aku tak ingat kat DIA. Tapi rugilah aku. Sebab, kalau aku ingat &contact je DIA, sure macam-macam la yang aku dapat. Tak kiralah, material ke... spiritual ke... emm memang kekasih sejatilah tu! Bila aku rindu kat DIA, baca je surat-surat yang DIA bagi tu. Macam-macam nasihat ada dalam tu. Siap bagi contoh lagi nak suruh aku faham.

Sebelum ni, aku pernah gak frust. Memang sedih giler la masa tu. Ye la, cinta bagai nak rak, tiba-tiba clash gitu aje. Tapi KEKASIH aku yg ni lain, DIA tak kisah pun dengan cerita aku frust tu. Siap bagi semangat lagi. DIA takde jeles pun.

Cuma aku je yang jeles dengan DIA. Memang ramai yang jatuh cinta dekat DIA. So, aku pun kenalah usaha betul-betul. Kata orang putih ~what you give, you get back~

So, kalau aku usaha lebih sikit, aku dapat lebih la, kan? KEKASIH aku ni baik sangat-sangat.

Perfect! Tu yang kadang-kadang aku tengah-tengah malam... pukul 3-4 pagi tu pun, kalau aku terjaga, aku sure akan contact DIA. Rindu aaaa! Sebenarnya, KEKASIH aku ni kaya... millionaire... billionaire...dan entah apa-apa naire lagi... tu yang pemurah sangat tu. Semua keperluan hidup aku, DIA yang support... percaya tak?

Free of charge... tapi aku tak sedap hati la... mestilah kena hargai apa yang DIA bagi tu, kan? Mak aku kata, kalau orang dah bagi, suka ke tak suka, amik aje la.. .pastu pandai-pandailah membalas budi.. tu yang buat aku sanggup berkorban apa sahaja... cheewah!

DIA suruh aku belajar sungguh-sungguh. Kalau boleh belajar semua ilmu. Sebab, KEKASIH aku ni memang cerdik+bijak+genius dan lain-lain...DIA kata, tanpa ilmu, setiap amal yang aku buat semua sia-sia. DIA pun tambah sayang kat aku kalau aku rajin belajar.

Malu la sebenarnya nak cakap ni...

Emm... aku sebenarnya belum pernah jumpa DIA lagi pun. Belum bersedia la... tapi KEKASIH aku ni dah janji, satu hari nanti, mesti jumpa. Sekarang ni menghitung hari la aku ni. Tapi kecut perut gak! Takuut! Aku mesti prepare awal-awal.

Daripada surat-surat DIA yang ada tu, aku tahu la apa yang DIA suka, apa yang DIA tak suka. Mestilah aku nak buat apa yang DIA suka, jadi, DIA tambah-tambah sayang la kat aku, kan? Takpe la, berkorban sekarang, sebab dia dah janji, sapa-sapa yang DIA sayang, DIA bagi hadiah special yang aku tak pernah terfikir pun!

Ish! Rindu sangat dah ni!

Kekasih.. Aku berjanji, aku akan pertahankan cinta suci ini..
Walau nyawa digalang ganti, menggadaikan cinta teragung ini..
Tidak sama sekali..
Walaupun tak pernah berjumpa, aku tetap bahagia..
Itulah kekasihku.. Allah SWT.. cinta teragungku!

- Artikel iluvislam.com

ps: thanks so much for the article..love it..it is true..HE is the only lover that can give everything that we ever wanted and never ask for anything back.

i ask for HIS forgiveness..for one second today..i thought i could never find love..now i realized that the ultimate LOVE is from YOU and u have given me everything. Thanks so much~

Allah akan memberi kebahagiaan kepada hambanya yang sabar~

peace n out ^_^

thanks Allah..yosh FYP!!

2010-12-20T06:20:00.000+08:00

salam~

i did something last night..and i think i did it good.. and now i realize that i am being stupid..for believing it could happened to me..the truth is..they are still the same..can't be trusted! but i put myself to blame..they warned me..i am the one taking the risk. so take that! but i am super glad i realized this now. so that i know if any of this come later on..i am aware..and will just consider those as fling. but wouldn't it hurt me the most? hmm..i was hurt before. so what else can i expect..just live through it schuzyy.. it was nowhere to be seen. maybe u were not destine for that. for now. it is all about study..nothing more. full stop!

ok..come back to some serious matter..this 2 final semesters, i will be doing my FYP! wehoo! i don't know what to expect..i am excited, i am scared, i am curious and i am too are doubtful can i do this?

yikes! plus the job..and the classes..i must be joking! no no..it is all about mind power!!! yosh!!

so..my project description is as below:

Project Title Details

Title:	Development of CBM methodology for MV Overhead Lines
Supervisor:	Ali Askar Bin Sher Mohamad, Ir.
Synopsis:	Condition-Based Maintenance (CBM) is essential for a power utility to optimize its infrastructure assets. Rather than calendar-based maintenance, CBM involves regular monitoring of the asset and carrying out maintenance based on the health condition of the asset, its age and its criticality to the operations of the system. This project proposes to develop a CBM methodology specifically for medium voltage overhead lines in the utility distribution network.
Methodology:	The student needs to do some literature review to understand the basic concepts of CBM as well as the MV overhead line equipment and technology. He/she will then need to determine the various Tier 1 and Tier 2 tests as well as the weightage for each one to compute the total health index of the overhead line.
Deliverables:	Software-based template for CBM of MV overhead lines which will calculate the health index of the equipment and give instruction on the next steps for maintenance of the equipment.
Sponsor Info (Optional):
Project Type:	Predominantly Design Based Project

my review: met ir ali askar weeks ago..asking about this. he said it will be about studying the MV overhead lines and figuring out the methods to make the maintenance condition-based. as it is for now time-based. Time based means, they will do the maintenance work once it reaches the scheduled date whether the machines are still in good condition or not. And for some equipments, it will be a waste of money and time because electricity in industrial = money. So this project will have and output of a software or simple user-friendly interface that will allow everyday men to key in the date and few other basic data that anyone understand and the date for the major maintenance can be estimated. TNBR is already working on the system for switch-gears and transformer. So, i am looking forward to working on this project as it is an extension for those. Ir Ali Askar said he have some materials that i can read on. So my research will start in short..right after i meet him today..if i can get myself ready..gagaga~

like i said, i am all excited about this..at the same time i feel scared..so life after this will be more internet, mingling with pc, books and journals and focusing on class..work? it is all about the money~

focus schuzyy!!!! u can do this!!! for yourself and family! yosh!!

peace n out ^_^

think~

2010-12-19T21:49:00.000+08:00

salam~

i was asked to think until 1st january..what should i do? my heart say go for it..why not..but friend say don't take the risk..Allah..please help me~

penat!!

2010-12-12T11:09:00.000+08:00

salam~

yesterday..work..gosh! because it's public holiday..they made me work all day because the pay is triple..so my greediness tricked me into taking the offer..and the decision has made my body tired till this moment..huhu..plus i still need to work this evening.. what worries me now is..i havent finish my fyp proposal..gosh! this is bad! i need to work fast..because i need to submit it on tuesday..and on monday morning i have a conference to attend..cewah..just as an usher la..kikiki..doing a favor for dr yasmin..actually i am trying to get myself involve with as much activities because i think my brain is getting lazy these days..and when it does..everything seems so slow..hate it hate it hate it!!

ok..observations:
people tend to look as cashier and those who work in the service sectors as losers..low..so low that they dont need to respect as the same species as their own..and realizing this make me sick! the too are human..they too have hearts and souls and feeling like others..maybe they only have SPM or PMR or none for a education qualification..but they sometimes are better in handling life..i have seen people who have Dr title in front of the name but having a spoiled children..seen in tv and with my own eyes..so..my wish here..please please please respect everyone around u so they will too respect u~

it's tiring..but i think i will love them~ ^_^

peace n out ^_^

life is wonderful if u appreciate everything around u and be thankful for it~

2010-12-11T00:11:00.000+08:00

salam~

today..what i learn from people..bad word just show that u are more or less like the person u cursed.

beauty treated with envy = silence
ugly treated with busuk hati = making fun

hmm..sorry..the equation doesnt make sense..but u'll understand if u experienced it.

a friend point out to me that i am an observer..yes i am..i love to observe people..i always wonder how they live their life. my stupid less experience say..it is always wonderful and greener on the other side..but as i live my own life..the greenery there seems better to us..but not to them..that is why Allah always remind us to be thankful for everything we have.

i was once been down with all the misfortunes that happened in my life..but i believe that life must go on..and what will be will be..it is all fated..our job..is to live the life as if it will end in the next second..and remember the creator~

i'm sorry if my entries are becoming emotional and boring to some..but this is a blog dedicated to my thoughts and feelings..feel free not to read this if u think as such. my English may not be perfect..that's why i am writing here..to make it better..there is always a room for improvement..all i want to say here..be positive! that is the only way we can be happy and make others happy..i may not be one..yet..but i am trying to be 100% positive with reason and logic of course..

peace n out ^_^

ps: omg! i got a face in my head that i can't forget!! how la how la..is it love? gosh! hope not..huuu~

restriction~

2010-12-10T11:38:00.000+08:00

salam~

i am currently doing some restriction on myself..just to make myself better..hope it will work..yosh!! :D

peace n out ^_^

happy new year!!

2010-12-09T10:20:00.000+08:00

salam~

almost 2 weeks since i last log in here..i'm trying to keep things to myself as i think privacy is no longer one if i keep on sharing it with the whole world..haha..but i can't stop being me..the reason i blog is because i want to learn to keep my mouth shut..so i will open up my mind using fingers..so here it is~

class has started..not so much..monday 1 class..tuesday till thursday 3 hours..and free friday till sunday..so..after a looot of thinking..i decided to do part time job..so i have been searching..and i found one! yey! very near to my house..and the pay is reasonable..i guess..but little is better than nothing right? so today is my third day working! people are nice..work only as a cashier..i am satisfied! so i think my blog after this will talk mostly about this new experience..thinking of making it in the other blog..but i guess that will be only for real jobs..hehe..

life? not much improvements..only that i keep on reminding my self on my goals..lucky i calculated my cgpa for the next 2 sems..and i think that really open up my mind..and i know i should start with believing i can do this!! yes!! believing is achieving..insyallah..other? i think i made up my mind..i have put up my priority! and i hope Allah has forgive me for being that before..now i have clearer mind..i think i should be okey if i know what i am looking for..insyaallah!

this is my new year resolutions: heart and mind..peaceful in both~

go schuzyy go!! u can do it!!! yosh!!

peace n out ^_^

more dreams~

2010-11-24T04:23:00.000+08:00

salam~

omg! due to my bat-sleeping-schedule..tonight..my internet surfing topic is..the Panama Canal..if i'm not mistaken..i watched a documentary on this and i got soo interested..and tonight..i search on that..and i found this video..which i love so much!

they say..the ship crossing the canal is paying 100k to the operator..gosh! they really made money there..
then..my thoughts wonder..hmm..how wonderful if i can experienced that too..then..my search continues..then i found this website..
http://www.worldcruisecentral.com

gosh! they have the cruise that sail through the canal..plus! a world cruise!! omg! isn't that everyone's dream? who havent dream on having a world tour..well..my original dream is to travel the world on land..by bike or car but on a cruise! omg! that is more delightful! and i keep on digging in the site..and here's the world trip that got my attention..

ahaa..see the price? and it is a special offer! haha..oh. the duration? 162 nights..
the itinerary is superb! love it! and i'm sure my parents will love this! but the price..definitely not..haha..so..let's start filling the piggy bank! maybe we can get on that cruise once before we die! yosh! ^_^

peace n out ^_^

no title~

2010-11-24T01:47:00.003+08:00

You Are Rapunzel

You are shy and a bit sheltered. You're curious about the world, and you want to break free!
You sometimes feel like you're waiting for your life to begin. There's so much you want to see and do.

You're still trying to figure out who you are and your place in the world. You're not sure what you who you want to be yet.
You are resourceful and brave. Once you are given a little freedom, you boldly go after what you want.
*secretly doing this behind mama's back ;p

What Fairy Tale Are You?

hahahahaha..ow..that's sweet~

2010-11-22T01:41:00.002+08:00

salam~

wonder what was the title is all about? hehe..well..since my room-mate introduced me to The Big Bang Theory, i have been laughing and sooo influenced by the series..yes..i am an easy target to new influences..huhu..ok..back to the series..i got so interested in it since i saw her watching and laughing by herself..and one night..she played 3 episodes back-to-back and that's the starting point for me..the BBT's fever! haha..and knowing that few of my other friends and lecturers too are following the series..then..now i am too..been following the series..waiting on new episodes..downloading! and today..i watched the latest episode..and i hope mama n abah dont hear me laughing my heart out just now..haha~

oh..time-waster:

You Should Go on a Mediterranean Cruise

You're the type of person who likes to shake things up from time to time. You're always looking for a new kind of fun.
You'd like to put a twist on your typical vacation routine, without going too off the map.

You are stylish, sophisticated, and worldly. You're ready to experience the sights and tastes of Mediterranean port cities.
A whirlwind vacation through European is exactly what you need to break out of your routine!

What Type of Cruise Should You Go On?

doing this make me think again on where are places that i want to visit before i die~

1. A place that i will take my parents and live there till the end..insyaallah..this is also abah's wish~

2. a place that i always dream on having a career at~

3. A place that i will go with my love~

4. a place that i will have a home to relax from the hectic world~

* this is one of the place that i've been to and will definitely be there again..and this time..the wave will see me surf! yeehaaa!!

5. Need to see this to heal the old wound~

*it is never wrong to dream~

here's some pictures i like while i was google-ing today..hehe~

but love this the most~

peace n out ^_^

change or not to change?

2010-11-21T03:12:00.001+08:00

salam~

i am thinking..should i or should i not change my appearance? i've been thinking to wear those selendang. not those fancy ones..just the ordinary style..shida said i look nice with selendang..but now when i tried it on..it just sont seem fit anymore..haha..well maybe because now it is kinda out-dated already. so i am back to my bawals..which make mama said..haish..xdak ka tudung lain nak pakai? haha..i dont like those awning tudung..so bawals seem simple and practical enough..so it is either bawal..syria or selendang? hmm..clothes? blouse? sigh! not yet a woman! hoho..so t-shirt it is! haish..i want to be me..me? bawals with t-shirt n jeans..no fancy2 thingy..but i wont look attractive..and no one will notice me! so what to do? should i change?

Islam say.. wearing our clothes clean and covering the aurat will be beautiful enough for Allah~

so who do i want to please?

oh..some time-waster~

You Are Allspice

You are not as complex as you seem to others. You really just like to keep things simple.
People think you're something you're not. And you're getting a little sick of being misunderstood!

You enjoy the company of others, and you appreciate people from all walks of life. You love to learn about different points of view.
You seem familiar to strangers. People probably tell you that you remind them of someone else.*haha..always get this~

peace n out ^_^

life as a Schuzyy~

life is fair~

engineer?

learn~

happy day~

GEMS

life is weird or is it just me?

thanks for making me hate you!

after about 1 month~

gems~

lifeless life~

thanks, but no thanks~

hello world~

weird~

nightmare!

weekend~

why?

being negative!

life without a man~

why i love your bf~

time-waster~

cinta sejati~

Bingkisan Doa

4 months race starts today!! yosh!!

holiday is almost over..huhu~

if only~

kagum~

cemas.debar.cuak

eat pray love~

love actually is all around~

hahaha~

memories remains~

wasting time~

work? or no work?

life is getting harder~

hyperness~

mood mood mood~

i laughed..laugh is good!

life and changes it makes~

happy soul~

Oprah show~

sy stress~

aish...sy ngantuk~

time to get buzy~

instinct

saye kene kedekut!

jodoh?

penat gile..penat yang dh rasa nk gile~

byk keje xde keje mcari keje..;p

sabar~

hate being so poyo..haha~

hepi bestday to me! ^_^

Apa yang dirasa~

Al-Hijr

sajak untuk hati?

thanks ^_^

popping a balloon~

amazing~

~

second chance?

wonderful holiday!!

~if i were a rock~

go or no go?

tooooo fast~

*empty*busy*not-so-positive*

scared to hell!!

Sunday morning~

moody is never a good thing~

~AJL 25~

Resolution No. 1: Learn to Laugh at Yourself

Resolution No. 2: Practice Forgiveness

Resolution No. 3: Donate Your Time to Others

Resolution No. 4: Get Organized at Home

Resolution No. 5: Put Sex Back Into Your Life

Resolution No. 6: Schedule a Health Check-Up

Resolution No. 7: Manage Stress

Resolution No. 8: Keep Exercising

Resolution No. 9: Commit to Healthier Eating

Resolution No. 10: Have Fun With Friends

Resolution No. 11: Hit the Hay on Time

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